Tag: relationships

‘Twas no judge , but a critical matriarch, who

deemed me unworthy , and supported her son

by saving him from being responsible , but to

her .

Whatever bound them together , is still in play

tragically , and that energy has no healing ,

no compassion, only fear at getting caught

certainly never at what was done .

Silence, assured that given the past , their

funds , their connections , and careful planning

will never expose the abuse ; the living death

of separation before and during my induced

mental illness , assured the story line of my

unfitness , as compassion , often daily contact

was with held for 5 years as he searched for

his twin, and followed the same story line.

Of course , once again the victim , this horrible

experience reduced her to near death , as he

mourns the outgoing money he owes her ,

which limits his living as large as he has chosen

at the loss and expense of beloved’s , be they

romantic or children .

Confiding he’s executing the Will, will

not be the cake walk he expects ..

Light can only be had by truths, and there

is much to transform , releasing this finally

as the factual truths that lighten any soul

that chooses to see the challenge far exceeds

the desire to step into so much shadow .

I found it absolutely necessary , to process and

be responsible marriage dynamics that created

a living death , a surrogacy , induced mental

illness , that was professionally supported

and socially accepted as it appeared to be hell

on earth.. that family was unaware or unable

or saw the adversity as opportunity to prevail

by bottom-feeding, showing no connection

to any god I am aware of ..

By whatever name it is child abuse to abuse their

Mother . Abuse in drugging her , creating a monster

mirroring her abuse of this life , of generations

of abuse, that by very exposure enlightens

so many , and is whatever each of our sons

wishes to make of it.

Releasing them from shame , and any contract

that says they cannot own their feelings , or

heal some deep wounds , and release hatred

and grief from a past they , nor I were empowered

to combat , light so dimmed as not to exist .

Indeed Hell on Earth , that light of truth

vaporizes .