Tag: mental wellness

His Hero Instinct And Why It Matters – Feeling Butterflies

I’m a seed planter , Dream Weaver, a woman of deep

faith , who sadly finds my efforts dormant in masculine

energy that sees need as a form of control.

I don’t ask for favors , and now have resources to locate

what I need for a specific issue. That’s less and less.

In my youth, the masculine had no chores , nothing but free

time. I was unable to discern the trauma of my brother

who was Casper around our house. His freedom was wide

open , gifts were noticeably focused on that , and I was

a very reluctant caretaker. I say reluctant , due to Mom’s

just do it example , and siblings resistance to my ineptitude

or my correctness, setting up a no win foundation on shaky

ground.

I went into my 1st at age 17 , with a boy who had many secrets

like brother..I had no idea how profoundly and deeply these secrets

pointed to trauma. It was hard to acknowledge , as I ended contact

with 1st after 9 months of not so wedded bliss.

A soul mate had major issues with fidelity , did not want to loose

me , and to break the soul mate connection , I married a 2nd time

exiting after 3 weeks , upon the realization of I was expected to

take the role of breadwinner , sex kitten…umm no.

Of course the hologram, that describes ” former” champions

secrets , in a mind -soul game he still thinks works.. Truth is

definitely not his forte’, and that is light to me. The official

moment of commitment , a shift began that I allowed was

a comfortable easy feeling. That, ended as our 1 st year brought

us our 1st child , leaving no doubt of his holding such shadow

that induced me to cleave into my child and domestic duties .

However , I rebelled or stood up , listened to his 3rd person

stories and slowly lost respect for his inability to rise over

the Peter Pan lifestyle ..Staying in C-PTSD with children

to raise , convincing myself I was in love to get through

things , compliant and hopeful in his self growth.. Sadly,

that hasn’t happened, and having based his future on a faked

past is the revelation that sets our family free .

I don’t have great expectations beyond that…it would be foolish

to consider all negatives ended , or wounds healed . Letting

go , surrendering this is not something that has ever been offered

me in fact , in truth , in forgiveness or love.. I will be willing

certainly to be part of healing reconciliation, when it is

important to the other party , whose over the blame and shame

cycle .

Secrets are deadly, and those whose way of life chooses this

path , don’t trust ..anything or anybody.. it’s very unbalanced .

My hero instinct is very real, I am not shy about saying .

How that’s received is variable, however without asking

in discussion , my needs are side stepped, ignored or deferred,

has been normalized in masculines around me ; as a strong

woman, I have or will have it covered …Complementing

and holding space , for imbalances to correct themselves

so masculine’s needs are met , he’s feeling supported and

not uneasy , or controlled ..

Transforming this is most welcome .. certainly it shall

aide in losing shame and projection of shame and blame.

His Hero Instinct And Why It Matters – Feeling Butterflies
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Mother jailed for contempt after posting family court case details on Facebook – Care Appointments

Mother jailed for contempt after posting family court case details on Facebook – Care Appointments
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New Moon in Pisces explained in details I cannot seem to covey deeply.

A huge gift for me personally is the unveiling of someone

I have in my life at any given time , who begins to ” crack

their personal egg”. On many levels I am in awareness of

so many doing so, and having been there , so many times

having no real idea of the spiritual nature of each and every

moment , lessons that ravaged me to my core.

In my experience , it took many of these adverse teachings

to accept deep connection to spirit , for many reasons

and profoundly altered not only my life but the lives of 3

who did not and deserve to carry the legacy of shame and

stigma for generations for lack of facts , truths and abuse.

A culmination of circles are closing, and I’m pushing through

negatives , with guidance that tells me seeds planted that are

supposed to bear fruit are preparing to bud ..The cold temperatures

I have acclimated to these past 9 years , have forced my hermit mode

which until this year has had much adversity , including the 9 moves

that have tested my sanity and health ( more later) but here I am

67 ( 16 3/4 ) a master Leap Year Crone ) and it’s delicious

to be on the other side of so much shadow..

I don’t expect perfection, only peace and surrender to all that

is in my highest good .

I had to forgive myself , and many others.

I had to end many Karmic relationships .

I had to step out of anything that impeded my spiritual

growth and healing of trauma.

I moved here to be a woman of substance .

I observe which is often taken negatively , I engage when I want.

Thankfully , that is more frequent and varied and Blessed .

I buy my own flowers 🌺, I nurture myself, no horrid self talk,

I don’t beat myself up over a past in which I survived, or when

I did not know better . I observe always , I listen deeply but

I’m finding that that’s not conveyed if I join in . I am in deep

awe of those who hear me , despite my uneducated , or lost

capabilities in writing , editing etc.. So many lost years , yet

I know how blessed I am to not have permanent tremors

or worse , after years of toxins fed me in the name of medicine

and disease .

I am soon to be aided in correct composure , structure , balance

and edit of the word , which is a wish for 15 years .

Legal assistance is also shaping up , and so finally clearing

out .

2 – 7 year cycles of regeneration of cells , plus along with my efforts

in all ways of healing , and total surrender to spirit , allow

a brand new dance to be unveiled , and I am open to receive .

The gift to me of my awareness that someone has cracked

their egg , and can lay down burdens that have long weighted

them down ! To be on their way, seeds planted for their brand

new day; liberated from a past that no longer serves them ,

liberated to create the life of their dreams with intent. With

beautiful fragmented spirits that glow with all the self work

of polishing hearts to hues of gold , fracking light and love,

like new children 👶🏼, missions clearer …home❤️🙏🏼🎁

50 years of negatives , of stagnation, of not knowing

Bam ! BeGone🗽

Blessings & Much

Love ❤️

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SWHELPER – Children Experience Early Childhood Trauma Don’t #Just GetOverIt

SWHELPER is a progressive,
— Read on www.socialworkhelper.com/2014/10/08/children-experience-early-childhood-trauma-just-get/

Free Myers Briggs Test | MBTI Personality Types

What’s my Personality Type? Take our free online personality test to learn your 4 MBTI letters and introduce Myers Briggs Personality Types and MBTI concepts of personality type and cognitive style. By Ross Reinhold, certified, experienced administrator of the MBTI instrument and career development coach.
— Read on www.personalitypathways.com/type_inventory.html

Adverse Childhood Experiences ,Ignored #Physical Manifestations

Whole new avenues to explore

healthier , inventive , more

equatable family

solutions are here ,

Now 🤓🎁💯

ChildEquality is highlighted by inequality so

flagrant , such a failure , lacking nurture

and nature balanced in harmony that is coming

2020 shall reveal this ..✔️

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How Childhood Emotional Neglect Undermines the Highly Sensitive Person’s 3 Greatest Strengths | Dr. Jonice Webb

Scoring 100, over 14 years ago, I realized so much about

myself and the shameful , very personal shame began to

vaporize .. The old energy, that allowed me to accept my

unworthiness, judged by very detached, judgmental

family and a few friends throughout my life, has transformed

my gift , and invalidation results from not knowing , or critics

or both and that’s much easier to sense and forgive..But I detach

for I have progressed from all that spoke to me of remaining

in the culture of suicide.

So, I surrendered to my gift as I surrender to yours , in sacred

divinity , and certainly , my vision of you can vastly differ from

yours , as I see the god in you, as well as shadow, it’s just

not cool to creating my unworthiness or yours .

Repetition however , demands I step out..

So of course this info makes total sense , as I transverse

the land minds and fall out from a past that currently factual

news and experiences , I am not the lone wolf , nor leader

of the pack.. soul family is stepping in..all is well with my soul .

ShieldingSmudingSupportedOnHigh

thats my formula . Interdependence instead of Co Dependence 😘

Being an HSP has some very important advantages. But growing up with your emotions ignored threatens to take them away from you. Only you can reclaim them.
— Read on drjonicewebb.com/how-childhood-emotional-neglect-undermines-the-highly-sensitive-persons-3-greatest-strengths/

Getting strict on early bedtimes for your kids has scientific benefits—including your own mental health, mama – Motherly

My parenting style is largely what you could describe as “trial and error,” in which I embrace flexibility and aim to find the methods that work best for my individual kids.But one thing I was never willing to budge on was bedtime and I have absolutely no regrets about it—especially considering a st…
— Read on www.mother.ly/news/its-science-sending-your-kids-to-bed-earlier-lowers-your-stress