If You Don’t KnowMe By Now – Simply Red

This song when current , was true and to the

degree that our marriage had never been

and was never going to be healthy .

How could he know me , as I had to know

why his hatred towards me ran so deep

as to withhold himself.

The rabbit hole was far deeper and darker

than any nightmare I had in my life .

Including my brief drug experimentation

illegally . I did not realized the many

inducted dis-eases with addictive “side effects”.

I have come to realize that both Grandmothers

had adverse side effects , of Valium, the mother

of Xanax to which I subsumed.

I do not know my Mother’s drug regimens due

to my own induced addiction state of hell.

There was much grief , shame and anger

as I healed , in being unavailable in these

passages that are often vulgar displays of

the lowest of vibrating energy . Former showed

up flanked my his parents in 99 when Mom

exited . Flagrantly showing his love , outside

our home , openly before , I was to discover

I saw the as a Christian’s , affirmation.

I was not allowed to participate when his

Dad exited, and have not been abled to

locate a grave site . A Beloved nephew , who

exited be for him , catalyzed his decline ,

his addiction to Paxil , which he handed out

to anyone who wanted to be happy , and

his fat laden diet aided in an aneurism

in a kidney .

( * my understanding of what was told to me

may or not be true.)

No lawsuit was chosen , a million dollar bill

for hospital care , (1 year) , and his being

kept alive by sheer will.

Her diet attempts , saw him run an errand

after dinner for a fast food burger 🍔!

A kindly man , he stayed in the flow , Docile

Domestication .

So I had no idea of the trauma and rages

exhibited without warning , that sadly

have no end toward me. Nor with the

most recent supply that escaped near dead …

There was nothing in shallow Hal, that

is missable , grieves me, shame me ,

haunts me, angers me , or I can attach love

to. The years , decades long of concern

for his soul growth, long acknowledged,

accepted , and surrendered him to Divine.

He certainly deserves the healing , and

I expect his continue supported effort at

protecting himself financially , and skimming

self healing .. socially acceptable.

Of all I know change has adverse effects on

him, until all’s in perfect order . Perfect doesn’t

exist .

I found myself actualizing a mirror , when

raging , in privacy in my home , alone

by saying the words , I could not say one

on one , and I scared myself ! Not yet grasping

how much I had mirrored former , my inner

child , so much rage induced by trauma

unhealed , unacknowledged , fired up

by prescription medications .

My left arm throbbed enough to signal

backing down , getting chiller .

Buddhism helped, and yet I allowed

myself to be triggered and responding

in trauma induced situations , until

my edification of Domestic Abuse / Child

Abuse , PharmaAbuse Legal Abuse ,

Medical Abuse , in a culture of suicide

are .

I tried then to be more aware , less toxic , and

kinder to myself .

I am considering carrying a hand mirror to

energy vampires , gone mad , as was my recent

attack by a busy man in a parking lot .

Bam , here see what I see?

Not your best choice.

Suicide rates , and violence escalates in

such transitional, times as we now find

our world in. No New World Order , No

End Days as many are signaling.

Heaven is pulling to Earth ,Earth is pulling

Heaven that will require change .

I exit the matrix of lack , and own my

light of love ❤️, that will never , ever feel

unworthy or unloved or alone .

©️

Blessings & Peace .

Doña Luna

Simply Red – Holding On

www.youtube.com/watch

BSO offers pizza to child protectors who cut caseload | Miami Herald

How very low of any boss .. disgusting

The Broward Sheriff’s Office wanted to reduce caseloads in its child abuse unit. But how to incentivize? The department brass offered a pizza party for whoever could close the most cases.
— Read on www.miamiherald.com/news/local/community/broward/article229394934.html

Narcissists Use Trauma Bonding and Intermittent Reinforcement To Get You Addicted To Them: Why Abuse Survivors Stay

In general not recognized by profession , who

ignore or close their eyes to what trauma bonds

are , as in my case since a Dr had labeled me

despite my honesty from the get go that I was

hit , and targeted by win at all cost , ” family”

in denial that they were not perfect .

Sacrificing their grandchildren and me , was

a piece of cake.. a horrid truth I discovered

adversely affects more folks in hollowed halls

of law and men.

It’s a very good thing to witness healing of

this pick of speed as many wake to the erasure

of families , and the profit by bottom-feeders

whose deserving of being spotlighted , as

poster child’s , abuses that no Hail Mary

Father Forgive Me excuses . Holding this

abuse as excusable, is foolhardy, a higher

power begs surrender , residence puts

abusers , front and center .

I am more that ready , Thy Will Be Done

#FlyingMonkeys

©️

Blessings & Peace,

Doña Luna

Trauma bonds are intense, unshakeable attachments which occur in abusive relationships, making it difficult for abuse survivors to leave. Here are signs you might be trauma bonded to a narcissistic abuser.
— Read on blogs.psychcentral.com/recovering-narcissist/2019/03/narcissists-use-trauma-bonding-and-intermittent-reinforcement-to-get-you-addicted-to-them-why-abuse-survivors-stay/

For Abuse Survivors, Custody Remains a Means by Which Their Abusers Can Retain Control – Pacific Standard

This is a year old , and though my state does not has

not addressed this, and I can and will add supporters

and vision that addresses family in a consciousness

that is demanded for thriving, instead of serving .

Creating a safe foundation where each member is heard

seen , and knows they matter …it’s happening in greater

numbers that ever ..

#HarmonicHomesForFamilies

©️

Blessings & Peace,

Doña Luna

Despite growing evidence that abusers often use custody battles to retain control over their former spouses, Congress is still punting on basic protections for survivors.
— Read on psmag.com/

Narcisstic Cannot Answer this Question

This guy is so correct , I am triggered , at what

I must acknowledge.

I must retain my conciseness, acknowledging

watching the mentoring of this upon sons

the imprint, the demand and perhaps secrets

I cannot libel myself for , or insight ..

that this is trauma . Deeply held Trauma

vulnerable is not something they do.

Needs , are abused early on, utilized

by the parent , in love.

Our sons parked all that in me, as I was

induced into mental illness.. Awareness of

the AMA , induces , disease , A to Z

and I am going to grab a hot shower ,

Detox these truths of shadow

and head out into the Sunshine .

Days away from the writings of such clarity

and release, I am weak.

#NotMyMonkeyNotMyCircus.

🙏🏼#AllWillUnfloldInMyHighestGood

#ThyWillBeDone

#AllIsInDivineOrder

#SweetRelease

#PrayForOurChildInEachToIntergrateSafely

Blessings & Peace ,

DonaLuna

©️

www.youtube.com/watch

Black children commit suicide at twice the rate of white kids | Science News

I was unaware of this horrifying fact .

This must , this statistic will be transformed ,

transmuted , eradicated ..

©️

#WeGotThis ✔️💯🔥

The suicide rates for young black kids are higher than those of their white counterparts, a pattern that flips in older kids, researchers find.
— Read on www.sciencenews.org/article/black-children-commit-suicide-twice-rate-white-kids

The Narcissist’s charming story that lures people into their agenda!

The Narcissist’s charming story that lures people into their agenda!

https://afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2019/04/17/the-narcissists-charming-story-that-lures-people-into-their-agenda/
— Read on afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2019/04/17/the-narcissists-charming-story-that-lures-people-into-their-agenda/