There were a few blips , but very valuable .
Thanks Lisa , opening your life and education to aide
so many ..
Tag: Delusion
Twilight Sleep, A painless Birth , producing an drugged baby and mother common until 1970
I found an article on this , common drug combo, which carried
enough horror , at what I knew was Mom’s experience
after , her 1st child at 17, and bonding dis not happen,
rather shame for not being wed.
She was ignored in her labor with Dad and her 1st born
whom she spontaneously birthed dead and in early
decomposition . Post Traumatic Stress Disorder was not
acknowledged , perhaps seen as hysteria , so I have
no doubt that Mom was drugged with this lethal cocktail
of hypnotic /addictive pharmaceuticals .
Which resulted in my rejecting Mom’s milk , which imprinted
both of us , and led to my new born self , being sent home
with a Mom who was having latch problems ( my tongue
was clipped ) having rejected Mom, who is uber sensitive
only to return after 5 days so dehydrated , near death
which must have felt like another failure to her , that she took
very deeply .
After acknowledging, this , I released so much pain of not
knowing and any separation that may have existed , was
vapor and only love remains .
This was a huge gift for my healing on Mother’s Day ,
as well as I will post on how each of our sons was
also drugged with adverse effects that are passed off as
an issue of baby or mom and not the toxicity or addictive
reality that does much harm.
I have had to take the time to process this , as well
as withholding , in mindfulness of catalyzing
memory or truth for others .
I have have been awash in gratitude for the knowing
and in total awe and surrender of a Mother , a wife
a nurse and so much more who lost much , eventually
her life to AMA medicine , in her trust of what she knew
to be true , socially, religiously , and in her acceptance
which has been a force within me , and the effect of
a Mother – Daughter dynamic seen by Psychiatric as
a foundation for , if not a Behavioral Disorder .
As are the adverse effects of vaccines .
As are adverse effects of dental mercury .
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna
Children with Attachment Based Narcissistic “Parental Alienation Syndrome”
Parental Alienation Syndrome (PAS) is the unhealthy coalition between a narcissistic parent and his or her children against the targeted, non-narcissistic, non
— Read on pro.psychcentral.com/recovery-expert/2016/06/children-with-narcissistic-parental-alienation-syndrome/
Scapegoat : I had no idea it would go so far , trounce another generation 2 as well.
Ending this , is difficult, given the length and intensity
of the acceptance of erroneous information, drama
and hysteria , that lacks reason.. effectively having
revealed it self , and there is naught to do, but see
it through ..
Will I be heard ? Will I trigger some? Will retaliation be
the normal response ?
All is in perfect order ..
Revelations , open the wound to be healed , the best choice
and the free will to do what one chooses .
It was part of my experience in becoming
myself , interested , instead of the fractured , dislocated
disposed of , I know my dimensions ..And
what’s brought me to my knees time and time
again is love .
And light .
I am ever Thankful for this post of truth , the
Shadow , the deep study , taking time and
responsibility in transforming his life
as aiding others by sharing his experience .
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna
Sons of Narcissistic Father’s
Jealous is what I believe drove him to rape
6 days after the birth of child.
Marking his territory ; witnessing a profound
love and attachment .
Having to be told , to pick up his child.
None of this was normal..9 months of
his seething , feeling betrayed ..taking
no joy, only obligation in becoming a Dad
Acknowledging this in recent years , how
much he loves that word , in his mind clears
all of what’s discussed in this video.
Apologies , owing responsibility , healing
are not going to happen; nothing moves him
and that scared me silent ..
I have never ever witness anyone so void , so
self destructive, so holding his trauma .
A feminine version of this showed up for one
last lesson, in his alter masculine/feminine
recently and it was extremely enlightening
to grasp the inner views …
Adult children , witnessed addiction, co-dependency
alcoholic and co -dependence , ignored PTSD in
a highly superior , educated , successful maternal
for whom money is everything . No communication
about these major life efforts ,to her sons , with
holding ..friends instead , walking a fine line
having no support in lieu of a repeated lesson
of exactly the same amount of time.
Hearing this renewal on steroids ,after 6 years
where I would suddenly be blasted with negativity
that was so low energy , I gave er a go.
My reward was the takeaway , Understanding
the detailed thinking , planning , timing in
order to carry out plans , in exiting a current
situation ..Draining , yes .. the dynamics brought
my very essence up for a review by a toxic trauma
laden person , stuck, fear-filled , negative and
projecting .
Hours of phone , getting in a time warp
that I found disgusting , the afternoon came
and it ended .
Trusting in change , for her blueprint , is
close , I took myself out of the equation.
I have been on the receiving end of this
hysteria , shame and blame projected
you’re it, because I say so, from folks
who have no idea of the harm to self
and others . I was that person , medicated
floundering in what I sense ( time has ✅)
how my body, the whole of me responded
in core wounds that were not all mine,
but empathically felt..Add that to generations
of abuse in DNA ..I forgave myself, surrendered
all, and live a quiet peace-love-joy, balanced
life ..
Jealousy for this, not understand the personal
power advantage of being in this place , fears
of the harsh lessons inherit in non supported
states of change , like death .
Reviewing this, intensified this attack on me,
I get that..
I have great empathy and support , and know
what is desired in heart and head and soul
will win out , over who will take care of me.
I was forced to nurture myself .. ongoing , yes
and sacred ..
No one has permission to speak to me , in such
a manner, read my blogs . Bother to hear me
over your own inner voice, speak up at the time
of the infraction I might have made or trigger .
Puking those toxins out , spewing me as a target
give me a pretty good idea , of where your coming
from , but silencing ..and I cannot afford to be
anywhere in that space with anyone .
Ever again
Saying so much about inner thinking , I did
not mourn the failure , or lay in hope
of a reunification .
It is what it is..
I aim higher , shake it off and move forward .
Stirred , Shaken, but moving on..
Resolved to step out of the matrix that allows
one sniff of behaviors to be present ,
20 plus years is quite enough , 42, excessive
but so understood now , in all it’s tentacles
given the tools to rise above .
Gratitude to be on my way..
Sun is Shining , Birds are singing
as I step in to fresh food market day , 1st this
year , intent of bliss , seeing old friends
listening to music , a simple , drama
and abuse free heaven on earth..
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna
Adverse Childhood Trauma Attracts Narcissistic :Moth2Flame
Body symptoms are a reality , psychological
survival ,Flight or Fight , are real.
Finding aide mainstream , is repeated insanity .
Finding those who know what it is and
self empowered modalities are a choice to
exit an abusive situation , and thrive .
#WeCanDoBetter
#RisingFromGenerationalTrauma 🐵
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna
How Childhood Trauma Makes Us Susceptible to
Narcissist.
Melanie Tonia Evans
Narcissistic Financial Abuse
I can really get behind her on much of
what she speaks of.
What does it say about this going down
when one is induced into an inability
to discern if finances are equitable ?
I wasn’t privy to his secrets , which were
many , in the evolution of this ongoing
abuse.
I am not heard , it is exampled each time
I’m required to respond .
It’s clear intent , is for me to sale my half
of property to him ..Children, grandchildren,
finances , whatever it takes , winning is
everything to Shallow Hal..
Transforming this required acknowledging
this with proof that cannot be ignored .
Not by those in awareness , as so many
are .. enlightening up , for many is very
difficult ..guilt anger fear .
Fear , not for doing, but for getting caught .
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna 😘🙏🏼
