The Hovering Of Narcissist

With more plays and twist and turns than an Agatha Christie novel

the stories he believed in so deeply , and still does …I became aware

early on of the deep sensitivity and unknowing, revealing little , but

projecting the strength of a consciousness man . Very quickly

After I Do’s and baby announcement , sensitively vacated .

Sharing this fear and toxicity of shame unhealed , influenced daily

by his main female teammate , I was the outsider .. My respect for him

was threatened , a year in quashed and my nightmare masked

for reasons I am going to post later .. secrets he considered worthy

of my death after destruction …as his energy ebbs, he continues

Revelations of truths , the lies and actions that destroyed 4 others right

to love , in peace and Harmony .

Huge breach of Universal Law

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Doña Luna

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1999-2019- 20 year cycle of overt Abuse Ends

A new decade , Thankfully the veil is being lifted from many

horrific , #erasingfamlies influences , including the parent

who must win at all cost.

Walked away Dec 27th 1998

Feb 28 th 1999, I had an *induced* suicide attempt .

* He still prefers to think I wanted to die over loosing him.

Fact : Shrink prescribed 3600 mg of an opiate per day *inducing suicide

My Mom died April 9th 1999, after 5 years of heart disease .

Our middle son graduated from high school in 1999.

I was removed from our family home , which he held on to for 2 more

years , so our youngest had a home base to finish high school , and not

live with him in his new gals place ..( one fact that never came up )

I agreed to a condo, to avoid a rental apartment . Stating there was no

equity from our home , denying me a home of my own , I settled for 4

levels , and mourned in deep medicated grief until 2003 , when our 1st

grandson was born ..Red flags , began to assail me…I had to wake

from the chemical straight jacket , and abuse .

In 1999, our Christmas was drastically altered , 21 years of tradition

of which due to my very ill state , I missed the last 5 years . Celebration

with my adult abusers just did not resonate in any form of Christianity

that I knew to be just.

He chose to spend his Christmas with his new gal and her children..

Much like a wake, our grief tangible , our 3 sons and I were guest

via my younger sister , for a buffet . Normal was blown .. in addition

to my medicated toxic state , the experience was a trauma revisited

from my childhood , when age 11/12 my parents , split at Christmas.

He was aware of this but , determined to be happy , after putting a roof

over my head for 21 years and 3 sons , I was disposed of , like the Persian

cat , he dumped a few years before .. on top of my mountain.

The mountain , we visited 20 years ago , in such shadow , has been

my home for 9 solid years .. I have grown in an environment that allows

me the freedom of not being followed or watched .. I’m a possession,

a threat to his past , that he chooses to keep skipping out of …a life’s work.

Bankrupting me , encouraging by demise , utilizing our sons/family

shame, finances , law, he contractually made promises ..The facts are clear

and still present danger that he has no intention of stopping his

party ever waiting , his happiness , his awakening or not .

Holidays were met by silence ….While my personal grief is real

I am shown , I am defiantly on my own , little more than a surrogate

a mother long since dead to her sons ..

I’m left to complete this cycle on my own as well, as I expose the

many reasons , why I have been forced , induced by my abuser

to stay quiet until I had enough , which Thankfully has been exposed

in this finale of ChildAbuse , Domestic Abuse , being excused

and supported ..

So there is no party, only acceptance that my very survival depends on

stepping out of this triangulation, still supported by Mother/Son partners

till infinity.. pushing I am not family for 43 years , I was allowed to

marry him that he could better fit in …

#NotMyCircusNotMyMonkey

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

Prince 1999

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Narcissistic Personality plus, described Spiritually Intuitively

A truth I was aware of , far too early , was the various mask required

in his day to day.. Detached in ways that tore at my soul , inciting me

to try harder …there was nothing that pleased , nothing on a soul level

that touched him.. With the realization of the detachment extending to

our children , one scant year into our marriage , I prayed , I mentored,

and I had faith .

Having 20 years of intense abuse , following 23 years of masked on/off

my awareness increased these past 15 years of the trauma , the

splitting , the separation from higher power , all of these traits mirrored

in my behavior , more so as an induced mental patient …It was those

last 5 years that revealed true intent , and a consciousness lacking

empathy , compassion or humanity …

Stepping out of this , has only disadvantaged me until June and as

I began my 1 on 1 council , having great success for each lady as

they grew in connection with God/Goddess, Source , Love and

all this just laying dormant , it is their success, and my honor to

be a part of it …😍

The aspects that are critical to respond to and resolve are financial ,

the power trip of the matrix and 3 D , as I lean in to Winter’s Solstice,

there is peace in completion of these various lessons that have polished

my heart 💜, as my eyes see the golden , as I cast away/transform shadow

a New Earth in so many aspects of life known so far .

Gratitude 🙏 on this SunDay/SonsDay…

Sending Love n Light to masculine 🥰✊

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

Looking deeper into NPD

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Kramer vs Kramer at 40: a flawed film that remains a deserving classic | Film | The Guardian

To me this film depicted the harsh kick back from

the masculine energy of fear from women’s liberation

in bras and workplaces while holding their own

adverse childhood traumas , seldom voiced ..

It shows up in matters of power , money , and control.

Transforming this to Unity …Peace

Hold Faith ❤️

Blessings & Peace ☮️

Doña Luna

Dustin Hoffman and Meryl Streep brought divorce to the masses with an imperfect yet sensitive portrayal of a difficult scenario
— Read on www.theguardian.com/film/2019/dec/11/kramer-vs-kramer-film-classic

U.S. has world’s highest rate of children living in single-parent households | Pew Research Center

Endangered :

Children and Elders .

It’s a cash cow, for all Corps and many

branches of behavioral health , which has adversely influenced

our laws, our society …

Purging this for review , due transforming, as a consciousness

and sanity replace this hell on earth for heaven in New Earth

Reality ….

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Blessings & Peace ✌️

Doña Luna

Almost a quarter of U.S. children under 18 live with one parent and no other adults, more than three times the share of children around the world who do so.
— Read on www.pewresearch.org/fact-tank/2019/12/12/u-s-children-more-likely-than-children-in-other-countries-to-live-with-just-one-parent/