Grief : James Abner Wheeler : Dad , Happy Birthday ! πŸ’œAlways , Punkin

I stood by your bed last night; I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying you found it hard to sleep.
I spoke to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
“It’s me, I haven’t left you, I’m well, I’m fine, I’m here.”
πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many things and memories of me.
I was with you at the shops today; your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«
I was with you at my grave today; you tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you, that I’m not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my hand on you; I smiled and said, “it’s me.”
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«
It’s possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, “I never went away.”
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew…
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over… I smile and watch you yawning
and say “good-night, God bless, I’ll see you in the morning.”
πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I’ll rush across to greet you and we’ll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out…then come home to me.
πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«πŸ’«

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Grief is a Portal Into Life

With the uttermost tenderness,
no need to rush,
place your hand on your heart
and gently knock on the Door of Grief.

What do you sense could be waiting for you
behind this door? What wants to be named,
honored and held?

Maybe it is obvious,
a loss so stark and unavoidable,
one that knocks you over
with a weight more massive and frightening
than you think you can bear.

Or maybe it is more of a subtle acheβ€”
losses of hugs, of dreams,
of days, of relationships,
of the familiar slipping out of your hands.

Grief is a portal
into Life.

Grief shows us how deeply we loved.

Be gentle with your heart,

~ Chameli Ardagh

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Narcissist Never Get Over You…

Seeing through the rage early on, seeing the 3 year old wounded child

that happened to be male , but imbalanced for whatever reason .

The trauma affected the softer , feminine child, molding him towards

an exterior that denied the softness.. Drama was not perceived in the dead

pan delivery in mask , usually attributed to someone else . I became his fix

his target , which he modeled for our 3 sons . He’s still in that mode ,

sadly , regrettably denying any responsibility , contracts that supersede

any written or dictated by human .

©️

Blessings & Peace

DoΓ±a Luna

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Stones In the Road

This song describes in part my experience and that of many boomers

who retain faith and hope , in a better world for all. In a society of suicide

we may have been induced into that society , duped that it was entirely

up to the individual ..Addictions became common , unexplainable, and

the individual who was already targeted by abuse with the home to such

a degree , that many stones lay in the road.

Who has not been held accountable ? Chemical /Pharmaceutical Corps co joined

with the AMA and APA and therapist who stay in the induction state due to

the enormous profit ..

Same reason a partner seizes the induction of illness of any kind to plot

an escape that only physically proves an abuse and ego that takes years

to get in alignment with their plan.

That does not detract from the totally casual partnership , that has no truth

being built on a foundation of friendship , that includes infidelity, withholding

information , emotionally, spiritually , financially, in order to have a body in house

to do whatever is wanted or needed .

Silence became the norm , 3 months after I do, when blessed with child became

a burden , I had to step out of .. I gained 30 lbs over my norm , our son was over

due , with the blatant disregard , disconnect as he discussed this problem

5 days a week at work.. He became the victim .. I became it , as he’s prone to

state , he had to marry me .

Wed 3/4/77 a year of great astronomy/astronomy, his wounds became

more clear and pronounced in the mask or his truth showed up in the

year of Chiron the wounded healer planet was discovered .

Our 1st son , bore his name , though he protested , I did not understand

his reasoning for not IV ing , as time bore out . 3/11/78, 2 weeks late

put his expected time of arrival was 2/28/78, my non Leap Year

celebration .

His πŸŽ‚ birth even 2 weeks late , still bore out , his false assertion that

he had to marry me .

Yes he had to…I cooked , I cleaned , I cared , I looked presentable when we

went out , quickly pushing through the judgement and critical words of

his life long partner .. Yes , I belonged to him, and a child he did not mentally

or emotionally prepare for , refusing to take precaution for , lacking that

responsibility , showed up where it mattered most ..πŸ’°πŸ’°πŸ’°

Joy was not something I attach him to in those days ..

Mask of the corporate , secrets, family business , locked into place

he was more aware with our 2nd son, whose birth was stressful

and he was drunk, or hung over ..Back labor, was harsh and

he was indisposed until birth , decrying he always wanted a brother.

Our 3rd Son, was the unspoken , Well you know what you’re in for

as a single parent , stay at home Mom …

Yes , I began to know my place in his world , had no growth , no real

attachment , no foundation .. I had 3 sons to nurture , and I was allowed

and I tried to make that enough ..

I was not enough, I lived with that those last 5 years , as he searched for love

outside himself, still … I gave up on him…A desire to hold me in the same

possessive shadow in regards to our sons , who have no intimate connection

to me ..

As it appears , winner takes all..he cannot take what does not , and never did

belong to him..

Stones in the Road , were boulders that have been removed , as the facts are the

truth , long ago released from abuse that has continued beyond , beyond .

I am not the sledge hammer , I am the Mom who knows the light heals

and I can longer accept being a target that has resulted in our sons being

abused as well, their children , a tradition that can cease and desist .

©️

Blessings and Peace ,

DoΓ±a Luna πŸ₯°πŸŽ‰β€οΈ

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Early-onset Dementia, Alzheimer’s a growing concern in Philly region | PhillyVoice

The number of millennials being diagnosed with early-onset dementia and Alzheimer’s disease significantly increased between 2013 and 2017, according to a report released by Independence Blue Cross. Diagnoses among Americans between ages 30-44 rose by 83%.
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Have you Experienced Betrayal Trauma? – Help for Partners of Sex Addicts

There are a number of factors which contribute to being able to recover from a crisis or a trauma. If you’ve experienced a betrayal, maybe read through this list, and see if there are things that can help you here: 1. First … we need to break through the denial and admit to ourselves that…
β€” Read on sexaddictionpartners.wordpress.com/2020/02/16/have-you-experienced-betrayal-trauma/

Trump’s separation of families constitutes torture, doctors find | US news | The Guardian

I can testify to this , and am doing my best to get these facts out there .

#Torture&Trauma

Evaluations of 26 people by Physicians for Human Rights provides first in-depth look at policy’s psychological impact
β€” Read on www.theguardian.com/us-news/2020/feb/25/trump-family-separations-children-torture-psychology

Triangulation: The Narcissist’s Best Play | The Psychology of Self

It’s all there , it’s very stark, but no more lies, no more riddle me this BS , no more

target, no more thievery of any sort , the facts for our children and theirs .

Ending this generational , currently epidemic, that affects too many families ..

Todays verdict against Henry Weinstein, is a victory for all, and a huge move

forward to ending this Domestic Abuse that’s upheld by the top.

Gone πŸŽ‰πŸ‘Β©οΈ

Peace & Blessings

DoΓ±a Luna

Within the vast catalogue of toxic behavior, triangulation is amongst the most well-known. It is very common, especially among narcissistically inclined
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Which Industry Spends the Most on Lobbying?

No surprise here :

All major companies have lobbyists gunning for their interests in DC. Here is a breakdown of the top spenders on lobbying.
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Over a third of domestic abuse victims trying to flee their partner plagued with financial abuse | The Independent

Way under , way under .. each woman I work with says the same thing .

Lies , cheats, steals …

#MoneyEqualsGodPower

One in three domestic abuse victims trying to flee their partner have been plagued with financial abuse that leaves them unable to escape danger, figures show.
β€” Read on www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/domestic-abuse-victims-financial-abuse-women-refuge-debt-a9253901.html