I am your mother

From the moment you were born,

I’ve made mistakes.

Despite my best intentions,

I mess up 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛.

No matter how much I love you,

I will never get it all right.

𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒉𝒖𝒎𝒂𝒏.

From the moment you were born,

you have seen me frazzled.

You have seen me overwhelmed 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑡.

You have seen me frustrated when I should have been more patient.

You have seen me speak when I should have listened.

You have seen me uncertain and second guess my choices.

𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒉𝒖𝒎𝒂𝒏.

From the moment you were born,

𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑛𝑔.

I will always try to do right by you.

I will always get back up, no matter how many times I may fall down.

I will always apologize to you when I’ve done something wrong.

I will always put one foot in front of the other, no matter my uncertainty.

I will never get it all right,

𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑡𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔.

𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒂 𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓.

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Take Back Your Energy

Energy / Ascension Update:

Time to claim back your divine power / Soul recall affirmation – prayer

The emotional body is breaking open so do not worry if you are very emotional, feeling sad or down, old dense feelings you are still holding onto are resurfacing to finally let go to receive the blessings.

Distracting ego thoughts like: why am I still not with my beloved divine partner, what am I doing wrong, why am I still stuck not moving forward, where is the success and rewards I worked for so long.

Feeling tired and need for rest with flue like ascension symptoms.

Believe me I am very tired also and long for all new to start.

Please do not give up and continue to focus on self love and self care as we are moving towards real unconditional love.

We continue aligning with our higher self and I Am presence.

It is important to go within and regroup. Reclaim back your life force energy through doing a power callback from all the external distractions. Show up for yourself through focusing on your own goals and plans.

This is part of travelling into higher dimensions where you will reunite with loving soul family, tribe, and Holy Grail union.

I felt the need to go to the beach today and recall back all my lost soul fragments and life force and made an affirmation for you to do the same.

Affirmation / Prayer:

In the name of my Divine I AM Presence, In the name of My Father Mother Creator God / Source.

I demand and comment that all my lost soul fragments from all time, space and dimensions be returned to me and make my soul whole and complete.

I demand and command that all my life force stolen from all time, space and dimensions be returned, restored and re-balanced in divine feminine and masculine energies.

I request that my highest energetic team and archangel Michael clear me from any remaining distractive ego thoughts, false beliefs, false guidance, dense and dark lower vibrational energies, hooks, cords, hexes, spells, AI, vows, promises, negative karma, not serving my highest and best new ascended life in divine unity love be deleted, removed or transformed into higher dimensional love.

Dear I AM Presence I do not want to be controlled and guided by my ego any longer. I demand and command you to take over all control and free me from all false guidance & temptation.

Divine I AM Presence please help me connect with my higher self and lead me into my new ascended life on the higher dimensional plane, connecting and aligning me with the higher realms, my divine counterpart and my higher love, light and soul family.

Thank you, it is done, it is done, it is done.

With divine blessings 🙏😇💖

David Alexander Lightfoot

Self Love

When you give too much in every relationship, people get used to that side of you. So when you finally start to love yourself and value yourself, people start complaining that you have changed. All they care about is that now you expect more in return for the efforts you put in. They miss the selfless you, the idiot you. So now they find you arrogant, rude, selfish, and evil. But I don’t care what people think about me. I know how much I have suffered for being that stupid fool. I can still feel those tears in my heart. And it was hell for me. You see me as this new person, this confident, bold, and savage human. But it has taken me a lot to build myself up to this. It does not come naturally to me. I had a very soft heart. I used to get fooled so easily. I felt too much. It was just a desperate effort by me to change myself. So please understand. This is not a phase. This is not a mood swing. This is not about you. It’s about how I had to become this person to live more. And I am bloody proud of myself for what I have become. I can’t be played like a toy anymore. And for me, that’s everything.

But you are free to judge me for all you want. You can label me whatever suits you best. I won’t debate that. I won’t argue. I won’t fight. That’s exactly what I have moved on from. I don’t fight these silly battles of egos. I am just walking at my own sweet pace in my own chill way. You are free to join me. You are free to leave me. You can be my company. But you can’t change my journey or destination. I am in that happy space. I am in that self-sufficient mental space. I honestly don’t need people to make me feel important or special. I do that for myself, daily. I don’t need you to tell me how amazing I am. I tell myself that, daily. You don’t need to shower me with gifts. I treat myself with something, daily. Yes. I am that deeply in love with every inch of my soul. And no matter how much you try for a breakup, this relationship will last forever. I was just too lost in people earlier. Now, I have found my soulmate. It’s me. It was always me. And it will always be me.

~ Rahul Kaushik 😊

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Self Love

I had to self love or buy that the distorted , malignant abuse was deserved .

I touched on his distorted mentality, but had no validation and then it was the chemical straightjacket of psychiatry that allowed him to blame me for everything and he to be the hero/ savior/ father /child who was never interested in partnership or growth as a couple or in parenting our 3 sons

He’s past due for the facts and an end to his every effort to control and destroy me , mentally , physically and most of all spiritually . I never ever sensed his connection to any higher power .

Self nurture , and self love were absolutely necessary in my varied efforts to survive !

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

“Do you love Me?” Alice asked.

“No, I don’t love you!” replied the White Rabbit.

Alice frowned and clasped her hands together as she did whenever she felt hurt.

“See?” replied the White Rabbit. “Now you’re going to start asking yourself what makes you so imperfect and what did you do wrong so that I can’t love you at least a little.

You know, that’s why I can’t love you. You will not always be loved Alice, there will be days when others will be tired and bored with life, will have their heads in the clouds, and will hurt you.

Because people are like that, they somehow always end up hurting each other’s feelings, whether through carelessness, misunderstanding, or conflicts with themselves.

If you don’t love yourself, at least a little, if you don’t create an armor of self-love and happiness around your heart, the feeble annoyances caused by others will become lethal and will destroy you.

The first time I saw you I made a pact with myself: ‘I will avoid loving you until you learn to love yourself.’ ”

– Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

To Love a Man

“If you want to change the world love a man; really love him.

Choose the one whose soul calls to yours clearly who sees you; who is brave enough to be afraid

Accept his hand and guide him gently to your hearts blood

Where he can feel your warmth upon him and rest there

And burn his heavy load in your fires

Look into his eyes look deep within and see what lies dormant or awake or shy or expectant there

Look into his eyes and see there his fathers and grandfathers and all the wars and madness their spirits fought in some distant land, some distant time

Look upon their pains and struggles and torments and guilt; without judgment

And let it all go

Feel into his ancestral burden

And know that what he seeks is safe refuge in you

Let him melt in your steady gaze

And know that you need not mirror that rage

Because you have a womb, a sweet, deep gateway to wash and renew old wounds

If you want to change the world love a man, really love him

Sit before him, in the full majesty of your woman in the breath of your vulnerability

In the play of your child innocence in the depths of your death

Flowering invitation, softly yielding, allowing his power as a man

To step forward towards you…and swim in the Earth’s womb, in silent knowing, together

And when he retreats…because he will…flees in fear to his cave…

Gather your grandmothers around you…envelope in their wisdoms

Hear their gentle shusshhhed whispers, calm your frightened girls’ heart

Urging you to be still…and wait patiently for his return

Sit and sing by his door, a song of remembrance, that he may be soothed, once more

If you want to change the world, love a man, really love him

Do not coax out his little boy

With guiles and wiles and seduction and trickery

Only to lure him…to a web of destruction

To a place of chaos and hatred

More terrible than any war fought by his brothers

This is not feminine this is revenge

This is the poison of the twisted lines

Of the abuse of the ages, the rape of our world

And this gives no power to woman it reduces her as she cuts off his balls

And it kills us all

And whether his mother held him or could not

Show him the true mother now

Hold him and guide him in your grace and your depth

Smoldering in the center of the Earth’s core

Do not punish him for his wounds that you think don’t meet your needs or criteria

Cry for him sweet rivers

Bleed it all back home

If you want to change the world love a man, really love him

Love him enough to be naked and free

Love him enough to open your body and soul to the cycle of birth and of death

And thank him for the opportunity

As you dance together through the raging winds and silent woods

Be brave enough to be fragile and let him drink in the soft, heady petals of your being

Let him know he can hold you stand up and protect you

Fall back into his arms and trust him to catch you

Even if you’ve been dropped a thousand times before

Teach him how to surrender by surrendering yourself

And merge into the sweet nothing, of this worlds’ heart

If you want to change the world, love a man, really love him

Encourage him, feed him, allow him, hear him, hold him, heal him

And you, in turn, will be nourished and supported and protected

By strong arms and clear thoughts and focused arrows

Because he can, if you let him, be all that you dream

If you want to love a man…love yourself…love your father…

Love your brother…your son… your ex-partner…from the first boy you kissed…

To the last one you wept over…

Give thanks for the gifts…of your unravelling…to this meeting…

Of the one who stands before you now….

And find in him the seed…to all that’s new and solar…

A seed that you can feed…to help direct the planting…

To grow a new world, together…..”

~Lauren Wilce

Loved & Loved : She is Home 🏠

“When you look deep within

Beyond the surface pale

And the lined eyes,

Through the skein

Of fine lines that

Travel like tributaries

To your soul,

You might find

The wayward girl

you once knew…

The young girl lost

To the antics of living

Who bore you no ill will

But who couldn’t yet grasp

The magnitude of

Incremental action

Upon action

Upon action

Which creates the

Ultimate direction of

A troubled life.

You might find her,

Beneath the greeting

And the greying hair,

Beyond the freckled

Hands

And you might beckon

Her with forgiving heart

And loving arms

To welcome her into

The quiet, gorgeous room

With flowers and pink blossoms

With perfume and pretty things

With standing vases of

Bright poppies

And tulips –

Yes tulips –

And you will let her know

That finally, with you…

She is lived and loved

And she is home.”

Camilla Slater 2022.

(Love to all women with a spark in their eyes and a wayward past.🌷)

Copyright Camilla Slater 2022. All rights reserved.

Image Credit: Painting by Louis Treserras, 1958.

Shifting from Fear to Love

Shifting from Fear to Love
The following is an excerpt from the “Shifting from Fear to Love”

“All shallow roots must be uprooted because they are not deep enough to sustain you” – A Course in Miracles

Love is where we all begin. When we are born all we know is love. Our ~ing is on! (If you haven’t read my book, Add More ~ing to Your Life, allow me to translate: ~ing is your inner guide, which is the voice of intuition, inspiration and love. Throughout this course I’ll refer to love, spirit and ~ing interchangeably.) At one time our thoughts are aligned with love and our minds are peaceful. Our loving mind believes that all people are equal and that we are part of something larger than ourselves. We believe that we are supported and connected to everything everywhere. We believe that only love is real. We believe in miracles.

A Tiny Mad Idea
So we are born into love, and then pretty soon thereafter fear is introduced. We begin to pick up the fear around us and are led to deny love. One tiny mad idea can hijack our loving mindset, and as A Course in Miracles says, “we forgot to laugh.” This tiny mad idea could have arrived as early as infancy. Maybe Mom was anxious or Dad yelled a lot. As innocent babies, we pick up fear from the outside world. All it takes is one tiny mad idea to make us detour into fear. A thought like, “I’m not smart enough,” or “Daddy doesn’t like me because he left,” or “I’m not pretty enough” can separate us from love. The moment we take this tiny mad idea seriously, we get caught in a nightmare and forget to wake up.

A Course in Miracles says, “You cannot be faithful to two masters who ask conflicting things of you.” Therefore we have to choose between the tiny mad idea and the love we came from. Most of the time we choose fear. This choice splits our mind into another way of thinking, which the Course calls the “ego.” In an instant, we are separated from love and allow the ego to take over. The ego becomes like a bully in our minds. The ego’s goal is to shut down the love parade and keep us in the dark by making us believe we’re separate from the loving mindset we were born with. The ego cannot survive in the light of our loving mind, so it will do whatever it takes to keep the light off. When referencing the ego, the Course states, “Listen to what the ego says, and see what it directs you to see, and it is sure that you will see yourself as tiny, vulnerable and afraid. You will experience depression, a sense of worthlessness, and feelings of impermanence and unreality.”

The ego’s sole purpose is to convince us that love isn’t real so that we believe in the fearful thinking of the world. The ego is always revving up its game to take us down in a major way. (This is not to be confused with the ego of psychology.)

The Course says, “…the ego is totally confused and totally confusing.” To keep us in the dark the ego separates us from love. We’re convinced to deny love by believing in issues around body image, relationships, careers, low self-esteem, and so on. The ego convinces us that we are better or worse than everyone around us. The ego’s illusion convinces us to believe thoughts like, “I’m not good enough to get into that school,” “I’m incomplete without a man,” or “I’m way more popular than that girl.” Deep down we know these thoughts are false but we believe in them nonetheless. To further keep us in the dark, the ego’s illusion leads us to attack others and ourselves.

Projection Makes Perception
The ego’s main job is to make sure we don’t change our minds about fear. The fearful projection that the ego inflicts on us becomes what we perceive to be our reality. As it says in the Course, “The world you see is an outside picture of an inward condition.” When we choose the ego’s projection of sin, guilt, anger, attack and fear that’s all we’ll perceive. It’s a nightmare. The Course states, “Perception is a choice and not a fact.”

We all have our own individual projections and perceptions. For instance, two different people get upset after watching a TV show together. Even though they watched the same show they’re upset for uniquely different reasons. One person may have been upset over the romantic struggles of the characters, whereas the other person was worked up over the violence. Each person was projecting their own ego onto the television show and therefore perceived what they chose to project. The choice is the operative word. That’s right: we choose to believe in this crazy shit. We choose to project ideas like “I’m too fat,” “I’m unworthy,” and “I’m just not smart.” We made a decision to forget about love and we fell for the mad idea instead. As a result, we live in a world that is based on these limiting projections. We project these thoughts and therefore perceive them to be real. Worst of all, we believe deeply in our perceptions because we’re the ones who put them there.

We project a belief system based on grades, cliques, bullies and societal crap about body image. We have no choice but to ignore our ~ing because the voice of love cannot coexist with fear. Fear spreads like a virus, contaminating our minds. All it takes is one tiny mad idea to separate our mind from love and create a pattern of thinking in which fear always wins. The ego also recreates your past fears in the present.

The ego is crafty. There are a number of tricks the ego turns to in order to keep us in the dark, such as causing us to believe that others are more special than we are, causing us to attack others, or getting us into the nasty habits of denying our greatness and believing we are inadequate. These tricks are cunning and baffling. Each trick convinces us to believe in fear and forget about love. Eventually, we get so hooked on the ego’s illusion that we cannot remember the loving mind we came from. It’s as if we’ve been roofied by the ego.

This sounds totally effed up, right? Of course, it does, but let’s face it: in one or more ways we’ve all fallen for the ego’s mad idea. One fearful thought takes over our minds and creates our very own illusions. We were all innocent children who once believed in love. But there comes a point at which we forget love ever existed. We choose fear instead. We fear just about everything. We fear our careers, our family, our friends—we even fear the possibility that love could be real. Most of all we fear our own greatness.

The truthful voice of our ~ing can only comprehend love. But because our minds detoured into fear, love became an afterthought. Our ~ing became a mere murmur in the midst of the ego’s inner riot. It’s safe to say that most people have more faith in fear than in love. Whenever you think something like, “I know there is a better way, but I just can’t find it,” it means that deep down you remember that all the love you need is inside you, but the darkness of the ego has smothered that truth.

You need to take a look at the wreckage from your past to fully understand how to transform the ego’s patterns. Accepting the fact that you chose fear and turned your back on love is the first step. Don’t beat yourself up about this. You couldn’t have known any better and you’ve been doing the best you can to cope with the ego’s projections for your entire life. But now it’s time to fully understand what went down in order to create change.

Please know that even if you’ve forgotten about love, it never actually left you. Your mind just separated from it. This separation ignited the spark that became the fire that burns through your loving mind. Yet the separation was merely a choice. Unfortunately, you chose to detour into Fear Land when you took sides with the ego and turned your back on love.

The Ego Isn’t Real
Over time fear becomes our companion. The ego literally goes buck wild taking over the loving part of our minds and convince us of what the Course calls “the real world.” The ego’s real world is the illusory nightmare that we’ve bought into.

The world that the ego creates for all of us is based on belief in sin, attack, fear, competition, lack, sickness, and so on. The ego convinces us that we’re all a bunch of separate bodies out to make more money, find a better spouse, or look better than the next person. None of this is real. It’s all an illusion that our ego creates in our minds and repeats enough so that we believe in it. The repetition of the ego’s illusion becomes a bad dream that we reinforce with every fear-based idea. We’ve saved our faith from fear. But deep inside each of us lives a soft voice reminding us that love is real.

Quick Review:
• We are all born into a state of love, in which we see everyone as equal and we feel at ease all the time.
• One tiny mad idea can hijack our loving mindset. We chose fear instead of love.
• This choice splits off our mind into another way of thinking called the “ego.” The ego’s goal is to shut down the love parade and keep us in the dark by making us believe we’re separate from the loving mindset we were born with.
• The repetition of the ego’s illusion becomes a bad dream that we reinforce with every fear-based idea. But deep inside each of us lives a soft voice reminding us that love is real.
• Recognizing that the ego’s projections are false illusions is the first step to restoring our minds back to love.

Homework
The First Step Out of the Ego’s World of Illusion

The only problems we have are the thoughts we project. What’s happened is that we think these funky thoughts enough times that we believe them to be true. Then the thoughts create anxiety, fear, anger, attack, and guilt. By recognizing that the thought isn’t real we can release the perception. We must understand that the thought is something we created a long time ago and that we’ve just projected it onto our present and future.

Recognising that the ego’s projections are false illusions is the first step to restoring your mind back to love. This was major for me, and it will be for you, too. By looking closely at your fears, you’ll be able to stop perceiving them as real. When you can witness a fearful thought without judgment, you’ll weaken its power and be able to do awesome things.

I want these messages to sink in and I hope to guide you to see how the ego has played a role in your own nightmare. At this point in the process let’s shine a light on your own tiny mad ideas.

Exercise One:
Close your eyes. Think of the negative thought patterns that cross your mind. Name each one as it occurs to you and then call it out.

Deny its reality by following the fearful thought with the loving response, “Love did not create it, and so it is not real.”

Examples:
The ego thought: I am unworthy of happiness.
Loving response: Love did not create the belief that I’m unworthy, and so it is not real.
The ego thought: I am poor.
Loving response: Love did not create that poverty, and so it is not real.

This exercise might not make sense to you at first. Throughout the text, the Course acknowledges that you may not fully understand the concepts it introduces at first, but to continue forward nonetheless.

The Course states, “The exercises are very simple. They do not require a great deal of time, and it does not matter where you do them. They need no preparation.” Therefore, all you need is an open mind and the willingness to be guided.

Hang tight and know that each simple shift in perception creates miraculous change.

Power of Love

Your power is in your loving.
Not in your brute strength.

Nor in your bank balance
or your ever-changing reputation.
Nor in your incredible tales
of conquest and gain.
Nor even in your intellect, your brilliant mind.

But in your willingness to let your heart break today.
In your courage to let another in, let them matter.
To feel what they feel.
To feel joy, or sorrow, or the most delicious doubting.

To stand with them, but not try to fix them.

To be the room for all this… emergence.

That is your power –
your ability to provide sanctuary,
to let life nestle in your giant heart.

To hold the powerless and the helpless.
To breathe into your belly, your chest,
your head, your tense shoulders.

To stand victorious there –
holding all of yourself
in a light yet powerful embrace.

Saying to yourself:

Sweetheart, I am here.
I am here at last.

  • Jeff Foster