Tag: mental illness

I did not grow up with parents who drank .

On one occasion , parents had an intense exchange

at a dance hall , and in her 🔥 Aries mode Mom

threw her wedding rings out into the grass.

No doubt , drink was involved and she took

siblings and I to hunt for her rings . As I recall

we located them✔️💯

Perhaps lessons were learned , for an occasional

beer , or wine was our normal . Dad called a cab

for Mom’s eldest brother after he brought his

drunkenness to our home .O tolerance .

Both Mom and Dad smoked , and had poor

diets , and lack of restorative sleep and job

related stress . Mom’s fire was smoldered

rarely submerging within our home as

she became compliant and accepted her

responsibility, reading was her escape hatch

as was her trust in God ..evangelical god .

Dad resisted , but had a very strong foundation

as I suspect alcohol was part of his upbringing

as was abuse of his Mom , who was accused

of infidelity , ran off in a rage threatened

with weapons by his Dad for being seen having

a beverage in a public place with a male !

With only what she managed to run for her life

with , off the farm and away from him , she

was supported in court by a son , but was denied

justice for contesting his petition for divorce .

Until near puberty Dad made efforts , and

finally threw in the towel to honor the connection

of which I have no knowledge , or recall.

We ended visits to the farm , the replacement

intent on seizing all and conveying her assets

to her children as GF wasted away , dying

of COPD , emphysema and perhaps spiritual

denial ..I am not aware of any profound

religious connection , nor of attending his

funeral.

His energy was not enjoyable , so I roamed

the farm , and the house , drawn to a bedroom

that housed hats , cloths , shoes , pocketbooks

Jewery , which I honored as mystical playthings

heaped upon the floor .. I was to discover much

later they were Granny’s , and mourned with her

trauma and loss that left an ever present haunting

even in her laughter .. She deserved so much more.

That divorce was final in 53, my 1 st year of life

and brother’s birth year . We both have the

experience of partnerships that abuse , extort

using us to procreate , produce , receive emotional

abuse and blackmail by our children , targets

where in we are responsible for not being

enough . Far from aiding , or healing ..abuses

that have forced our faith beyond measure

our burdens remain via separation and hostilities

while our health suffers , unnoticed in

continued trauma and abuse . I’m not sure

where brother is on his journey , kidney

disease has challenged him , forcing him

to retire prematurely ..Another example

of chemicals in the automotive industry

taking their toll , along with fear/anger/stress

and diet .. Being in his home , was stark

and austere , demanded that all was in

perfect order .. it was depressive as were lacks

in simple social skills that create an awareness

of being welcome or wanted as a guest .

Trauma at the core for each , recreated

and unhealthy for each , however she

has prevailed within her home, work

and health with 70 years, her 2 children

and 3 grandchildren , she holds honor

manipulating with funding , and intensive

time, support and love as she honored her

Mom, having tolerance for her Dad ..

I had no sense that excessive alcohol consumption

was part of the equation, and I’m aware of

a few very harsh martial abuses of his creation

as a survivor of C-PTSD , not acknowledged

continued Domestic Abuse , which is not

exposed , nor healed . Sending him

messages , after words failed of encouragement

that he locate his truth thus light , ending

the disconnect between he and his Divinity.

I am encouraged by positive signs of many

males in my life awakening.. Anger is a huge

component in catalyst, but very dangerous to

the process , and much like any addiction

support often is from internal sensitive,

guidance from spirt and elders as Divine

urges us to get to the heart of the matter .

No one is exempt or undeserving , as the

knowing or unknowing co dependent , survivor

of a soul still searching for his happiness

dependent on continuing to target ,ignoring

unhealthy side effects to 3 souls , we co created

and failed ..

In honor of the adversity, of exiting the matrix

I stand , for families , children , for each

to have foundations of security , and honor .

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

This video is based on an article from Zahrah Sita The words “alembic” and “alcohol”, both metaphors for aqua vitae or “life water” and “spirit”, often refer to a distilled liquid that came from magical explorations in Middle Eastern alchemy. In the words of writer and health enthusiast, Jason Christoff – “In alchemy, alcohol is used to extract the soul essence of an entity. Hence its’ use in extracting essences for essential oils, and the sterilization of medical instruments. By consuming alcohol into the body, it in effect extracts the very essence of the soul, allowing the body to be more susceptible to neighboring entities most of which are of low frequencies (why do you think we call certain alcoholic beverages “SPIRITS?”). That is why people who consume excessive amounts of alcohol often black out, not remembering what happened. This happens when the good soul (we were sent here with) leaves because the living conditions are too polluted and too traumatic to tolerate. The good soul jettisons the body, staying connected to a tether, and a dark entity takes the body for a joy ride around the block, often in a hedonistic and self-serving illogical rampage. Our bodies are cars for spirits. If one leaves, another can take the car for a ride. Essentially when someone goes dark after drinking alcohol or polluting themselves in many other ways, their body often becomes possessed by another entity.” Daily videos on interesting topics like psychology, philosophy, spirituality and much more. Join us and expand your knowledge !
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