
Living Alone, Jayne Eyre & I

This song describes in part my experience and that of many boomers
who retain faith and hope , in a better world for all. In a society of suicide
we may have been induced into that society , duped that it was entirely
up to the individual ..Addictions became common , unexplainable, and
the individual who was already targeted by abuse with the home to such
a degree , that many stones lay in the road.
Who has not been held accountable ? Chemical /Pharmaceutical Corps co joined
with the AMA and APA and therapist who stay in the induction state due to
the enormous profit ..
Same reason a partner seizes the induction of illness of any kind to plot
an escape that only physically proves an abuse and ego that takes years
to get in alignment with their plan.
That does not detract from the totally casual partnership , that has no truth
being built on a foundation of friendship , that includes infidelity, withholding
information , emotionally, spiritually , financially, in order to have a body in house
to do whatever is wanted or needed .
Silence became the norm , 3 months after I do, when blessed with child became
a burden , I had to step out of .. I gained 30 lbs over my norm , our son was over
due , with the blatant disregard , disconnect as he discussed this problem
5 days a week at work.. He became the victim .. I became it , as he’s prone to
state , he had to marry me .
Wed 3/4/77 a year of great astronomy/astronomy, his wounds became
more clear and pronounced in the mask or his truth showed up in the
year of Chiron the wounded healer planet was discovered .
Our 1st son , bore his name , though he protested , I did not understand
his reasoning for not IV ing , as time bore out . 3/11/78, 2 weeks late
put his expected time of arrival was 2/28/78, my non Leap Year
celebration .
His 🎂 birth even 2 weeks late , still bore out , his false assertion that
he had to marry me .
Yes he had to…I cooked , I cleaned , I cared , I looked presentable when we
went out , quickly pushing through the judgement and critical words of
his life long partner .. Yes , I belonged to him, and a child he did not mentally
or emotionally prepare for , refusing to take precaution for , lacking that
responsibility , showed up where it mattered most ..💰💰💰
Joy was not something I attach him to in those days ..
Mask of the corporate , secrets, family business , locked into place
he was more aware with our 2nd son, whose birth was stressful
and he was drunk, or hung over ..Back labor, was harsh and
he was indisposed until birth , decrying he always wanted a brother.
Our 3rd Son, was the unspoken , Well you know what you’re in for
as a single parent , stay at home Mom …
Yes , I began to know my place in his world , had no growth , no real
attachment , no foundation .. I had 3 sons to nurture , and I was allowed
and I tried to make that enough ..
I was not enough, I lived with that those last 5 years , as he searched for love
outside himself, still … I gave up on him…A desire to hold me in the same
possessive shadow in regards to our sons , who have no intimate connection
to me ..
As it appears , winner takes all..he cannot take what does not , and never did
belong to him..
Stones in the Road , were boulders that have been removed , as the facts are the
truth , long ago released from abuse that has continued beyond , beyond .
I am not the sledge hammer , I am the Mom who knows the light heals
and I can longer accept being a target that has resulted in our sons being
abused as well, their children , a tradition that can cease and desist .
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Blessings and Peace ,
Doña Luna 🥰🎉❤️
Doña Luna
The name change from Donna Lynn to Doña Luna was a sweet transition
for I did not feel connected to Donna , hearing I should not be using the
married name by a messenger of former …
My last Psychiatric Dr has an accent that created the Doner sound , and Beloved
was of her country , much better at speech , but I’m not sure of his comprehension
grasp of the nuances , of our English ….Donna Luna Moon was his name for me
and I expressed the repetitive double moon could be only 1 and I would loose an n
and pronounce it Doña ..( the computer adds the European inflection , which is part
of my ancestry as I know it ; Eastern Europeans Spanish on Dad’s side 🤔)
I’m so comfortable with it, children love the sound of Doña Luna , so I’m legally
going to change it …I deserve it.
Recalling the many years , induced mental illness deterred me from both the Sun
and the Moon …I pledged never again and to share my experience that it may
enlighten the uninformed of the tragic results .
Almost there , within days of beginning the final phase of clearing and pushing it
but knowing , I can, knowing I will be heard , knowing this cycle has ended but for
clarity and clearing … I’m am thus beyond grateful , to fully live life and the love
within and out lighting my way along side of Sun and Moon , who I never take
for granted as my master parents ..
Doña Luna is past ready to leap into life …yes 😎👍🏼😍🥳
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna 😘
Luna’s Gone , Mary Chapin Carpenter
“Tower moments ” refer to the authentic issues , challenges and steps back
rising, spiritually can be , and sure did not and will never stop or end
my faith in Divine n Me …we are One and that’s Fact …
Still rocking it 😍🥰😘
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna
Temporary spiritual experiences can be helpful signs of progress, says Andrew Holecek, but they can also be traps.
— Read on www.lionsroar.com/just-when-you-think-youre-enlightened/
The average length of a hug between two people is 3 seconds. But the researchers have discovered something fantastic. When a hug lasts 20 seconds, there is a therapeutic effect on the body and mind. The reason is that a sincere embrace produces a hormone called “oxytocin”, also known as the love hormone. This substance has many benefits in our physical and mental health, helps us, among other things, to relax, to feel safe and calm our fears and anxiety. This wonderful tranquilizer is offered free of charge every time we have a person in our arms, who cradled a child, who cherish a dog or a cat, that we are dancing with our partner, the closer we get to someone or simply hold the Shoulders of a friend.
A famous quote by psychotherapist Virginia Satir goes, “We need 4 hugs a day for survival. We need 8 hugs a day for maintenance. We need 12 hugs a day for growth.” Whether those exact numbers have been scientifically proven remains to be seen, but there is a great deal of scientific evidence related to the importance of hugs and physical contact. Here are some reasons why we should hug::
1. STIMULATES OXYTOCIN
Oxytocin is a neurotransmitter that acts on the limbic system, the brain’s emotional centre, promoting feelings of contentment, reducing anxiety and stress, and even making mammals monogamous. It is the hormone responsible for us all being here today. You see this little gem is released during childbirth, making our mothers forget about all of the excruciating pain they endured expelling us from their bodies and making them want to still love and spend time with us. New research from the University of California suggests that it has a similarly civilising effect on human males, making them more affectionate and better at forming relationships and social bonding. And it dramatically increased the libido and sexual performance of test subjects. When we hug someone, oxytocin is released into our bodies by our pituitary gland, lowering both our heart rates and our cortisol levels. Cortisol is the hormone responsible for stress, high blood pressure, and heart disease.
2. CULTIVATES PATIENCE
Connections are fostered when people take the time to appreciate and acknowledge one another. A hug is one of the easiest ways to show appreciation and acknowledgement of another person. The world is a busy, hustle-bustle place and we’re constantly rushing to the next task. By slowing down and taking a moment to offer sincere hugs throughout the day, we’re benefiting ourselves, others, and cultivating better patience within ourselves.
3. PREVENTS DISEASE
Affection also has a direct response on the reduction of stress which prevents many diseases. The Touch Research Institute at the University of Miami School of Medicine says it has carried out more than 100 studies into touch and found evidence of significant effects, including faster growth in premature babies, reduced pain, decreased autoimmune disease symptoms, lowered glucose levels in children with diabetes, and improved immune systems in people with cancer.
4. STIMULATES THYMUS GLAND
Hugs strengthen the immune system. The gentle pressure on the sternum and the emotional charge this creates activates the Solar Plexus Chakra. This stimulates the thymus gland, which regulates and balances the body’s production of white blood cells, which keep you healthy and disease free.
5. COMMUNICATION WITHOUT SAYING A WORD
Almost 70 percent of communication is nonverbal. The interpretation of body language can be based on a single gesture and hugging is an excellent method of expressing yourself nonverbally to another human being or animal. Not only can they feel the love and care in your embrace, but they can actually be receptive enough to pay it forward to others based on your initiative alone.
6. SELF-ESTEEM
Hugging boosts self-esteem, especially in children. The tactile sense is all-important in infants. A baby recognizes its parents initially by touch. From the time we’re born our family’s touch shows us that we’re loved and special. The associations of self-worth and tactile sensations from our early years are still imbedded in our nervous system as adults. The cuddles we received from our Mom and Dad while growing up remain imprinted at a cellular level, and hugs remind us at a somatic level of that. Hugs, therefore, connect us to our ability to self love.
7. STIMULATES DOPAMINE
Everything everyone does involves protecting and triggering dopamine flow. Low dopamine levels play a role in the neurodegenerative disease Parkinson’s as well as mood disorders such as depression. Dopamine is responsible for giving us that feel-good feeling, and it’s also responsible for motivation! Hugs stimulate brains to release dopamine, the pleasure hormone. Dopamine sensors are the areas that many stimulating drugs such as cocaine and methamphetamine target. The presence of a certain kinds of dopamine receptors are also associated with sensation-seeking.
8. STIMULATES SEROTONIN
Reaching out and hugging releases endorphins and serotonin into the blood vessels and the released endorphins and serotonin cause pleasure and negate pain and sadness and decrease the chances of getting heart problems, helps fight excess weight and prolongs life. Even the cuddling of pets has a soothing effect that reduces the stress levels. Hugging for an extended time lifts one’s serotonin levels, elevating mood and creating happiness.
9. PARASYMPATHETIC BALANCE
Hugs balance out the nervous system. The skin contains a network of tiny, egg-shaped pressure centres called Pacinian corpuscles that can sense touch and which are in contact with the brain through the vagus nerve. The galvanic skin response of someone receiving and giving a hug shows a change in skin conductance. The effect in moisture and electricity in the skin suggests a more balanced state in the nervous system – parasympathetic.
Embrace, embrace with your heart.~~
art: Dorina Costras
Non gender specific …
12 warning signs you’re in a toxic friendship | Considerable
— Read on www.considerable.com/life/people/12-warning-signs-youre-in-a-toxic-friendship/
With love and deepest gratitude, I invite you to join me in honoring this holy day that is dedicated to this Great Goddess of my ancestral people.
— Read on www.owlsdaughter.com/2020/02/sacred-flame-and-healing-waters-we-give-thanks-to-our-dear-brighid/
I’m so glad to not have to participate in shallow anything …no time nor tolerance .
I like to make jokes about how much I hate people. As an introvert, it’s easy to do. However, I don’t hate people, I hate shallow socializing.
— Read on introvertdear.com/news/introverts-dont-hate-people-hate-shallow-socializing/
Totally unfortunate when professionally medicated , numbed comfortably
which normally only masked trauma, and can and will find one in a most
vulnerable place .
When the partner chooses this vulnerable time to strike , it reveals their
truth , their character , as in my case 20 plus years later , the ever present
strike of toxic projections , has no home within me .
It’s triggering , and each time , surrender to the lack of growth , that is starkly
revealing in these days of change , and spiritual evolution . ☮️♥️✊🙏
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna
As a group , Crosby, Stills , Nash and Young , were and still are my
number #1, as I follow their out out individually , I am still in awe.
All these years of love, of taking eldest Ivey to witness their unique
music , and an unintentional 2nd hand high in my 13 year old .
Who had no idea , and I don’t recall grasping it until he requested
a drink …his voice betraying his state of being as suddenly I was
alert to the odor behind us…I politely , but with force , explained my
desire for them to enjoy their concert , but not at the expense of my son.
Their concert , bar none was the very best I have ever seen , our seats were
perfect.
I was none the less gifted with the news within these comments of Stephen
Stills state of mind , and life breakdown/breakthroughs , as he healed in this
unique place on earth that shall go on my bucket list .
I am very grateful today for the safety of 2 gals and the enrichment of family
as a result of safety , liberation, and spiritual determination.. very humbled
and proud of and for them as the teachings guide me as well …
1 awaits , the timing , the funds , to run away from home, towards sanity
healing abuses of far too many years …love bunnies 🐰, each one advantaged,
over powered , and lesson learned , each is leaping towards their higher divined
future 🙏💗💕♥️❤️😘🥰🌈☮️
I am grateful for the bare roots effort that is my blog and my effort , and
a new follower as of today .. many of my followers are from other countries
which pleases me , greatly .
Her poem caught my attention ,
oh i lack the strength
of loving anything that will last
less than forever
srljan
Totally concur , as the music 🎶 and words expand a conscious male’s expression
of transitions that a divine wake up call, and I cannot imagine a more divine
experience than that of the Southern Crosss👍🏼❤️🎁
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna
Crosby, Stills, & Nash