Adore this lady and her approach , is direct and born of experience
and facts .
It was noted that our timelines correspond , 11-12 years of marriage
that is not balanced to say the least . We each had 3 children
we each have officially been divorced for 20 years .
Realized long ago I did not have a marriage , only
a mask , a surrogate , normalizer ….
More over , I knew the lack of self love and self worth
as shadow that exploded, with no warning …it only
became more intense , as he worked out of town
unavailability was normal even if in house .
Detached , withdrawn silent
Death
I felt the oppression 3 months
in , but had brothers and a society/religion that is a brotherhood
that allows a feminine to serve , with minimal support ..As a caregiver
from age 14 months , which is part of my character , as I was induced
to have experiences to forge my education .
The non responsive , non responsible deeply traumatized figure , knows
deep shame , rage from cumulative sources , but targets his spouse , thus
children and will never own it …regrets will stated , always the victims
always projecting . Lacking the support, ability , desire , in denial , missing
any and all signs from Divine , that stepping from the shadow , laying
burdens down begins with truth/light …It’s an inner job , and as I witnessed
the regressive , depressive , silence for 20 years , it has intensified with my
departure from a fabricated life of smoke and mirrors ..
Completion has long since occurred , for I am not bound in twinning our sons
as he does, bound to his trauma and secrets and abuses , as too often
occurs … it is so complete that despite attempts to keep the old cycle
are ongoing , often recycling the trauma of past , has no effect .
Only attesting to the closure at hand , in matters of business , which
will clarify the intent for the Abuse continued was and is financial ..
calculating , vengeful and locked in a maze of never ending anger
rage ….I let go of any connection in 2006…over ex.
Get over our sons ? Not happening Nor is the abuse of holding them
in shadow with the poison fed them , in order to win.
However , it is their choice , mine is to step out of a matrix
of brothers and sisters who feel I am unworthy , from
their shadow perspective of self preservation above all
Nope , I was induced into energies that have denied
my place at the table , doing much harm ; I have long
since delved into my shadow , heard extensive versions
of why I didn’t deserve to live ..
Fear , anger ..being bound , silent …death of spirit ..
I have noted that , recycling until finally other
experiences brought me to review …
I did, now weary … Freed to be me ..
Respect for that energy was chipped away, as my consciousness
and fear , inherent in loosing my life , did happen .
Making sure that happened , augmented by a brother MD
I was induced into submission , witnessed by 3 young men
who deserve , as I do , to be liberated from the falsehoods
and brotherhoods that wish to have us bound forever in
trauma .. repeating this in matters of finances , veiling
some pretty deep offenses , will not carry into 2020.
Of course , there is no response but silence , negational
approaches lost , the force that demands clarity will not
be denied …©️
Thy Will Be Done ♐️👁🌏✊
Blessings & Peace 🌈🎁
Doña Luna 🥰
