Tag: mental illness

Independence Day Martina McBride

This song came to mind , upon an update from a deserving

soul , who is liberating themselves today …

In homage to those who have been empowered to remove

themselves from harms way , and those who deserve support

derived from this soul who had to do it the hard way

but today feels nothing but independence from generations

of abuse .. Supported by spirit , by ancestors who did not

fare well in matters of children and marriage , finances

home , and AMA APA …socially …clearing this is amazing .

My intent was for a clearing for my earth family , each

unique son Divine graced me with , as well as myself .

I mourned for what I missed, what I lost , what was abused

and Bless my former self , whose fragments are less tragic

in lieu of the many gifts I have received and many of those

are intangible .

I would have never knowingly married anyone who was

masking trauma, addiction, etc who would harm me

or our children . My deepest , darkest pain has been

transformed , resulting in a purity of love and promise

the life I dreamed of , on my own with Beloved’s

love and respect ..new year , new beginnings ..

Truth is Light that is Love

©️

Blessings & Peace

Doña Luna

Honoring a very long goodbye 👋

Independence Day ,

www.youtube.com/watch

1999-2019- 20 year cycle of overt Abuse Ends

A new decade , Thankfully the veil is being lifted from many

horrific , #erasingfamlies influences , including the parent

who must win at all cost.

Walked away Dec 27th 1998

Feb 28 th 1999, I had an *induced* suicide attempt .

* He still prefers to think I wanted to die over loosing him.

Fact : Shrink prescribed 3600 mg of an opiate per day *inducing suicide

My Mom died April 9th 1999, after 5 years of heart disease .

Our middle son graduated from high school in 1999.

I was removed from our family home , which he held on to for 2 more

years , so our youngest had a home base to finish high school , and not

live with him in his new gals place ..( one fact that never came up )

I agreed to a condo, to avoid a rental apartment . Stating there was no

equity from our home , denying me a home of my own , I settled for 4

levels , and mourned in deep medicated grief until 2003 , when our 1st

grandson was born ..Red flags , began to assail me…I had to wake

from the chemical straight jacket , and abuse .

In 1999, our Christmas was drastically altered , 21 years of tradition

of which due to my very ill state , I missed the last 5 years . Celebration

with my adult abusers just did not resonate in any form of Christianity

that I knew to be just.

He chose to spend his Christmas with his new gal and her children..

Much like a wake, our grief tangible , our 3 sons and I were guest

via my younger sister , for a buffet . Normal was blown .. in addition

to my medicated toxic state , the experience was a trauma revisited

from my childhood , when age 11/12 my parents , split at Christmas.

He was aware of this but , determined to be happy , after putting a roof

over my head for 21 years and 3 sons , I was disposed of , like the Persian

cat , he dumped a few years before .. on top of my mountain.

The mountain , we visited 20 years ago , in such shadow , has been

my home for 9 solid years .. I have grown in an environment that allows

me the freedom of not being followed or watched .. I’m a possession,

a threat to his past , that he chooses to keep skipping out of …a life’s work.

Bankrupting me , encouraging by demise , utilizing our sons/family

shame, finances , law, he contractually made promises ..The facts are clear

and still present danger that he has no intention of stopping his

party ever waiting , his happiness , his awakening or not .

Holidays were met by silence ….While my personal grief is real

I am shown , I am defiantly on my own , little more than a surrogate

a mother long since dead to her sons ..

I’m left to complete this cycle on my own as well, as I expose the

many reasons , why I have been forced , induced by my abuser

to stay quiet until I had enough , which Thankfully has been exposed

in this finale of ChildAbuse , Domestic Abuse , being excused

and supported ..

So there is no party, only acceptance that my very survival depends on

stepping out of this triangulation, still supported by Mother/Son partners

till infinity.. pushing I am not family for 43 years , I was allowed to

marry him that he could better fit in …

#NotMyCircusNotMyMonkey

©️

Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

Prince 1999

www.youtube.com/watch

Let’s Put this Together – Narcissism 101. Knowledge and education is vital to starting out on your journey to recovery – OR – great for a brush up course to remember where we came from and where we NEVER want to return to!

Greg has a very good bead on the insanity of narcissist abuse

Much has been my experience as the continued target , regrettably

no positive movement forward , or end via the truth , requires

action …

Laws must be enacted, courts , therapist, society , clergy require

education .

Targets loose so very much , our sons their children …Still in the

matrix / cult….

#NoPhotosOnMilkCartonsofLostChildren

Let’s Put this Together – Narcissism 101. Knowledge and education is vital to starting out on your journey to recovery – OR – great for a brush up course to remember where we came from and where we NEVER want to return to!

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