Tag: toxic

Lyme Info

I have failed 2 test for Lyme

A former friend tried to say

I had it , perhaps he wished

it so.

I do feel that there are

overlapping symptoms

few doctors are knowledgeable

I have been celibate by choice

for 12 years and have no

regrets if this is fact , about

sexual transmission .

I pray for an end to these

diseases that I feel are

engineered for profit and

economic growth for an

industry of medicine .

I’m into preventative , natural

alternatives , due to that harm

done by modern medicine

that omits mind, body & spirit .

Why Narks fake Intimacy

Perhaps some , distorted

folks do fake intimacy . The

fact is it never existed on his

part, ever ! I knew that was

the place we needed to go

to succeed; it never got there .

It was good insanity to lies

his war , his lies , his

addictions .

It took , years to face that fact

and realize that smut and

pornography, swinging and

drinking at every opportunity

with no growth whatsoever

in our marriage . End Game

I considered options and

internalizing his rejects , lack

of support with expectations

that our home was in perfect

order and our lives were to

be envied .

Never Knew Lonely as deeply

and began to know how

weaponized he would make

every body and everything

I held sacred and holy .

In the 2 decades since he

released himself from any

and all emotional ties with

me , all that remains is hatred

and the continuation of my

living death so truths die with

me .

There was a beginning .

There is an end .

His WAR belongs to him as

liberation has released each

if our family to peruse their

lives as they wish .

War

Peace

And in between Thy Will Is

Done

Blessings & Peace ✌️

Dona Luna

youtube.com/watch

Splitting ; Child Psychology Abuse

The child who starts creating additional ‘bad’ stories about the target parent has truly been alienated. They have ‘split’ off the fear, guilt, sadness, and confusion so they can behave in a way that hurts the other parent and pleases the favoured parent, who might not love them otherwise. They act out of fear, and much coercive control and manipulation. It is, of course, child psychological abuse. When we get contact with these poor children, we have to be extremely careful not to talk about manipulation, lies, parental alienation, and as a target parent, you have to be so immensely strong, emotionally and mentally because there is so much injustice being carried out. Please take time to make sure you are in the best mental and emotional health you can be. Stay strong.

This comes up , threats to expose me as a sexual predator for innocent childhood exchanges now weaponized to shut me up

Lots of folks want to twist the knife in once you’re targeted by an animal individual who will do anything, use anybody , pay any amount of money to WIN

#NotMyWar

Narcissist and it’s Discontents

This Ted Talk with a specialist

rocked my world about 4 days

ago.

After being exampled yet again

at very high cost to me,

listening to her ,I am sure to

be more discerning about

my energy and luxuriant

in every minute of drama

and trauma free peace.

That’s most disturbing of all

to this narcissistic epidemic;

They know not Peace !

youtube.com/watch

Emotional Partners : Using Children for emotional support

www.fatherly.com/parenting/parentification-parents-relying-kids-for-emotional-support

Being Blunt with the Distortions of a Narcissistic

Years of experience, wasted efforts ,and core needs abused.

6 years in , it was undeniable

With 3 sons 6 and under and

no income or money or place

to go to , I had the awareness

that I would receive little from

him .

To a degree , I did not feel I

would ever trust or love again

and I did not want another

man ” fathering 3 sons ” who

were possessions of our Boss.

Just as he considered me ,

examples had accumulated

beyond denial .

*Coming home from work

and announcing a trip to

Germany with his childhood

friend who had no morals

and I was aware of his willing

participation in whoring

with his Bud . Later he would

share his experience through

his friends name to me .

I knew but had to ignore it

for the sake of our sons .

When I did discuss it with

the wives of his friends it was

” normalized ” ; these ladies

were professionals , mothers,

living well , designer cloths

and always had a cocktail in

front of them .

I did not fit in his world and it

was all he knew and there was

stagnation ,no growth and no

intimacy. Slow and painful

death . The abuses increased

after building our home upon

his acknowledgment that he

had over extended himself

and his obligations were not

allowing his personal needs

wants and desires .

And then there was that ever

present , never ending toxic

bond with his Mom .

Is WAR cost our family dearly

and has largely been ignored

legally ; and I grasp his

winning trumps the needs of

our sons and grandchildren

for I am dead to him , he has

never ” been interested ” .

Sadly all that perceived on

highness , mask a dark ,cold

calculating shadow at War

with light , growth ,forgiveness

letting go , equality balance

accountability, responsibility .

I came into his life in peace

trust , love and divinity , only

to be cut off and disposed of

upon finding his next

companion who relished

the strategic targeting , spell

work , lies etc

Nearly dead , ran for her

life ,forgetting her salvation

and redemption ,still joyful

to denounce me .

youtube.com/watch