From the expert , How to co parent with a Narcissist

I personally would adore reading this , but

I have residual debts from the financial creativity

of former .. Also, our sons are adults , whose

C-PTSD has been ignored as the abuse that it is .

If I were vested , I’d skip food or something to

afford this, 15 years of spending monied to educate

myself , my efforts are mocked in court.

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

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Winner & Still Champion : Appointed Judge Matriarch Of God

‘Twas no judge , but a critical matriarch, who

deemed me unworthy , and supported her son

by saving him from being responsible , but to

her .

Whatever bound them together , is still in play

tragically , and that energy has no healing ,

no compassion, only fear at getting caught

certainly never at what was done .

Silence, assured that given the past , their

funds , their connections , and careful planning

will never expose the abuse ; the living death

of separation before and during my induced

mental illness , assured the story line of my

unfitness , as compassion , often daily contact

was with held for 5 years as he searched for

his twin, and followed the same story line.

Of course , once again the victim , this horrible

experience reduced her to near death , as he

mourns the outgoing money he owes her ,

which limits his living as large as he has chosen

at the loss and expense of beloved’s , be they

romantic or children .

Confiding he’s executing the Will, will

not be the cake walk he expects ..

Light can only be had by truths, and there

is much to transform , releasing this finally

as the factual truths that lighten any soul

that chooses to see the challenge far exceeds

the desire to step into so much shadow .

I found it absolutely necessary , to process and

be responsible marriage dynamics that created

a living death , a surrogacy , induced mental

illness , that was professionally supported

and socially accepted as it appeared to be hell

on earth.. that family was unaware or unable

or saw the adversity as opportunity to prevail

by bottom-feeding, showing no connection

to any god I am aware of ..

By whatever name it is child abuse to abuse their

Mother . Abuse in drugging her , creating a monster

mirroring her abuse of this life , of generations

of abuse, that by very exposure enlightens

so many , and is whatever each of our sons

wishes to make of it.

Releasing them from shame , and any contract

that says they cannot own their feelings , or

heal some deep wounds , and release hatred

and grief from a past they , nor I were empowered

to combat , light so dimmed as not to exist .

Indeed Hell on Earth , that light of truth

vaporizes .

BBC – Future – Can the legacy of trauma be passed down the generations?

I personally can attest to this and have several

references to this being a reality .

It has also has empowering modalities

for coping healing , and of course the

Quantum response will crunch 14 generations

of adverse inheritances , very soon.

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

Our children and grandchildren are shaped by the genes they inherit from us, but new research is revealing that experiences of hardship or violence can leave their mark too.
— Read on www.bbc.com/future/story/20190326-what-is-epigenetics

5 minutes be4 bed 4 the rest of your life

We go to bed as adults

We wake as children.

Prioritize creating sacred sleep space and pray

that for each and every soul.

Dreaming and restoring our bodies must

be a goal if ifs not happening .

Long gone are those repetitive negative

issues that keep me from sleeping .

Sleeping in as my hours get wacky

and jazzed , upon my leap..🌈🌺🤩

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Some great truths within l

The masculine inference he , is abused .

Spirit has no gender .

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Opsoclonus-myoclonus syndrome | Genetic and Rare Diseases Information Center (GARD) – an NCATS Program

2nd grandson, whom I have met once , was born with

a cancer in his spine . *Please note 📝, I have never had

a discussion with son or DIL about his health.

Former stated last year , that gs was born with 1 kidney.

He is doing well, just care of diet etc ..

The treatment was initially to implant chemo at tumor site **

He was prescribed a common steroid for whatever reason,

as he was loosing leg motor control , along with eye twitching .

I have scant 1 person information , but I was studying many

brain related issues .

Vaccine damage , RX damage , and the unknown by far too many

medical folks.. that’s scary .

I read of Dr Moulin, and he spoke of brains on fire 🔥 from

the inflammatory induced by toxic chemicals in vaccines ,

and shared with son, via email.

I have no idea if there was cause and effect, but a Dr was

found in Springfield , Ill. who treats this , even more finite

vaccine damage effect that autism , as I read of the 75

diagnosis per year, reference was made that so few medical

were aware of what it is . 11 or so years ago when I researched.

There were 5 protocols offered , and gs responded to one ☝️

He has a supportive , loving family . Meeting him around age

3 , he was non verbal, focused on the climbing inside Mcdonald’s.

As I sat with elder gs , I watched as he climbed to the top .

Son was on phone , and responded that this was the 1st time

he had climbed alone to the top !

Of course it took some effort to get him down !

@ 3 he had Indian blue eyes, and blond hair that was a tad past

his ears . Brother and I teased about school, and his having

a girlfriend 😘. It seemed all to short , very uncomfortable

for son, I was walking on glass chards , trying not to trip

son up , and having no freaking idea what ..

Now , I do know better..and I am doing better , even

through the legacy of Domestic Abuse/ChildAbuse .

And both gs are beautiful young teens who have not

been allowed to know me, or I them .

I look forward to meeting them, sooner than later .

Below OMS

A collection of disease information resources and questions answered by our Genetic and Rare Diseases Information Specialists for Opsoclonus-myoclonus syndrome
— Read on rarediseases.info.nih.gov/diseases/10009/opsoclonus-myoclonus-syndrome

Top of The World – Dixie Chicks grieving release 🙏🏼

This song applies to men in my life, Beloved’s,

so many who have been separated from their life

as beings vs doers…Devalued , as Spiritual,

Sensitive , In all manner of ways in the

culture of suicide , I certainly noted in Mama

who did not hear me, to Dad who did , and

checked into it .. He researched, read , watched

informative programs on his own time , which

was precious little. His inability to correctly

articulate his feelings , was awkward , funny

teasing and enduring .. I had no problem

being honest with him , and that was paramount

as I came to in 2003 , and in that heightened inducement

of mania , I picked up the gauntlet to insure

his last years would witness his Divine Rebirth

Of Spirit and out of the Shadow .

So intensely independent , I had not been allowed

to have an awareness of his personal stuff. He

discussed health issues , lack of care therein ,

concerned about cost, government, etc

and I watched the diminishment, intensify

having no clue of his RX which were guided

by a NP family add on who rescued him

often out her stash.. It’s common , both

having wads Of prescriptions as is common

if you’re in the business…of AMA death ..

Dad spent many years out of it , doing his

coping , self care , holed up in his home

in his BarcaLounger , content in his world.

Blocked grief was slowly and gently released

as I healed and as he began his in / out ,

I was allowed the gift of recalling him of

both his Mom and his wife , whom he

had openly mourned in a culture of society

that withdrew from him , in the pain

associated with another’s grief , and pain.

Only his youngest sister whom called every

Sunday , cared deeply and heard him

when I was unable by psychiatry, DA ,

and loss of our children’s faith and love.

I put it together in those last years , with

an awareness in the last 18 months , foretold

and put into motion to create the most

deserved Divine exit, including releasing

him from guilt , shame, all the lower energy

which were evoked by those caretakers

who profited in many ways , including

the Karmic fallout , they were ill prepared

for.

Releasing with him was freaking hard, but

I stood, even as I was shamed . I walked

away , in my not being allowed to know

his diagnosis .

Until the very end …

However , I realized that like the child he was

to my mother , and vice verse , I had to gift him

by letting him go, in my consciousness .

I allowed my heart to break open at his

bravery , for being my guide , in grieving

as I was unable to as Mim exited in 99

and scream at the denial, due psychiatry

shadow and the gift in that because her exit

would have triggered so many traumas

as an unhealed survivor , I could have lost

myself permanently in the matrix ..

She had hung in until sister Bonnie , her

1st joined her in a portal of welcome as they

both crossed .

Mom was waiting , undone , watching over

each of us since 1999.. Dad held in until

2012, as he openly expressed his concern for

How would I be without him”. I touched my

heart , then my head , I assured him he

would always and forever be , as would Mom.

The pain associated with my childhood

was by then tempered , reviewed , reduced

in such a way to make it all about him.

Ideally , but without support , I was unable

due to his concern of burning through his

estate , and leaving me nothing .

As I had been disadvantaged in my marriage

as he reviewed his loss , he was StockholmEd

as revenge and greed in real time allowed

me to know I was out of that matrix for sure

as threats rained from mouths of womb mates

I realized my error in judgement of masculine

energy was an in-house filter , that created

my ability to sense that in men , totally

missing the narcissist who is the trauma

victim often forever and ever .

As this song denotes the standard masculine

concept of his worth , upheld by an unconscious

family/partner/society is relegated to an end

such as it was.

Proudly Dad labored toward his open portal

towards Divine that I witnessed over the hours

and he did resists , drugged into submission

morphined that there were no words to be

exchanged .

Our connection was such , that words

were not necessary .

I requested and received music to aid him

for hours , his music .. Amongst the lowest

of low for this Beloved Father Of Light

(Abner) I watched as he rose , to join his

angels and spirit guide , witnessed his seeing

them at least 6 times and I was eased

into releasing him into the loving arms

he so deserved .

What was negative in the exit was external

energy of lower consciousness that did not

deflect the Divinity . The sibling abuses

continued with legal abuse , financial abuse

threats and control ..Spewing their toxic

emotions, I was aware of the finality of Dads

earth existence was ending the abusive

sibling contract , and that was indeed

a gift as a elder responsible Old Soul .

It was much like a labor, a birth in

witnessing Dad’s exit , regretting Mama

did not have the same experience ..letting

go..allowing light to heal the shadow , but

NOT ONCE regretful of his much delayed

exit.

He exited as he was assured I was ok.

He was aware and is of what went down

and will guide and protect me in my truth

and revelations , finding my voice even

as my heart pounds , to STAND for the

more conscious choices in child rearing

divine masculine of balanced natures

and nurture ..

Knowing you are enough is essential

Not allowing anyone to abuse that , in any

manner will cost ya, dearly …

Dad left here knowing better , as I give

Thanks each day for his essential light

and love ,

For each man ready to receive the message

Top of the World bringing heaven to earth

requires effort you are worthy and capable

of , and the Beloved awaits your tempered

fire and return to love , ever lasting

ever and ever more .

Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

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