The NRA Is Trying to Block the Violence Against Women Act – Rolling Stone

Of course not, targets , moving targets are needed for practice .

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— Read on www.rollingstone.com/politics/politics-news/nra-violence-against-women-act-814295/

Releasing Old Contracts , Expansion..New Beginnings

Time lines are collapsing in order to surrender to

new beginnings from the inside out.

My vast amount of me time , once I to Truths

explained , I knew too the force that shadow had

in my life, secret societies ,and my awareness

reinforced with fear and horror as legal and

professions ignored my efforts to expose the

illegal , ill-moral, unprofessional , disconnected

religious support mirrored in each child , each

relative , and in my self .. and shame enveloped

me , as I began to understand it. Why I held so

much shame .

To acknowledge , I was no more , no less that a

surrogate , a maid , a concubine , a servant

in the soul of a family that has done so much

harm , as Christians , demanded acknowledgement

of 3 young souls who watched the deconstruct of

their Mom. Legalized addiction, drugged to

submission , that a human being of male

dominance’s , fearing he might loose money

or be exposed in his darkness of abuse , allowed

doing nothing save make his own plans of

stepping out of a contracted marriage for happiness.

That’s all I know..

His every intent , to avenge me for my failure

as a homemaker, servant , companion , whatever

he needed , in order for his property to be his

bearing out the Me NOT We..

Erasing me, allowing all is my fault , he was guilt

free and holding a lot of repressed and depressed

within , and there it remains . The Karmic he chose

to align with , holding the same energy met him

equally to participate in abusing me , and have

had at it , wide open legally and socially, enjoying

the experience of shame and abuse in our

culture of suicide . This has been his example

to our children and grandchildren ..

Trust does not exist between our sons and I.

This could show up in continued abuse through my

inheritance as one son referred to my partnership

that is his rulership . The experience of learning

of a near 300k liability against our shared property

and contracts I signed in induced compliance

allows my grave concerns about the facts , opposed

to his word as the time line crushes , exposing

what is , not what he says.

So yea , I failed , failed to acknowledge the truth

earlier , and involve myself socially , responsibly

exiting the matrix that made every effort to

destroy me, by removal of all I held dear .

I am very honoring and grateful for every

lesson, every shadow , every shame filled

projection , as I rejected the false for the truths

that are the air I breathe , the blood in my veins

the electric magnetic heart that is

multidimensional , which is unknown to

those who cannot see, cannot hear , cannot see

me.

Endings are very painful , the separation heralded

as permanent, having no empathy , no desire

to move forwards as responsible compassionate

mindful folks , who take care of their mind

body and spirit . who live to reduce , avenge

overpower , Abuse , using children and soul

connections and connectedness as weapons ?

I stepped out of that long ago, and a review

only intensified as a 3rd generation is

indoctrinated to hold the judgement and

shame , Clarity is the priceless gift 🎁 I

present , in light and in love, no fear as

it is this clarity that’s so needed , I but

pray for the words that convey the urgency

for the messages with what we all must

transcend , from a fear based ideology and

life model to one of pure light and love.

That I have a deeply traumatic life story

has issued my living death , leaving

3 souls whose light was drained of me

as I was created to exhibit the dankest darkest

evil projected at me .. a mirror or hatred and fear

reduced to a state of helplessness , which fed

him , served him.

Deserving of redemption , as each resolution

has been been rejected , the clearing of financial,

demanding money to counteract , along with

tangible truths , to off set his clinging to his

falsehoods and mask , demand action , now

for as mentioned here , a lot of folks are not

packed ( mind body spirit) for this train .

and it shows .

Mourning has been ongoing for far too many

years for what has no light no life as I’m

affirmed by free wills who choose to

shame, reject and falsify , project blame

etc .. I surrendered to my highest good

my bags are packed .

I am worthy .

As are you 😘💯🎁🎉🎶🌈☮️❤️♥️💕

Listen as she explains in her way , nuancing

much of what I know in my heart and soul

words that were strange in my unknowing

as they might be with you ..

The message will come to you in the way you

require , if you but surrender to your highest good.

I am a seer , I am aware , I release that I may never

physically , or spiritually reconnect with sons .

I have been forced to accept this loss each and

every minute , beyond endurance , without

compassion, or support , but a Divine support

and love that has been they’re all along , guiding

me , and I’ll honor that Divinity as a humane

Being in knowing and doing better .

Joy in my heart ❤️, I celebrate ..thankful for

the truths that liberated me from the dark

that consumes far too many .

I had no other choice

Survival breakthrough to Thriving .

I am rich in heart , Thankful ! Amazed !

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“You’re Dead To Me,” Why Estrangement Hurts So Much | Psychology Today

Being estranged by a family member can be one of the most painful events to occur across the lifespan.
— Read on www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/family-conflict/201410/you-re-dead-me-why-estrangement-hurts-so-much-0

catholic destruction of mayan text – Google Search

Do you grasp this?

One religion wiped out the writings of Mayan’s

because of their Divine Connection to Christ

Consciousness just as humans have been

educated in denial of facts , the universal law

has higher intents ..

As we witness the revelations denied , balance

in receiving shadow and light , allowance for light

to prevail in all things .

catholic destruction of mayan text – Google Search
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Trump Administration Quietly Redefines ‘Domestic Violence’ And ‘Sexual Assault’ | Michael Stone

It is backwards He takes us, to effectively

enact these laws , releasing himself as well

as others from responsibility , only displays

a very deep seated , hatred for women.

Period . It’s called covering one’s ass.

He’s incorrect , and this is going to be revealed

very soon.

Bad News: The Trump administration has quietly redefined “domestic violence” and “sexual assault,” resulting in significant and potentially devastating consequences for survivors.
— Read on www.patheos.com/blogs/progressivesecularhumanist/2019/01/trump-administration-quietly-redefines-domestic-violence-and-sexual-assault/

The Narcissist’s Defining Feature: A Lack of Empathy – 💯✔️✔️✔️

It was a heavy burden , holding the manifestations

of a definite lack of all natural emotions. Empathy

was so lacking , I was often triggered .

As the anniversary of our eldest’s birth is celebrated

by child and family , I am holding space , and allowing

to feel what is ..

The harshest experience followed 6 days after delivery .

Apparently marking his territory, after nursing

and joining him in bed , I was raped .

Through my pain, my compliance necessary

for safety .

My 1st fear was of another pregnancy .

My 2nd was my awareness , that I would not

finically be able to care for our new born, and

he was too ” married ” to his social status and his

money.

It was the 2nd time in marriage that he forced

sex , and later in therapy these rapes were dismissed.

It was difficult to understand , but he had a free

pass kinda life …Parents and money always got

him out of trouble ; his network included

Sports Car Club members , as well as groups I was

not aware of until 2007.

Shadow was his normal, laughter induced by alcohol

and in the 11 th year , in my breakthrough-breakdown

I accepted the abuse , returned from a hellish 17

days away from our children , determined to

shine my mother light , but became the wife

he wanted ..forsaking our sons .

Stepford ” wife” thus addicted to RX drugs legally,

sick beyond belief , for 5 extremely long years

I was so incapable , so reduced mentally and

physically , I often witnessed his dispassionate

disposal , horrified at the model for our children ,

all teens , each bearing the shame of his abuse.

And dependent as I was , on this man who grows

worse with time.

With the ending of what appeared for all to see,

his perfect fun relationship with a sweetie he

duped for 20 years , recreating the same karma

and with her reduced health , unable to work

she also knew the disposal of a man who values

only your output as it applies to him.

Think about boys who model this accepted ,

into manhood , affluent and connected , who

have a very shaky foundation , induced into

joining Dad , or loose his approval and connection.

It happened …

His compassion has allowed him to create many

illegal , inhumanities that have been absolved

by our state . By our society , by friends , and

family .

His .

That said , in his belief he would not be held

responsible for anything denies the facts .

It’s really been traumatic to fully accept his

disconnected self , over 42 years now ,

given the to god long ago.

I understand I am his target in his mind ,

and his every failure in 1 person , for several

reasons. Certainly it’s about money , however

his detachment spiritually , bonding with our

children , parenting being uber casual made

me the heavy. Responsible for every failure

in his victim status ..

Winner takes all , gravely abuses families

in the brother sister hood that ignored abusers .

And yes , lack of compassion is common in

securing legal support , psychological , medical

support , because it’s painfully traumatic to hear

the horror stories of C-PTSD , who’ve been duped

into believing they are mentally ill, induced into

mental physical states that render them

incapacitated, that they may be yet further

disadvantaged by their abuser .

Compassion ? Even basic humanity , is only

for show. Our sons have never witnessed his

abuse towards me ..only his dramatic lies

twisted , mangled lies in Family for 42 years .

Destroying all but him, a family fractured

for his happiness and ability to begin again

virginal , a path of abused and neglected souls

left in his return to mother .

Always mother who holds his heart, and compassion

and calm. Anger , rage and abuses never allowed

towards her , are missives to his beloved’s .

Holding these beliefs are his choice as not being

a silent scape goat is mine . In light of the

personal experience being far too common ,

and normalized in this country , acknowledging

the existence of the characteristics of a person

who does so much harm , will know universal

law , where human kind has become law.

The Narcissist’s Defining Feature: A Lack of Empathy – Esteemology
— Read on esteemology.com/the-narcissists-defining-feature-a-lack-of-empathy/

After Abuse, a High-Priced Divorce Is the Next Trauma

Mine was 12k, he paid . His was most likely more.

Former partners , heard my D.A. , and I , legally

addicted mental patient , had 30 days to oppose

any language of a divorce , I was assured was gracious

for me for life .

2001 finale

Quattro in play years later due to professional failure .

Proud of their efforts to aide ex to keep as much as

possible of his money and his possessions . Sons

included ..his mind says I got property I did not deserve

he gets children and a coverup of corruption , that #erased

me from my family .

A high-priced divorce often follows domestic abuse, traumatizing survivors even more.
— Read on www.domesticshelters.org/articles/financial/after-abuse-a-high-priced-divorce-is-the-next-trauma

Over 1,000 Hate Groups Are Now Active in United States, Civil Rights Group Says – The New York Times

The number of hate groups in America rose for the fourth year in a row, fueled largely by anti-immigrant sentiment, the Southern Poverty Law Center said.
— Read on www.nytimes.com/2019/02/20/us/hate-groups-rise.html

Narcissists Blame You for Their Cheating & Betrayal: Here’s Why | QueenBeeing Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Support

3rd person usually , former stepped out of his own

stuff and discussed the betrayal story , naming a close

friend . It took me a long time to connect the dots ..

As a ” mental patient ” I learned of his effort to bed

a sister , who was 7 when we wed.

His reasoning included the compliment of ” her body

reminded me of yours …before kids ”

There are a lot of very frustrating moments with a

” marriage ” to such a lost soul , and I’m sure he believed

his stories , as if they happened . I didn’t trust him ,

but did not consider his other pursuits as fact , only

intuitive , as my body responded in many stress related

illness that were lost on professionals ..

In his world winning is everything , the only thing ,

is retaining power, money and truths , disregarding

anyone and everyone whose not adhering, supportive

and honors his needs , lessoned by the experience .

always spewing toxic shame and disposal.

Coming back at me , upping the ante , when faced with

financial indiscretions, a ploy utilized to effectively

shut me up …I choose to be honest and truthful

leaving a message , clearing and calmly pointing

out the trail , could not be wiped clean , all pointing

to the facts.

The force that separates , by force any child out of

a parent’s life is indeed a hate crime .

Boom !

Narcissists Blame You for Their Cheating & Betrayal: Here’s Why | QueenBeeing Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Support
— Read on queenbeeing.com/narcissists-blame-you-for-their-cheating-betrayal-heres-why/