I have been aware that though I explain there is no understanding in the part of folks who block me ( blocking feelings , trauma , healing ) and keep false witness to soothe their own needs .
Helping one who has done much harm and still harbors ill feelings and abusive intentions blocks my progress . It’s as if I were compliant and accepting when I’m trying balance within and out and the other is still playing games and wearing a smile throughout .
So I’ve had the force that brought change and much was not my choice and educated choices are much better in the long run .
Separating myself from all attachments to be that 3rd person ; and observing along with research ,experience and dedication to knowing myself , being true to myself and surrendering to Divine ; Thy Will Be Done ✅
Others have Free Will ; I try to provide facts and my thoughts which have repelled by children and I’m surrendered to that .
I’m dedicated to balance in my life and folks who have no agenda and show respect , and love ❤️ and trust 🎁
That’s my Heaven On Earth
My physical home , and peace to be … to cook my meals, bake and alchemy with healing natural methods . Gardening , preserving food , writing ( I’m a poet at heart ❤️) and walking , plus a pet or 2 . It’s been since 2017 since I had space that welcomed pets without a great deal of money and conditions that were not safe for me , nor a pet .
2016 I had a natural habitat for what developed 3 dogs and 2 cats ; an eviction cost me all but 1 who moved with me twice and finally died of what I believe was Lyme related .
It’s been hard but that’s part of Retaliatory Landlord Abuse .
I learned retaliatory at the hands of a master to whom I have detached from long ago .He has not received the message,not accepted that I don’t belong to him .