I found an article on this , common drug combo, which carried
enough horror , at what I knew was Mom’s experience
after , her 1st child at 17, and bonding dis not happen,
rather shame for not being wed.
She was ignored in her labor with Dad and her 1st born
whom she spontaneously birthed dead and in early
decomposition . Post Traumatic Stress Disorder was not
acknowledged , perhaps seen as hysteria , so I have
no doubt that Mom was drugged with this lethal cocktail
of hypnotic /addictive pharmaceuticals .
Which resulted in my rejecting Mom’s milk , which imprinted
both of us , and led to my new born self , being sent home
with a Mom who was having latch problems ( my tongue
was clipped ) having rejected Mom, who is uber sensitive
only to return after 5 days so dehydrated , near death
which must have felt like another failure to her , that she took
very deeply .
After acknowledging, this , I released so much pain of not
knowing and any separation that may have existed , was
vapor and only love remains .
This was a huge gift for my healing on Mother’s Day ,
as well as I will post on how each of our sons was
also drugged with adverse effects that are passed off as
an issue of baby or mom and not the toxicity or addictive
reality that does much harm.
I have had to take the time to process this , as well
as withholding , in mindfulness of catalyzing
memory or truth for others .
I have have been awash in gratitude for the knowing
and in total awe and surrender of a Mother , a wife
a nurse and so much more who lost much , eventually
her life to AMA medicine , in her trust of what she knew
to be true , socially, religiously , and in her acceptance
which has been a force within me , and the effect of
a Mother – Daughter dynamic seen by Psychiatric as
a foundation for , if not a Behavioral Disorder .
As are the adverse effects of vaccines .
As are adverse effects of dental mercury .
Blessings & Peace ,