‘Twas no judge , but a critical matriarch, who
deemed me unworthy , and supported her son
by saving him from being responsible , but to
Whatever bound them together , is still in play
tragically , and that energy has no healing ,
no compassion, only fear at getting caught
certainly never at what was done .
Silence, assured that given the past , their
funds , their connections , and careful planning
will never expose the abuse ; the living death
of separation before and during my induced
mental illness , assured the story line of my
unfitness , as compassion , often daily contact
was with held for 5 years as he searched for
his twin, and followed the same story line.
Of course , once again the victim , this horrible
experience reduced her to near death , as he
mourns the outgoing money he owes her ,
which limits his living as large as he has chosen
at the loss and expense of beloved’s , be they
romantic or children .
Confiding he’s executing the Will, will
not be the cake walk he expects ..
Light can only be had by truths, and there
is much to transform , releasing this finally
as the factual truths that lighten any soul
that chooses to see the challenge far exceeds
the desire to step into so much shadow .
I found it absolutely necessary , to process and
be responsible marriage dynamics that created
a living death , a surrogacy , induced mental
illness , that was professionally supported
and socially accepted as it appeared to be hell
on earth.. that family was unaware or unable
or saw the adversity as opportunity to prevail
by bottom-feeding, showing no connection
to any god I am aware of ..
By whatever name it is child abuse to abuse their
Mother . Abuse in drugging her , creating a monster
mirroring her abuse of this life , of generations
of abuse, that by very exposure enlightens
so many , and is whatever each of our sons
wishes to make of it.
Releasing them from shame , and any contract
that says they cannot own their feelings , or
heal some deep wounds , and release hatred
and grief from a past they , nor I were empowered
to combat , light so dimmed as not to exist .
Indeed Hell on Earth , that light of truth