Of course not, targets , moving targets are needed for practice .
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Of course not, targets , moving targets are needed for practice .
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Time lines are collapsing in order to surrender to
new beginnings from the inside out.
My vast amount of me time , once I to Truths
explained , I knew too the force that shadow had
in my life, secret societies ,and my awareness
reinforced with fear and horror as legal and
professions ignored my efforts to expose the
illegal , ill-moral, unprofessional , disconnected
religious support mirrored in each child , each
relative , and in my self .. and shame enveloped
me , as I began to understand it. Why I held so
much shame .
To acknowledge , I was no more , no less that a
surrogate , a maid , a concubine , a servant
in the soul of a family that has done so much
harm , as Christians , demanded acknowledgement
of 3 young souls who watched the deconstruct of
their Mom. Legalized addiction, drugged to
submission , that a human being of male
dominance’s , fearing he might loose money
or be exposed in his darkness of abuse , allowed
doing nothing save make his own plans of
stepping out of a contracted marriage for happiness.
That’s all I know..
His every intent , to avenge me for my failure
as a homemaker, servant , companion , whatever
he needed , in order for his property to be his
bearing out the Me NOT We..
Erasing me, allowing all is my fault , he was guilt
free and holding a lot of repressed and depressed
within , and there it remains . The Karmic he chose
to align with , holding the same energy met him
equally to participate in abusing me , and have
had at it , wide open legally and socially, enjoying
the experience of shame and abuse in our
culture of suicide . This has been his example
to our children and grandchildren ..
Trust does not exist between our sons and I.
This could show up in continued abuse through my
inheritance as one son referred to my partnership
that is his rulership . The experience of learning
of a near 300k liability against our shared property
and contracts I signed in induced compliance
allows my grave concerns about the facts , opposed
to his word as the time line crushes , exposing
what is , not what he says.
So yea , I failed , failed to acknowledge the truth
earlier , and involve myself socially , responsibly
exiting the matrix that made every effort to
destroy me, by removal of all I held dear .
I am very honoring and grateful for every
lesson, every shadow , every shame filled
projection , as I rejected the false for the truths
that are the air I breathe , the blood in my veins
the electric magnetic heart that is
multidimensional , which is unknown to
those who cannot see, cannot hear , cannot see
me.
Endings are very painful , the separation heralded
as permanent, having no empathy , no desire
to move forwards as responsible compassionate
mindful folks , who take care of their mind
body and spirit . who live to reduce , avenge
overpower , Abuse , using children and soul
connections and connectedness as weapons ?
I stepped out of that long ago, and a review
only intensified as a 3rd generation is
indoctrinated to hold the judgement and
shame , Clarity is the priceless gift 🎁 I
present , in light and in love, no fear as
it is this clarity that’s so needed , I but
pray for the words that convey the urgency
for the messages with what we all must
transcend , from a fear based ideology and
life model to one of pure light and love.
That I have a deeply traumatic life story
has issued my living death , leaving
3 souls whose light was drained of me
as I was created to exhibit the dankest darkest
evil projected at me .. a mirror or hatred and fear
reduced to a state of helplessness , which fed
him , served him.
Deserving of redemption , as each resolution
has been been rejected , the clearing of financial,
demanding money to counteract , along with
tangible truths , to off set his clinging to his
falsehoods and mask , demand action , now
for as mentioned here , a lot of folks are not
packed ( mind body spirit) for this train .
and it shows .
Mourning has been ongoing for far too many
years for what has no light no life as I’m
affirmed by free wills who choose to
shame, reject and falsify , project blame
etc .. I surrendered to my highest good
my bags are packed .
I am worthy .
As are you 😘💯🎁🎉🎶🌈☮️❤️♥️💕
Listen as she explains in her way , nuancing
much of what I know in my heart and soul
words that were strange in my unknowing
as they might be with you ..
The message will come to you in the way you
require , if you but surrender to your highest good.
I am a seer , I am aware , I release that I may never
physically , or spiritually reconnect with sons .
I have been forced to accept this loss each and
every minute , beyond endurance , without
compassion, or support , but a Divine support
and love that has been they’re all along , guiding
me , and I’ll honor that Divinity as a humane
Being in knowing and doing better .
Joy in my heart ❤️, I celebrate ..thankful for
the truths that liberated me from the dark
that consumes far too many .
I had no other choice
Survival breakthrough to Thriving .
I am rich in heart , Thankful ! Amazed !
Being estranged by a family member can be one of the most painful events to occur across the lifespan.
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Do you grasp this?
One religion wiped out the writings of Mayan’s
because of their Divine Connection to Christ
Consciousness just as humans have been
educated in denial of facts , the universal law
has higher intents ..
As we witness the revelations denied , balance
in receiving shadow and light , allowance for light
to prevail in all things .
catholic destruction of mayan text – Google Search
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It is backwards He takes us, to effectively
enact these laws , releasing himself as well
as others from responsibility , only displays
a very deep seated , hatred for women.
Period . It’s called covering one’s ass.
He’s incorrect , and this is going to be revealed
very soon.
Bad News: The Trump administration has quietly redefined “domestic violence” and “sexual assault,” resulting in significant and potentially devastating consequences for survivors.
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It was a heavy burden , holding the manifestations
of a definite lack of all natural emotions. Empathy
was so lacking , I was often triggered .
As the anniversary of our eldest’s birth is celebrated
by child and family , I am holding space , and allowing
to feel what is ..
The harshest experience followed 6 days after delivery .
Apparently marking his territory, after nursing
and joining him in bed , I was raped .
Through my pain, my compliance necessary
for safety .
My 1st fear was of another pregnancy .
My 2nd was my awareness , that I would not
finically be able to care for our new born, and
he was too ” married ” to his social status and his
money.
It was the 2nd time in marriage that he forced
sex , and later in therapy these rapes were dismissed.
It was difficult to understand , but he had a free
pass kinda life …Parents and money always got
him out of trouble ; his network included
Sports Car Club members , as well as groups I was
not aware of until 2007.
Shadow was his normal, laughter induced by alcohol
and in the 11 th year , in my breakthrough-breakdown
I accepted the abuse , returned from a hellish 17
days away from our children , determined to
shine my mother light , but became the wife
he wanted ..forsaking our sons .
Stepford ” wife” thus addicted to RX drugs legally,
sick beyond belief , for 5 extremely long years
I was so incapable , so reduced mentally and
physically , I often witnessed his dispassionate
disposal , horrified at the model for our children ,
all teens , each bearing the shame of his abuse.
And dependent as I was , on this man who grows
worse with time.
With the ending of what appeared for all to see,
his perfect fun relationship with a sweetie he
duped for 20 years , recreating the same karma
and with her reduced health , unable to work
she also knew the disposal of a man who values
only your output as it applies to him.
Think about boys who model this accepted ,
into manhood , affluent and connected , who
have a very shaky foundation , induced into
joining Dad , or loose his approval and connection.
It happened …
His compassion has allowed him to create many
illegal , inhumanities that have been absolved
by our state . By our society , by friends , and
family .
His .
That said , in his belief he would not be held
responsible for anything denies the facts .
It’s really been traumatic to fully accept his
disconnected self , over 42 years now ,
given the to god long ago.
I understand I am his target in his mind ,
and his every failure in 1 person , for several
reasons. Certainly it’s about money , however
his detachment spiritually , bonding with our
children , parenting being uber casual made
me the heavy. Responsible for every failure
in his victim status ..
Winner takes all , gravely abuses families
in the brother sister hood that ignored abusers .
And yes , lack of compassion is common in
securing legal support , psychological , medical
support , because it’s painfully traumatic to hear
the horror stories of C-PTSD , who’ve been duped
into believing they are mentally ill, induced into
mental physical states that render them
incapacitated, that they may be yet further
disadvantaged by their abuser .
Compassion ? Even basic humanity , is only
for show. Our sons have never witnessed his
abuse towards me ..only his dramatic lies
twisted , mangled lies in Family for 42 years .
Destroying all but him, a family fractured
for his happiness and ability to begin again
virginal , a path of abused and neglected souls
left in his return to mother .
Always mother who holds his heart, and compassion
and calm. Anger , rage and abuses never allowed
towards her , are missives to his beloved’s .
Holding these beliefs are his choice as not being
a silent scape goat is mine . In light of the
personal experience being far too common ,
and normalized in this country , acknowledging
the existence of the characteristics of a person
who does so much harm , will know universal
law , where human kind has become law.
The Narcissist’s Defining Feature: A Lack of Empathy – Esteemology
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Mine was 12k, he paid . His was most likely more.
Former partners , heard my D.A. , and I , legally
addicted mental patient , had 30 days to oppose
any language of a divorce , I was assured was gracious
for me for life .
2001 finale
Quattro in play years later due to professional failure .
Proud of their efforts to aide ex to keep as much as
possible of his money and his possessions . Sons
included ..his mind says I got property I did not deserve
he gets children and a coverup of corruption , that #erased
me from my family .
A high-priced divorce often follows domestic abuse, traumatizing survivors even more.
— Read on www.domesticshelters.org/articles/financial/after-abuse-a-high-priced-divorce-is-the-next-trauma
The number of hate groups in America rose for the fourth year in a row, fueled largely by anti-immigrant sentiment, the Southern Poverty Law Center said.
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3rd person usually , former stepped out of his own
stuff and discussed the betrayal story , naming a close
friend . It took me a long time to connect the dots ..
As a ” mental patient ” I learned of his effort to bed
a sister , who was 7 when we wed.
His reasoning included the compliment of ” her body
reminded me of yours …before kids ”
There are a lot of very frustrating moments with a
” marriage ” to such a lost soul , and I’m sure he believed
his stories , as if they happened . I didn’t trust him ,
but did not consider his other pursuits as fact , only
intuitive , as my body responded in many stress related
illness that were lost on professionals ..
In his world winning is everything , the only thing ,
is retaining power, money and truths , disregarding
anyone and everyone whose not adhering, supportive
and honors his needs , lessoned by the experience .
always spewing toxic shame and disposal.
Coming back at me , upping the ante , when faced with
financial indiscretions, a ploy utilized to effectively
shut me up …I choose to be honest and truthful
leaving a message , clearing and calmly pointing
out the trail , could not be wiped clean , all pointing
to the facts.
The force that separates , by force any child out of
a parent’s life is indeed a hate crime .
Boom !
Narcissists Blame You for Their Cheating & Betrayal: Here’s Why | QueenBeeing Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Support
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