Losing Oneself After Being Married to a Narcissist – Invisible Illness – Medium

Much of her experience rings true , similar traits do show up..

Rejection of myself , our 1st pregnancy , projection of Blame and Shame

only 3 months in a marriage . Horrific birthing support and rape

and trauma and fear , compliance in my awareness that though he was

not happy, nor pleased , what was his was his….and indeed it became worse

and very natural for his exit to salvage himself in all ways 1st . Greed

and power are covenants that prohibit equality , normalcy , partnership

and a healthy foundation for children/grandchildren … Taking anything of

mine, any joy , monies , reputation , foundation etc gives him great joy .

Illness even more so, being his target for over 40 years , a way to get empathy,

sympathy and support from source supply/partner , who made him the man

he is today …peter pan .

#GrowthisOptional

,For as long as I can remember I have never been in control. The significant people in my life have controlled me. I have to take some accountability for this, and I do. But I think I never learned…
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Thousands of migrant children were sexually abused in U.S. custody, HHS docs say – CBS News

According to documents obtained by Rep. Ted Deutch’s office, more than 4,500 sexual abuse complaints were reported over the past four years
— Read on www.cbsnews.com/news/thousands-of-migrant-children-were-sexually-abused-in-u-s-custody-hhs-docs-say/

Space Shuttle Challenger disaster –

Observing the 34 th anniversary of the horror of January 28th

1986 , I wanted to share the energy I felt in those shadow years

and in that time frame.

A company sponsored trip to Hawaii , was my 2nd within marriage .

It was only for 3 days, much to quick a trip for me , and as we arrived

and checked in quickly and headed towards the beach , I was unaware

of things to come .

Flying in the pilot announced a fly over the Hula Bowl ..We were low

enough to see the stadium.

Announcing earlier , or later , I cannot recall , that the space craft Challenger

had exploded , and a plane full of grieving passengers landed in beautiful

Hawaii ..

As I said , we headed to the beach , and enjoyed Coronas and barbecued

🍤 shrimp…heading back to our room to prepare for dinner at dusk.

Upon arrival at our room, I developed the adverse effects , which were

so harsh that a doctor was called , and he did help clean up the tiled

bathroom..

The doctor administered a shot, my 1st shot, but not my 1st experience

and the door had hardly shut when he turned to me , asking if I wanted

to go with him to dinner 🥘😷👎

It was a day, I’ll never forget for all the details, for traveling meant

leaving our 3 year old, our 5 year old and 7 year old sons , which was

always hard for me, but was treated very casually … instinctually

I was concerned about their caregiver on our trips .

My internal GPS was taking a beating 😜.

Nothing about that day seemed real , authentic , or true …

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

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Space Shuttle Challenger disaster – Bing
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A Breakdown Can Be A JumpStart Towards Wellness Towards Growth Of Self Equalling a Breakthrough

Totally unfortunate when professionally medicated , numbed comfortably

which normally only masked trauma, and can and will find one in a most

vulnerable place .

When the partner chooses this vulnerable time to strike , it reveals their

truth , their character , as in my case 20 plus years later , the ever present

strike of toxic projections , has no home within me .

It’s triggering , and each time , surrender to the lack of growth , that is starkly

revealing in these days of change , and spiritual evolution . ☮️♥️✊🙏

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

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‘Playing the Parental Alienation card’: Abusive fathers use the system to gain access to children | Brunel University London

‘Playing the Parental Alienation card’: Abusive fathers use the system to gain access to children | Brunel University London
— Read on www.brunel.ac.uk/news-and-events/news/articles/’Playing-the-Parental-Alienation-card’-Abusive-fathers-use-the-system-to-gain-access-to-children

Hopi Messenger So Many Truths from Ancestors

Including the messages of the Peace Accord agreed to represented

by the 4Corners

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Projection Toxic Spewing Lies Saves the Virtue Of the Narcissist

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