Narcissist Never Get Over You…

Seeing through the rage early on, seeing the 3 year old wounded child

that happened to be male , but imbalanced for whatever reason .

The trauma affected the softer , feminine child, molding him towards

an exterior that denied the softness.. Drama was not perceived in the dead

pan delivery in mask , usually attributed to someone else . I became his fix

his target , which he modeled for our 3 sons . He’s still in that mode ,

sadly , regrettably denying any responsibility , contracts that supersede

any written or dictated by human .

©️

Blessings & Peace

Doña Luna

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Stones In the Road

This song describes in part my experience and that of many boomers

who retain faith and hope , in a better world for all. In a society of suicide

we may have been induced into that society , duped that it was entirely

up to the individual ..Addictions became common , unexplainable, and

the individual who was already targeted by abuse with the home to such

a degree , that many stones lay in the road.

Who has not been held accountable ? Chemical /Pharmaceutical Corps co joined

with the AMA and APA and therapist who stay in the induction state due to

the enormous profit ..

Same reason a partner seizes the induction of illness of any kind to plot

an escape that only physically proves an abuse and ego that takes years

to get in alignment with their plan.

That does not detract from the totally casual partnership , that has no truth

being built on a foundation of friendship , that includes infidelity, withholding

information , emotionally, spiritually , financially, in order to have a body in house

to do whatever is wanted or needed .

Silence became the norm , 3 months after I do, when blessed with child became

a burden , I had to step out of .. I gained 30 lbs over my norm , our son was over

due , with the blatant disregard , disconnect as he discussed this problem

5 days a week at work.. He became the victim .. I became it , as he’s prone to

state , he had to marry me .

Wed 3/4/77 a year of great astronomy/astronomy, his wounds became

more clear and pronounced in the mask or his truth showed up in the

year of Chiron the wounded healer planet was discovered .

Our 1st son , bore his name , though he protested , I did not understand

his reasoning for not IV ing , as time bore out . 3/11/78, 2 weeks late

put his expected time of arrival was 2/28/78, my non Leap Year

celebration .

His 🎂 birth even 2 weeks late , still bore out , his false assertion that

he had to marry me .

Yes he had to…I cooked , I cleaned , I cared , I looked presentable when we

went out , quickly pushing through the judgement and critical words of

his life long partner .. Yes , I belonged to him, and a child he did not mentally

or emotionally prepare for , refusing to take precaution for , lacking that

responsibility , showed up where it mattered most ..💰💰💰

Joy was not something I attach him to in those days ..

Mask of the corporate , secrets, family business , locked into place

he was more aware with our 2nd son, whose birth was stressful

and he was drunk, or hung over ..Back labor, was harsh and

he was indisposed until birth , decrying he always wanted a brother.

Our 3rd Son, was the unspoken , Well you know what you’re in for

as a single parent , stay at home Mom …

Yes , I began to know my place in his world , had no growth , no real

attachment , no foundation .. I had 3 sons to nurture , and I was allowed

and I tried to make that enough ..

I was not enough, I lived with that those last 5 years , as he searched for love

outside himself, still … I gave up on him…A desire to hold me in the same

possessive shadow in regards to our sons , who have no intimate connection

to me ..

As it appears , winner takes all..he cannot take what does not , and never did

belong to him..

Stones in the Road , were boulders that have been removed , as the facts are the

truth , long ago released from abuse that has continued beyond , beyond .

I am not the sledge hammer , I am the Mom who knows the light heals

and I can longer accept being a target that has resulted in our sons being

abused as well, their children , a tradition that can cease and desist .

©️

Blessings and Peace ,

Doña Luna 🥰🎉❤️

Doña Luna

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Have you Experienced Betrayal Trauma? – Help for Partners of Sex Addicts

There are a number of factors which contribute to being able to recover from a crisis or a trauma. If you’ve experienced a betrayal, maybe read through this list, and see if there are things that can help you here: 1. First … we need to break through the denial and admit to ourselves that…
— Read on sexaddictionpartners.wordpress.com/2020/02/16/have-you-experienced-betrayal-trauma/

Trump’s separation of families constitutes torture, doctors find | US news | The Guardian

I can testify to this , and am doing my best to get these facts out there .

#Torture&Trauma

Evaluations of 26 people by Physicians for Human Rights provides first in-depth look at policy’s psychological impact
— Read on www.theguardian.com/us-news/2020/feb/25/trump-family-separations-children-torture-psychology

Triangulation: The Narcissist’s Best Play | The Psychology of Self

It’s all there , it’s very stark, but no more lies, no more riddle me this BS , no more

target, no more thievery of any sort , the facts for our children and theirs .

Ending this generational , currently epidemic, that affects too many families ..

Todays verdict against Henry Weinstein, is a victory for all, and a huge move

forward to ending this Domestic Abuse that’s upheld by the top.

Gone 🎉👏©️

Peace & Blessings

Doña Luna

Within the vast catalogue of toxic behavior, triangulation is amongst the most well-known. It is very common, especially among narcissistically inclined
— Read on blogs.psychcentral.com/psychology-self/2019/10/triangulation-and-narcissism/

Losing Oneself After Being Married to a Narcissist – Invisible Illness – Medium

Much of her experience rings true , similar traits do show up..

Rejection of myself , our 1st pregnancy , projection of Blame and Shame

only 3 months in a marriage . Horrific birthing support and rape

and trauma and fear , compliance in my awareness that though he was

not happy, nor pleased , what was his was his….and indeed it became worse

and very natural for his exit to salvage himself in all ways 1st . Greed

and power are covenants that prohibit equality , normalcy , partnership

and a healthy foundation for children/grandchildren … Taking anything of

mine, any joy , monies , reputation , foundation etc gives him great joy .

Illness even more so, being his target for over 40 years , a way to get empathy,

sympathy and support from source supply/partner , who made him the man

he is today …peter pan .

#GrowthisOptional

,For as long as I can remember I have never been in control. The significant people in my life have controlled me. I have to take some accountability for this, and I do. But I think I never learned…
— Read on medium.com/invisible-illness/lessons-on-losing-oneself-after-being-married-to-a-narcissist-f8111486dfe0

On Cognitive Dissonance. – Invisible Illness – Medium

All this and more …

The term cognitive dissonance is used to describe the feelings of discomfort that result when your beliefs run counter to your behaviors and/or new information that is presented to you. People tend…
— Read on medium.com/invisible-illness/on-cognitive-dissonance-61821269204

Thousands of migrant children were sexually abused in U.S. custody, HHS docs say – CBS News

According to documents obtained by Rep. Ted Deutch’s office, more than 4,500 sexual abuse complaints were reported over the past four years
— Read on www.cbsnews.com/news/thousands-of-migrant-children-were-sexually-abused-in-u-s-custody-hhs-docs-say/