Narcissists Use Trauma Bonding and Intermittent Reinforcement To Get You Addicted To Them: Why Abuse Survivors Stay

In general not recognized by profession , who

ignore or close their eyes to what trauma bonds

are , as in my case since a Dr had labeled me

despite my honesty from the get go that I was

hit , and targeted by win at all cost , ” family”

in denial that they were not perfect .

Sacrificing their grandchildren and me , was

a piece of cake.. a horrid truth I discovered

adversely affects more folks in hollowed halls

of law and men.

It’s a very good thing to witness healing of

this pick of speed as many wake to the erasure

of families , and the profit by bottom-feeders

whose deserving of being spotlighted , as

poster child’s , abuses that no Hail Mary

Father Forgive Me excuses . Holding this

abuse as excusable, is foolhardy, a higher

power begs surrender , residence puts

abusers , front and center .

I am more that ready , Thy Will Be Done

#FlyingMonkeys

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Blessings & Peace,

Doña Luna

Trauma bonds are intense, unshakeable attachments which occur in abusive relationships, making it difficult for abuse survivors to leave. Here are signs you might be trauma bonded to a narcissistic abuser.
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Surrender

It is not visionary , or fake , when I sense

the essence of light , but a gift 💝 that has

been a guided when I’m in my 0 point .

I have labored long and hard to know and

do better , and it’s time.

I surrendered to this 16 years ago, given my

life thus far , how I could impact the folks

who need to hear my message the most.

I’ve been all over the place in my studies ,

and it comes together beautifully like an

heirloom quilt .

The fruition of my child 🧒 hood dreams .

Dad looked like Elvis , was uber not fun when

tired , which I assured you was worn out tired .

Cindy , next door her Mom , Rose 🌹and Grand

Mother , brother Barry , and Woody , a Father

like none other, a survivor of cancer , who

lost his voice , ate through a tube , and smoked

his Camels to the end . He did not die of cancer .

This family aided in my upbringing with grace

and inclusion I did not feel at home.

Proper English ladies guided me , there was much

light around me . It helped , but there was always

the unspoken , the puffs of breath as if exasperated

from Mom who was feeling alone and servitude

would be her life.

As I pondered this Full Moon in Libra , of which

I am aware will bring gifts and openings long

time coming , I leap forward to May, and Taurus

full Moon, My Moon . Younger brother by 14

months , and could nurture and turn it off like

a faucet …each thus unstable for my Peace

and foundational energy , as theirs was not

stable , and communication with held , seemed

weaponized. I was not sure of how to self care

but found stability within others homes , just

as there was drama, but overtly it was the highly

bonded family , the Mom heard her child.

Working Mom’s as well, the whole family

unit engaged, and aware of each other, in

a unison lacking in my home. I never considered

living with Granny Zola, or Granny Cora &

Grandaddy Grayson , I stayed within my family

unit until 18 ..

My dreams were of communication, of caring

of laughter , beauty with gardens , space to run

or walk , all one needed in a harmony of

peace , that silence welcomed and understood

as holy , and sacred for individual growth .

Creative space as well, not out there somewhere

but honored in the home place . There are shows

that honor this sweet , simple, spiritual home

which is my personal Moon Mother Taurus .

As I listened to HZ music , impressed to learn

it raises one’s vibration positively @900HZ

which occurs to me , might be RX for mood ,

I glanced up at my dreamcatcher which is

3 Wolves , in stained glass .

That took my mind to my Native American

Astrology which is beautifully drawn in chalk

and shows 12 grandmothers , grandfathers

which Azure said was a lot at the time.

I began to weep , as my mind wrapped around

her words , and my awareness, as a Pisces

who represents all 12 signs, with a grandparent

to “hold” me in each !

As my awareness expands to receive these gifts

I am comforted, beyond measure , as I surrendered

to the power of love that is the universal heart

beat , that in my awakening , I am born again

and I laid the blue print that is the 10 of Cups

and it’s unfolding as Empress & Empress

who have come together in a higher love

that is Divinity itself , with our reality , our

center , our core in harmony , in sacred

union of souls . Nothing before it that was not

a stepping stone towards each other , poof

gone ..

Nothing between us , to block our paths as

intergraded, multifaceted people in union

as friends, lovers, partners . Debates but not

arguing . Authentic , and Deep , Funny , Safe

and Trusting , Erotic and Mysterious .

And with all that I became aware of craziness

that comes up to be transmuted, transformed .

And we each would do so, without inflicting

the other.

So I surrendered , long , long ago, to a stable

harmonic foundation , within which to create

unrestricted , unbound , but rhyming with

my flow , which can be altered at any given

moment , if need be.

I have made every effort to giving myself

this , since I found myself alone in each and every

way in 2003 , a repetitive theme that will

finally be resolved ..

Exhale

Surrender was extremely arduous, for those

around me had no idea, of what was needed.

I am forgiving in the not knowing , it is

the knowing and withholding that no longer

serves me , and I have surrendered to releasing

that I may fill my cup with what my child

planted seeds for coming up long ago.

Surrendered to not having to know pain

addiction or humility, to know love ,

on my knees, along side , not below my

Emerald Emptor, who stands on his own

as I knew him at first site , without knowing .

I have surrendered to our union on high .

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

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I Kidnapped My Son To Escape My Abuser | HuffPost

This is a painful fact , going on everywhere

in lawless judgements in courts not acting

in the best interest of the child .

In the eyes of Brazil’s law, I stole you from your father but I did it to save us from domestic violence.
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Men Cause 100% of Unwanted Pregnancies – Can We Talk? – Medium

I totally agree that responsibility should be

balanced . Knowing our body’s is critical

to empowering choices .

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

Our conversation about abortion places the burden of responsibility on women. I argue men are the root cause. If we actually care about reducing or eliminating abortions, we must hold men accountable.
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Winner & Still Champion : Appointed Judge Matriarch Of God

‘Twas no judge , but a critical matriarch, who

deemed me unworthy , and supported her son

by saving him from being responsible , but to

her .

Whatever bound them together , is still in play

tragically , and that energy has no healing ,

no compassion, only fear at getting caught

certainly never at what was done .

Silence, assured that given the past , their

funds , their connections , and careful planning

will never expose the abuse ; the living death

of separation before and during my induced

mental illness , assured the story line of my

unfitness , as compassion , often daily contact

was with held for 5 years as he searched for

his twin, and followed the same story line.

Of course , once again the victim , this horrible

experience reduced her to near death , as he

mourns the outgoing money he owes her ,

which limits his living as large as he has chosen

at the loss and expense of beloved’s , be they

romantic or children .

Confiding he’s executing the Will, will

not be the cake walk he expects ..

Light can only be had by truths, and there

is much to transform , releasing this finally

as the factual truths that lighten any soul

that chooses to see the challenge far exceeds

the desire to step into so much shadow .

I found it absolutely necessary , to process and

be responsible marriage dynamics that created

a living death , a surrogacy , induced mental

illness , that was professionally supported

and socially accepted as it appeared to be hell

on earth.. that family was unaware or unable

or saw the adversity as opportunity to prevail

by bottom-feeding, showing no connection

to any god I am aware of ..

By whatever name it is child abuse to abuse their

Mother . Abuse in drugging her , creating a monster

mirroring her abuse of this life , of generations

of abuse, that by very exposure enlightens

so many , and is whatever each of our sons

wishes to make of it.

Releasing them from shame , and any contract

that says they cannot own their feelings , or

heal some deep wounds , and release hatred

and grief from a past they , nor I were empowered

to combat , light so dimmed as not to exist .

Indeed Hell on Earth , that light of truth

vaporizes .

Masculine Transmutation : Shout Out -You Are Divinely Held

In my meditations, I am not swinging as much

in negative thinking towards the dark masculine

shadow , in my effort to support masculine

transmutation of harsh dark shadow energy

and join the feminine who have joined in

Christ Consciousness, to lead by example the

joy and light that truth brings .

Surrendering these depicted wounds is very

difficult in a heavily Divinity that has been taught

constriction, quiet , locking up emotionally is

the fire in the belly of a real man , when it only

leads to many negatives , including premature

death , death of the soul, and given that, man

turns on himself , just to feel something..even pain.

I feel that pain, intensely , and having transmuted

my own, serving all this life as an old soul

I have observed generations , and I pled

in prayer as my voice , my words are rejected

and abused , that masculine energies lay their

burden down .

Heal the child within , being with your truths ,

even if only 1 person hears you, know you are

worthy and much needed as we pull heaven

to earth in a light so bright , shades are absolutely

required.

Dare to dream.

Open your heart.

Surrender to your magnificent god self

Forgive , and rejoice in laughter as well as tears

in the silence hear the voice of Beloved

who calls out in love and admiration

in prayer for a higher love that stands

as ordained by Divine , all that is

as we come together in the greater love

where love light is the beacon always and

ever more .

©️Doña Luna

With more Blessings and tears in my heart for

the rejoicing that shall be yours ..soon very soon.

Much Thanks for your every effort .

Tina Turner On life, her book, her son’s suicide ..Buddhism on high .

From Domestic Abuse , ill health , to her exquisite

happiness and peace .

#BuddhistCenterofPeace

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