Seeing through the rage early on, seeing the 3 year old wounded child
that happened to be male , but imbalanced for whatever reason .
The trauma affected the softer , feminine child, molding him towards
an exterior that denied the softness.. Drama was not perceived in the dead
pan delivery in mask , usually attributed to someone else . I became his fix
his target , which he modeled for our 3 sons . He’s still in that mode ,
sadly , regrettably denying any responsibility , contracts that supersede
any written or dictated by human .
Blessings & Peace
This song describes in part my experience and that of many boomers
who retain faith and hope , in a better world for all. In a society of suicide
we may have been induced into that society , duped that it was entirely
up to the individual ..Addictions became common , unexplainable, and
the individual who was already targeted by abuse with the home to such
a degree , that many stones lay in the road.
Who has not been held accountable ? Chemical /Pharmaceutical Corps co joined
with the AMA and APA and therapist who stay in the induction state due to
the enormous profit ..
Same reason a partner seizes the induction of illness of any kind to plot
an escape that only physically proves an abuse and ego that takes years
to get in alignment with their plan.
That does not detract from the totally casual partnership , that has no truth
being built on a foundation of friendship , that includes infidelity, withholding
information , emotionally, spiritually , financially, in order to have a body in house
to do whatever is wanted or needed .
Silence became the norm , 3 months after I do, when blessed with child became
a burden , I had to step out of .. I gained 30 lbs over my norm , our son was over
due , with the blatant disregard , disconnect as he discussed this problem
5 days a week at work.. He became the victim .. I became it , as he’s prone to
state , he had to marry me .
Wed 3/4/77 a year of great astronomy/astronomy, his wounds became
more clear and pronounced in the mask or his truth showed up in the
year of Chiron the wounded healer planet was discovered .
Our 1st son , bore his name , though he protested , I did not understand
his reasoning for not IV ing , as time bore out . 3/11/78, 2 weeks late
put his expected time of arrival was 2/28/78, my non Leap Year
His 🎂 birth even 2 weeks late , still bore out , his false assertion that
he had to marry me .
Yes he had to…I cooked , I cleaned , I cared , I looked presentable when we
went out , quickly pushing through the judgement and critical words of
his life long partner .. Yes , I belonged to him, and a child he did not mentally
or emotionally prepare for , refusing to take precaution for , lacking that
responsibility , showed up where it mattered most ..💰💰💰
Joy was not something I attach him to in those days ..
Mask of the corporate , secrets, family business , locked into place
he was more aware with our 2nd son, whose birth was stressful
and he was drunk, or hung over ..Back labor, was harsh and
he was indisposed until birth , decrying he always wanted a brother.
Our 3rd Son, was the unspoken , Well you know what you’re in for
as a single parent , stay at home Mom …
Yes , I began to know my place in his world , had no growth , no real
attachment , no foundation .. I had 3 sons to nurture , and I was allowed
and I tried to make that enough ..
I was not enough, I lived with that those last 5 years , as he searched for love
outside himself, still … I gave up on him…A desire to hold me in the same
possessive shadow in regards to our sons , who have no intimate connection
to me ..
As it appears , winner takes all..he cannot take what does not , and never did
belong to him..
Stones in the Road , were boulders that have been removed , as the facts are the
truth , long ago released from abuse that has continued beyond , beyond .
I am not the sledge hammer , I am the Mom who knows the light heals
and I can longer accept being a target that has resulted in our sons being
abused as well, their children , a tradition that can cease and desist .
Blessings and Peace ,
Doña Luna 🥰🎉❤️
There are a number of factors which contribute to being able to recover from a crisis or a trauma. If you’ve experienced a betrayal, maybe read through this list, and see if there are things that can help you here: 1. First … we need to break through the denial and admit to ourselves that…
— Read on sexaddictionpartners.wordpress.com/2020/02/16/have-you-experienced-betrayal-trauma/
The Moon’s Cresent Has Been Seen and it Has Beg ~ February 26, 2020
The name change from Donna Lynn to Doña Luna was a sweet transition
for I did not feel connected to Donna , hearing I should not be using the
married name by a messenger of former …
My last Psychiatric Dr has an accent that created the Doner sound , and Beloved
was of her country , much better at speech , but I’m not sure of his comprehension
grasp of the nuances , of our English ….Donna Luna Moon was his name for me
and I expressed the repetitive double moon could be only 1 and I would loose an n
and pronounce it Doña ..( the computer adds the European inflection , which is part
of my ancestry as I know it ; Eastern Europeans Spanish on Dad’s side 🤔)
I’m so comfortable with it, children love the sound of Doña Luna , so I’m legally
going to change it …I deserve it.
Recalling the many years , induced mental illness deterred me from both the Sun
and the Moon …I pledged never again and to share my experience that it may
enlighten the uninformed of the tragic results .
Almost there , within days of beginning the final phase of clearing and pushing it
but knowing , I can, knowing I will be heard , knowing this cycle has ended but for
clarity and clearing … I’m am thus beyond grateful , to fully live life and the love
within and out lighting my way along side of Sun and Moon , who I never take
for granted as my master parents ..
Doña Luna is past ready to leap into life …yes 😎👍🏼😍🥳
Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna 😘
Luna’s Gone , Mary Chapin Carpenter
I totally concur , having moved our family to a rural 3 acre home built
for us .. it was a huge change unacknowledged at the time , but spoken of
as leaving his friends was extremely hard , isolating, and his Mom and Dad
were gone out..rarely drinking at home , forced away to support his habit
as it were , cure his boredom …
It didn’t work, and I finally made the extremely best decision ever by moving
rural and I witness the awesome lives and loves of wee ones on up, which
is my honor …to know the child 👶, to honor the child 🧒 in each of us .
Yes , it can get stinky sometimes lol …
Blessings and Peace ,
We must give children the opportunity to interact with the wilderness, so that they learn to preserve the natural world.
— Read on www.nytimes.com/2020/02/07/opinion/sunday/cressida-cowell-children-nature.html
It’s all there , it’s very stark, but no more lies, no more riddle me this BS , no more
target, no more thievery of any sort , the facts for our children and theirs .
Ending this generational , currently epidemic, that affects too many families ..
Todays verdict against Henry Weinstein, is a victory for all, and a huge move
forward to ending this Domestic Abuse that’s upheld by the top.
Peace & Blessings
Within the vast catalogue of toxic behavior, triangulation is amongst the most well-known. It is very common, especially among narcissistically inclined
— Read on blogs.psychcentral.com/psychology-self/2019/10/triangulation-and-narcissism/