I have accepted this with regard to my family of origin, and the family I was discarded by. The blame will always be from them. They know everything , and find me ungrateful and unwilling to do what I’m told .
I accept their trauma,shame , and blame in keeping their abuses and use of me , is unhealed and what a detriment that is to their peace of mind , and soul growth . As I realized with the birth of our 1st child, while experiencing profound fear as he was taken for 12 hour observation, that God/Divine, had control of his life and I was helpless to do anything should he be taken from me .
Well he was taken from me , by many , and he as affirmed his trauma, his truth towards me , and his ever present anger/rage/hatred , and has not looked at all the influences that have him in a mindset that prefers me dead , and if alive , suffering , shamed, grieving .
Signs have presented themselves and will be seen as unhealed trauma , with those many influences and perhaps he will receive the healing he deserves and the peace within, mind , body and soul that truth and light bring . He may choose to stay in shadow , and again, I cannot help him as he targets me for all his issues . He did include his dad in his dissertation as he explained what a worthless rabid person I am, and how I should be ” put down ” like a rabid dog “.
Each child enjoys critiquing me , ignoring the situation , the dynamics , the family that was destroyed by psychiatry, Big Pharma , and a dad who wanted to win , and still refuses any responsibility for his actions and non actions .
My self work, and self worth will not allow me to consider any consolidation at this time and maybe never. That includes business partnerships , and reaching equilibrium of financial debts , and current pay.. the root of all this abuse is property . I am still considered property , and my usefulness is to be compliant , do as I’m told and not ask questions . For a truther it’s taken me over 20 years to speak my truth and it’s clear through these years and experiences that shutting me up permanently, is their wish .
However , I know the influences that retard spiritual growth , there are many, as well as how integral is is to soul and spiritual growth , or ” everlasting life .” My foundation of spiritual development and my mind have been tested , which have failed , and it’s now repair time for my physical which requires a stable foundation .. I’m joined by a friend who is helping me towards realization of that foundation , which should resolve itself soon ..
It has been 5 years since a hand written and witnessed document, was produced with promise of aiding me foundation-ally, a new vehicle , on behalf of all 4 family members as I discussed Child Psychological Abuse , and the unhealthy results for our children and grandchildren. He wasn’t interested or concerned , and never intended to honor his contact. I took that into consideration , knowing the result would not be advantageous for each family member.
My experience with a cunning , deceitful LLC partner , his offer of safety in his rental ( wasn’t his) , as he planned to take control of my property was the 4th attempt ,and left me homeless, and paying out far more for a roof over my head, but certainly not a thriving energy , just surviving .
The legal abuses , rose up again, as they were present in court actions with regard to business matters , until I was heard. I explained the high conflict, the malignant, intimate partner violence , and that he would never stop. I gave up the last of a very low spousal support, as I was advised with a force , declared, no force to take my social security .
The stuck energy left me long ago with regard to family , I’ve accessed through research , intuition , facts and spirituality and it’s clearly an ending . One he avoids , because control is everything , and as long as I have distractions I’m prey which has been proven wrong .
I’m not a place sitter , or a secret holder, and when it comes to my health and wealth being compromised, I will meet the challenge , aided by true justice on high as well in the system of justice we now see, as in many other systems is collapsing in order to be restored to be what it should be .
Of and for the people .
I love our children , but I release them , as I will legally , so that their inheritance will not be in partnership with me , which would only pit them against me in conflict that has been on going , by a man who has no morals , no respect and does not take responsibility for anything .
Toxic Families Punish Truth Tellers