Tag: grief

I found an article on this , common drug combo, which carried

enough horror , at what I knew was Mom’s experience

after , her 1st child at 17, and bonding dis not happen,

rather shame for not being wed.

She was ignored in her labor with Dad and her 1st born

whom she spontaneously birthed dead and in early

decomposition . Post Traumatic Stress Disorder was not

acknowledged , perhaps seen as hysteria , so I have

no doubt that Mom was drugged with this lethal cocktail

of hypnotic /addictive pharmaceuticals .

Which resulted in my rejecting Mom’s milk , which imprinted

both of us , and led to my new born self , being sent home

with a Mom who was having latch problems ( my tongue

was clipped ) having rejected Mom, who is uber sensitive

only to return after 5 days so dehydrated , near death

which must have felt like another failure to her , that she took

very deeply .

After acknowledging, this , I released so much pain of not

knowing and any separation that may have existed , was

vapor and only love remains .

This was a huge gift for my healing on Mother’s Day ,

as well as I will post on how each of our sons was

also drugged with adverse effects that are passed off as

an issue of baby or mom and not the toxicity or addictive

reality that does much harm.

I have had to take the time to process this , as well

as withholding , in mindfulness of catalyzing

memory or truth for others .

I have have been awash in gratitude for the knowing

and in total awe and surrender of a Mother , a wife

a nurse and so much more who lost much , eventually

her life to AMA medicine , in her trust of what she knew

to be true , socially, religiously , and in her acceptance

which has been a force within me , and the effect of

a Mother – Daughter dynamic seen by Psychiatric as

a foundation for , if not a Behavioral Disorder .

As are the adverse effects of vaccines .

As are adverse effects of dental mercury .

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

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