If You Don’t KnowMe By Now – Simply Red

This song when current , was true and to the

degree that our marriage had never been

and was never going to be healthy .

How could he know me , as I had to know

why his hatred towards me ran so deep

as to withhold himself.

The rabbit hole was far deeper and darker

than any nightmare I had in my life .

Including my brief drug experimentation

illegally . I did not realized the many

inducted dis-eases with addictive “side effects”.

I have come to realize that both Grandmothers

had adverse side effects , of Valium, the mother

of Xanax to which I subsumed.

I do not know my Mother’s drug regimens due

to my own induced addiction state of hell.

There was much grief , shame and anger

as I healed , in being unavailable in these

passages that are often vulgar displays of

the lowest of vibrating energy . Former showed

up flanked my his parents in 99 when Mom

exited . Flagrantly showing his love , outside

our home , openly before , I was to discover

I saw the as a Christian’s , affirmation.

I was not allowed to participate when his

Dad exited, and have not been abled to

locate a grave site . A Beloved nephew , who

exited be for him , catalyzed his decline ,

his addiction to Paxil , which he handed out

to anyone who wanted to be happy , and

his fat laden diet aided in an aneurism

in a kidney .

( * my understanding of what was told to me

may or not be true.)

No lawsuit was chosen , a million dollar bill

for hospital care , (1 year) , and his being

kept alive by sheer will.

Her diet attempts , saw him run an errand

after dinner for a fast food burger 🍔!

A kindly man , he stayed in the flow , Docile

Domestication .

So I had no idea of the trauma and rages

exhibited without warning , that sadly

have no end toward me. Nor with the

most recent supply that escaped near dead …

There was nothing in shallow Hal, that

is missable , grieves me, shame me ,

haunts me, angers me , or I can attach love

to. The years , decades long of concern

for his soul growth, long acknowledged,

accepted , and surrendered him to Divine.

He certainly deserves the healing , and

I expect his continue supported effort at

protecting himself financially , and skimming

self healing .. socially acceptable.

Of all I know change has adverse effects on

him, until all’s in perfect order . Perfect doesn’t

exist .

I found myself actualizing a mirror , when

raging , in privacy in my home , alone

by saying the words , I could not say one

on one , and I scared myself ! Not yet grasping

how much I had mirrored former , my inner

child , so much rage induced by trauma

unhealed , unacknowledged , fired up

by prescription medications .

My left arm throbbed enough to signal

backing down , getting chiller .

Buddhism helped, and yet I allowed

myself to be triggered and responding

in trauma induced situations , until

my edification of Domestic Abuse / Child

Abuse , PharmaAbuse Legal Abuse ,

Medical Abuse , in a culture of suicide

are .

I tried then to be more aware , less toxic , and

kinder to myself .

I am considering carrying a hand mirror to

energy vampires , gone mad , as was my recent

attack by a busy man in a parking lot .

Bam , here see what I see?

Not your best choice.

Suicide rates , and violence escalates in

such transitional, times as we now find

our world in. No New World Order , No

End Days as many are signaling.

Heaven is pulling to Earth ,Earth is pulling

Heaven that will require change .

I exit the matrix of lack , and own my

light of love ❤️, that will never , ever feel

unworthy or unloved or alone .

©️

Blessings & Peace .

Doña Luna

Simply Red – Holding On

www.youtube.com/watch

Joe Biden, Lady Gaga team up for sexual assault PSA – ABC News

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Codependency and Your Reaction Style? – Esteemology

A knowing , since childhood that negative emotions

were emotionally wounded triggered into acting

a way that lacked empathy. Ie: they were not being

who they are supposed to be . I did not see or feel

it as choice ..Never the less it had a cumulative effect

that was a landslide upon grasping upon announcing

our 1st , any light left him towards me , as he felt

betrayed . He heard this from his true life partner

who failed to note my light or worth to his 3 sons.

Co-Dependency, was the rat wheel, of trying to

maintain , which was fractured by my chemically

induced nervous breakdown, which totally denied

the Domestic Abuse , the RX induced reaction ,

any and all spiritual connection . Sensitivity of

course is noted .

I felt I deserved emotional support , as well as

a roof over my head .The very bound Connection

with his Mom , was never healed, never communicated

deeply ..closeted to be the monster in his closet that

I became the target for , like the sleeping bears that

our Prez has opened to kill, their union, power and money

influenced their win, with psychiatry and chemical companies

along came his Karmic twin , who was treated to the same

behaviors as I, resulting in illness, extremely unprepared

to battle the committee. Admiralty , extremely successful

in her tenure as a member -leader-mastermind of

said committee , consumed with the income I receive

she inferred as his , thus hers , which would allow

luxuries , such as island home, travel , cars , and

stylish cloths…

Jealous and cheap and demanding , a Mom of 2

aided and encourage incoming “family” that I

was not to be included , in the either/or

and of course the mother adored that and gave her

the open lead , as did he , while demurring from

open displays of abuse , which are savage one on

one .

Co-dependent ?

Hardly !

I have a great appreciation for the influence of secretive

relationships, false mask, for the money powered favor

that exist on every level , and a culture of suicide and

abuse accepted , believe what they see.. What was real

was the induction of my walking dead Stepford”

surrogate , who with out my permission or understanding

was targeted for the simple fact of shutting me up

to not be believed in truth.

Co-Dependent ?

The abuse allowed by legal professionals, who seemingly

enjoy the kill and holding secrets while destroying families

by targeted rulings , indeed , continuing the Domestic

Abuse .

Co-Dependent ? To be considered that I had information

of any truths , or could make informed , intelligent

choices as a mental patient . That I was treated fairly ,

impacting my income by allowing his total control

of my finances , along side his mom whom he represents

now financially .

Co-Dependent ? Expecting a partner , whom would have

my back , as I would have his , became their ever lasting

desire to compete , and win .

Destroying a family by targeting 1 is evil accepted and

normal in the matrix I feel I have exited .

Interdependence, has way more appeal

and part of my mission .

There are far too many who have far too

much ego , which revealed is inclusive of

abuse .. some mask.

Its revelation time folks …

I’m more than ready to put the past 20

to dust , as a way of telling the #Me2WifeMomChildrenErased

for who stands in solidarity for family unity .

Blessings & Peace

Doña Luna

Codependency and Your Reaction Style? – Esteemology
— Read on esteemology.com/codependency-and-your-reaction-style/

The NRA Is Trying to Block the Violence Against Women Act – Rolling Stone

Of course not, targets , moving targets are needed for practice .

Music, Film, TV and Political News Coverage
— Read on www.rollingstone.com/politics/politics-news/nra-violence-against-women-act-814295/

Listening to Victims Can Reduce Domestic Violence Deaths

2 women from my hometown were murdered

after repeated request for police intervention.

1 had 2 children and an ex who would not

release her. He waited until their children

were away, entered at night , killed her as well

as himself.

#SheWasNotHeard

The mother who had an adult son, who apparently

was mentally ill, repeatedly as and was ignored

by police .

Son used a Samurai Sword and cut her up..

It was a week before police found her body in

their house , with son.

He was sentenced to 60 years , as he heard

the judgement You killed the only person

who loved you, and cared.

#SheWasNotHeard

#HeWasNotHeard

An advocate and survivor shares how some states are currently working to end domestic violence homicides.
— Read on www.domesticshelters.org/articles/domestic-violence-op-ed-column/listening-to-victims-can-reduce-domestic-violence-deaths

Trump Administration Quietly Redefines ‘Domestic Violence’ And ‘Sexual Assault’ | Michael Stone

It is backwards He takes us, to effectively

enact these laws , releasing himself as well

as others from responsibility , only displays

a very deep seated , hatred for women.

Period . It’s called covering one’s ass.

He’s incorrect , and this is going to be revealed

very soon.

Bad News: The Trump administration has quietly redefined “domestic violence” and “sexual assault,” resulting in significant and potentially devastating consequences for survivors.
— Read on www.patheos.com/blogs/progressivesecularhumanist/2019/01/trump-administration-quietly-redefines-domestic-violence-and-sexual-assault/