What A Narcissist will never give , Closure .

Adore this lady and her approach , is direct and born of experience

and facts .

It was noted that our timelines correspond , 11-12 years of marriage

that is not balanced to say the least . We each had 3 children

we each have officially been divorced for 20 years .

Realized long ago I did not have a marriage , only

a mask , a surrogate , normalizer ….

More over , I knew the lack of self love and self worth

as shadow that exploded, with no warning …it only

became more intense , as he worked out of town

unavailability was normal even if in house .

Detached , withdrawn silent

Death

I felt the oppression 3 months

in , but had brothers and a society/religion that is a brotherhood

that allows a feminine to serve , with minimal support ..As a caregiver

from age 14 months , which is part of my character , as I was induced

to have experiences to forge my education .

The non responsive , non responsible deeply traumatized figure , knows

deep shame , rage from cumulative sources , but targets his spouse , thus

children and will never own it …regrets will stated , always the victims

always projecting . Lacking the support, ability , desire , in denial , missing

any and all signs from Divine , that stepping from the shadow , laying

burdens down begins with truth/light …It’s an inner job , and as I witnessed

the regressive , depressive , silence for 20 years , it has intensified with my

departure from a fabricated life of smoke and mirrors ..

Completion has long since occurred , for I am not bound in twinning our sons

as he does, bound to his trauma and secrets and abuses , as too often

occurs … it is so complete that despite attempts to keep the old cycle

are ongoing , often recycling the trauma of past , has no effect .

Only attesting to the closure at hand , in matters of business , which

will clarify the intent for the Abuse continued was and is financial ..

calculating , vengeful and locked in a maze of never ending anger

rage ….I let go of any connection in 2006…over ex.

Get over our sons ? Not happening Nor is the abuse of holding them

in shadow with the poison fed them , in order to win.

However , it is their choice , mine is to step out of a matrix

of brothers and sisters who feel I am unworthy , from

their shadow perspective of self preservation above all

Nope , I was induced into energies that have denied

my place at the table , doing much harm ; I have long

since delved into my shadow , heard extensive versions

of why I didn’t deserve to live ..

Fear , anger ..being bound , silent …death of spirit ..

I have noted that , recycling until finally other

experiences brought me to review …

I did, now weary … Freed to be me ..

Respect for that energy was chipped away, as my consciousness

and fear , inherent in loosing my life , did happen .

Making sure that happened , augmented by a brother MD

I was induced into submission , witnessed by 3 young men

who deserve , as I do , to be liberated from the falsehoods

and brotherhoods that wish to have us bound forever in

trauma .. repeating this in matters of finances , veiling

some pretty deep offenses , will not carry into 2020.

Of course , there is no response but silence , negational

approaches lost , the force that demands clarity will not

be denied …©️

Thy Will Be Done ♐️👁🌏✊

Blessings & Peace 🌈🎁

Doña Luna 🥰

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A Shocking Number Of Americans Know Someone Who Died Due To Unaffordable Care | HuffPost

Can’t afford or because of ..

The high costs of the U.S. health care system are killing people, a new survey concludes.
— Read on www.huffpost.com/entry/many-americans-know-someone-who-died-unaffordable-health-care_n_5dc9cfc6e4b00927b2380eb7

GPs must stop putting people into diagnostic boxes and pause before prescribing antidepressants

Totally concur , I’m offered antidepressants in GP offices

usually by NP . Pushing drugs , is vulgar , and I don’t return

due to too many horrific errors ..So glad I have an

integrated Dr 🎁

Headline GPs must stop putting people into diagnostic boxes and pause before prescribing antidepressants
— Read on www.irishexaminer.com/breakingnews/views/analysis/gps-must-stop-putting-people-into-diagnostic-boxes-and-pause-before-prescribing-antidepressants-963584.html

Colorado mother tried for 15 months to protect murdered son from ex, but ‘nobody wanted to investigate’

Heartbreaking outcome for a protective Mom in Colorado this week. It’s good to see the Governor’s office paying attention to this investigation. Prayers up for Jing Tesoriero who fought hard in the courts for 15 months to protect her child from his violent father who repeatedly violated his protective order against the Mom without consequence. Her 10 yo son Ty was just murdered by his father in a vengeful murder suicide that took place less than one day AFTER the family court judge granted custody of Ty to his mother. COME ON people. Why can’t these judges get some f’ing common sense, and yes, some actual training to become “trauma- informed” in their judging.

In what parallel universe is it ever smart to hand a child over for the weekend to a grieving, violent, abusive father who just lost custody of his child? Douglas Co, Colorado Family Court has some serious ‘splaining to do. Our hearts go out to Jing and all who loved Ty. This was a CLEARLY preventable homicide if child safety had been the top priority in the judge’s decision-making. Rest in peace, sweet Ty. Another senseless tragedy, when will it ever cease?

Jing Tesoriero and her attorney had tried for more than a year to alert authorities that her husband was violating court orders over the custody of their son, according to new emails obtained by Denver7 on Thursday.
— Read on http://www.thedenverchannel.com/news/local-news/colorado-mother-tried-for-15-months-to-protect-murdered-son-from-ex-but-nobody-wanted-to-investigate

Will The Narcissist Deploy A Follow-Up Hoover?

Feeding off my energy has ended , long ago.

June should have made that clear , however

I’m aware how very difficult acceptance

is .. nothing left to chance …

End Game (it was never anything but a game

in the competition that never ends )

Will The Narcissist Deploy A Follow-Up Hoover?

Will The Narcissist Deploy A Follow-Up Hoover?


— Read on narcsite.com/2019/09/26/will-the-narcissist-deploy-a-follow-up-hoover-9/

Psychology’s Fake Science and How to Fix It – Part One : Blog : The Official Website of Dr. Zwig

Many are survivors of abuse, being abused , induced to a state

that appears as mental illness , disappearing in a matrix that

discriminates in most unholy ways ..

The concept of mental illness has no basis in science. The diagnostic manual is a dictionary of symptoms with no underlying principles or processes. The disease categories are fictitious entities created by a small group of “experts,’ not by scientific research.
— Read on drzwig.com/blog/detail/Psychologys_Fake_Science_and_How_to_Fix_It