A very long and winding road for this
man who never knew or me his Father.
Tag: sons
Standard of Practice: 2007 Documentation of Court-Involved Case Management – Dr. Craig Childress: Attachment Based “Parental Alienation” (AB-PA)
I want to share something with you. Actual progress notes from therapy, not with this pathology of complex family conflict surrounding divorce, but from therapy with abused children in the foster care system. The physical and sexual abuse of these children was confirmed by the Department of Children’s Services, and they had placed these children…
— Read on drcraigchildressblog.com/2019/03/30/standard-of-practice-2007-documentation-of-court-involved-case-management/
Releasing Old Contracts , Expansion..New Beginnings
Time lines are collapsing in order to surrender to
new beginnings from the inside out.
My vast amount of me time , once I to Truths
explained , I knew too the force that shadow had
in my life, secret societies ,and my awareness
reinforced with fear and horror as legal and
professions ignored my efforts to expose the
illegal , ill-moral, unprofessional , disconnected
religious support mirrored in each child , each
relative , and in my self .. and shame enveloped
me , as I began to understand it. Why I held so
much shame .
To acknowledge , I was no more , no less that a
surrogate , a maid , a concubine , a servant
in the soul of a family that has done so much
harm , as Christians , demanded acknowledgement
of 3 young souls who watched the deconstruct of
their Mom. Legalized addiction, drugged to
submission , that a human being of male
dominance’s , fearing he might loose money
or be exposed in his darkness of abuse , allowed
doing nothing save make his own plans of
stepping out of a contracted marriage for happiness.
That’s all I know..
His every intent , to avenge me for my failure
as a homemaker, servant , companion , whatever
he needed , in order for his property to be his
bearing out the Me NOT We..
Erasing me, allowing all is my fault , he was guilt
free and holding a lot of repressed and depressed
within , and there it remains . The Karmic he chose
to align with , holding the same energy met him
equally to participate in abusing me , and have
had at it , wide open legally and socially, enjoying
the experience of shame and abuse in our
culture of suicide . This has been his example
to our children and grandchildren ..
Trust does not exist between our sons and I.
This could show up in continued abuse through my
inheritance as one son referred to my partnership
that is his rulership . The experience of learning
of a near 300k liability against our shared property
and contracts I signed in induced compliance
allows my grave concerns about the facts , opposed
to his word as the time line crushes , exposing
what is , not what he says.
So yea , I failed , failed to acknowledge the truth
earlier , and involve myself socially , responsibly
exiting the matrix that made every effort to
destroy me, by removal of all I held dear .
I am very honoring and grateful for every
lesson, every shadow , every shame filled
projection , as I rejected the false for the truths
that are the air I breathe , the blood in my veins
the electric magnetic heart that is
multidimensional , which is unknown to
those who cannot see, cannot hear , cannot see
me.
Endings are very painful , the separation heralded
as permanent, having no empathy , no desire
to move forwards as responsible compassionate
mindful folks , who take care of their mind
body and spirit . who live to reduce , avenge
overpower , Abuse , using children and soul
connections and connectedness as weapons ?
I stepped out of that long ago, and a review
only intensified as a 3rd generation is
indoctrinated to hold the judgement and
shame , Clarity is the priceless gift 🎁 I
present , in light and in love, no fear as
it is this clarity that’s so needed , I but
pray for the words that convey the urgency
for the messages with what we all must
transcend , from a fear based ideology and
life model to one of pure light and love.
That I have a deeply traumatic life story
has issued my living death , leaving
3 souls whose light was drained of me
as I was created to exhibit the dankest darkest
evil projected at me .. a mirror or hatred and fear
reduced to a state of helplessness , which fed
him , served him.
Deserving of redemption , as each resolution
has been been rejected , the clearing of financial,
demanding money to counteract , along with
tangible truths , to off set his clinging to his
falsehoods and mask , demand action , now
for as mentioned here , a lot of folks are not
packed ( mind body spirit) for this train .
and it shows .
Mourning has been ongoing for far too many
years for what has no light no life as I’m
affirmed by free wills who choose to
shame, reject and falsify , project blame
etc .. I surrendered to my highest good
my bags are packed .
I am worthy .
As are you 😘💯🎁🎉🎶🌈☮️❤️♥️💕
Listen as she explains in her way , nuancing
much of what I know in my heart and soul
words that were strange in my unknowing
as they might be with you ..
The message will come to you in the way you
require , if you but surrender to your highest good.
I am a seer , I am aware , I release that I may never
physically , or spiritually reconnect with sons .
I have been forced to accept this loss each and
every minute , beyond endurance , without
compassion, or support , but a Divine support
and love that has been they’re all along , guiding
me , and I’ll honor that Divinity as a humane
Being in knowing and doing better .
Joy in my heart ❤️, I celebrate ..thankful for
the truths that liberated me from the dark
that consumes far too many .
I had no other choice
Survival breakthrough to Thriving .
I am rich in heart , Thankful ! Amazed !
His Hero Instinct And Why It Matters – Feeling Butterflies
I’m a seed planter , Dream Weaver, a woman of deep
faith , who sadly finds my efforts dormant in masculine
energy that sees need as a form of control.
I don’t ask for favors , and now have resources to locate
what I need for a specific issue. That’s less and less.
In my youth, the masculine had no chores , nothing but free
time. I was unable to discern the trauma of my brother
who was Casper around our house. His freedom was wide
open , gifts were noticeably focused on that , and I was
a very reluctant caretaker. I say reluctant , due to Mom’s
just do it example , and siblings resistance to my ineptitude
or my correctness, setting up a no win foundation on shaky
ground.
I went into my 1st at age 17 , with a boy who had many secrets
like brother..I had no idea how profoundly and deeply these secrets
pointed to trauma. It was hard to acknowledge , as I ended contact
with 1st after 9 months of not so wedded bliss.
A soul mate had major issues with fidelity , did not want to loose
me , and to break the soul mate connection , I married a 2nd time
exiting after 3 weeks , upon the realization of I was expected to
take the role of breadwinner , sex kitten…umm no.
Of course the hologram, that describes ” former” champions
secrets , in a mind -soul game he still thinks works.. Truth is
definitely not his forte’, and that is light to me. The official
moment of commitment , a shift began that I allowed was
a comfortable easy feeling. That, ended as our 1 st year brought
us our 1st child , leaving no doubt of his holding such shadow
that induced me to cleave into my child and domestic duties .
However , I rebelled or stood up , listened to his 3rd person
stories and slowly lost respect for his inability to rise over
the Peter Pan lifestyle ..Staying in C-PTSD with children
to raise , convincing myself I was in love to get through
things , compliant and hopeful in his self growth.. Sadly,
that hasn’t happened, and having based his future on a faked
past is the revelation that sets our family free .
I don’t have great expectations beyond that…it would be foolish
to consider all negatives ended , or wounds healed . Letting
go , surrendering this is not something that has ever been offered
me in fact , in truth , in forgiveness or love.. I will be willing
certainly to be part of healing reconciliation, when it is
important to the other party , whose over the blame and shame
cycle .
Secrets are deadly, and those whose way of life chooses this
path , don’t trust ..anything or anybody.. it’s very unbalanced .
My hero instinct is very real, I am not shy about saying .
How that’s received is variable, however without asking
in discussion , my needs are side stepped, ignored or deferred,
has been normalized in masculines around me ; as a strong
woman, I have or will have it covered …Complementing
and holding space , for imbalances to correct themselves
so masculine’s needs are met , he’s feeling supported and
not uneasy , or controlled ..
Transforming this is most welcome .. certainly it shall
aide in losing shame and projection of shame and blame.
His Hero Instinct And Why It Matters – Feeling Butterflies
— Read on feelingbutterflies.com/his-hero-instinct-and-why-it-matters-85/
Of 27 Deadliest Mass Shooters, 26 of Them Were Fatherless | RealClearPolitics
Note this statistic
Of 27 Deadliest Mass Shooters, 26 of Them Were Fatherless | RealClearPolitics
— Read on www.realclearpolitics.com/2018/02/27/of_27_deadliest_mass_shooters_26_of_them_were_fatherless_435596.html
When the kind parent is the targeted scapegoat
Tears flowed freely reading this , so much has been
evoked, and still each stands as is, not one true act
of family..quite the opposite …still.. Self revealing
and bound , with holding in secrets that uphold lies
and abuses sanctioned and supported in a corruption
of souls that decided I should be targeted .
Judges and critics , mentored children to dispose of me
and their survival required my living death . It’s very
hard to ignore , as my finances have been adversely affected
and still he threatens .
Adult Children with Cluster B personalities tend to use and abuse loving parents. Learn how to help them and yourself by setting healthy lifestyle boundaries.
— Read on flyingmonkeysdenied.com/2016/04/15/when-the-kind-parent-is-the-targeted-scapegoat/
How Narcissistic Parents Infantilize Kids | Psychology Today
This perfectly explains the dynamics I have been
aware of since Mid year 1978 , after sharing our joy
and witnessing the immaturity , and projected
blame of a man who had known this dynamic for
his entire life.
Typically saving the storied that solidified a lifestyle
that afforded a connection to call and a resolution
to all acceptance of responsibility. As our children
were abused in GM’s care, I have no doubt of physical
and mental abuse that was supported by money as
a god. I was , along with our sons were considered a
drain , financially , and slowly that combined with
drink , and sex addictions, with adverse parenting that
was more ” uncle” that dad. Partnership was with the
mother, never me, nor the ” replacement” , and of course
neither were ” liked” by mom , only tolerated until
shredding the completion .
Affluence, memberships, religious afflictions , secrets abound
with the constant projection of blame at any target . Our sons
and DIL have been ” targeted ” as well, depending on what’s
going on at the time. Vampires, emotionally , spiritually
who choose to remain ignorant and defensive of any
and all responsibility , considering my demise completed
old history .. Hero’s , the mom and son, who ” saved ” our
children by killing me alive , to save their abuse secrets
lies, begetting more lies..
Very comfortable that money and connections are their
constant out, which has been supported by professionals
who choose to do that in a network of dank dark shadow.
Narcissists as parents create children who themselves can develop their own problems. New research shows how infantilization plays out when those children grow up.
— Read on www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/fulfillment-any-age/201810/how-narcissistic-parents-infantilize-kids
Parental Alienation = Emotional Child Abuse …As an Intuitive it’s Soul Snatching
The Lack of Gentle Platonic Touch in Men’s Lives is a Killer – The Good Men Project
I see it, I feel it, it resonates , please read 🦉🤓
Mark Greene explores how in American culture, men avoid all contact rather than risk even the hint of causing unwanted sexual touch.
— Read on goodmenproject.com/featured-content/megasahd-the-lack-of-gentle-platonic-touch-in-mens-lives-is-a-killer/
MIA Survey: Ex-patients Tell of Force, Trauma and Sexual Abuse in America’s Mental Hospitals – Mad In America
Nightmare come to life for me, patients
robbing a wealthy patient of her precious
jewlery , dental patients who had all teeth
removed at once .
A diabetic who had both legs amputated.
An El-Vira co patient on watch , who attempted
to choke me to death 1st night in..
Not a healing place
Added trauma , Added Abuse , I went home
changed and rearranged , knowing how
unsupported I was , owing my abuse , I
took my fragmented self home, to
” comply” as a wife, and to mother our sons.
Complying meant being away from sons
in order to support partner .. 5 years later
I complied with psychiatry that I was mentally
ill, instead of abused , surrogated , lied to
and cheated on.
5 years later , I as well as our sons where abandoned
for his happiness .
In a MIA survey of former patients in mental hospitals, nearly 500 respondents told of an experience that was traumatic and involved force and abuse.
— Read on www.madinamerica.com/2018/12/mia-survey-force-trauma-sexual-abuse-mental-hospitals/
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