Tag: survivors

Adore this lady and her approach , is direct and born of experience

and facts .

It was noted that our timelines correspond , 11-12 years of marriage

that is not balanced to say the least . We each had 3 children

we each have officially been divorced for 20 years .

Realized long ago I did not have a marriage , only

a mask , a surrogate , normalizer ….

More over , I knew the lack of self love and self worth

as shadow that exploded, with no warning …it only

became more intense , as he worked out of town

unavailability was normal even if in house .

Detached , withdrawn silent

Death

I felt the oppression 3 months

in , but had brothers and a society/religion that is a brotherhood

that allows a feminine to serve , with minimal support ..As a caregiver

from age 14 months , which is part of my character , as I was induced

to have experiences to forge my education .

The non responsive , non responsible deeply traumatized figure , knows

deep shame , rage from cumulative sources , but targets his spouse , thus

children and will never own it …regrets will stated , always the victims

always projecting . Lacking the support, ability , desire , in denial , missing

any and all signs from Divine , that stepping from the shadow , laying

burdens down begins with truth/light …It’s an inner job , and as I witnessed

the regressive , depressive , silence for 20 years , it has intensified with my

departure from a fabricated life of smoke and mirrors ..

Completion has long since occurred , for I am not bound in twinning our sons

as he does, bound to his trauma and secrets and abuses , as too often

occurs … it is so complete that despite attempts to keep the old cycle

are ongoing , often recycling the trauma of past , has no effect .

Only attesting to the closure at hand , in matters of business , which

will clarify the intent for the Abuse continued was and is financial ..

calculating , vengeful and locked in a maze of never ending anger

rage ….I let go of any connection in 2006…over ex.

Get over our sons ? Not happening Nor is the abuse of holding them

in shadow with the poison fed them , in order to win.

However , it is their choice , mine is to step out of a matrix

of brothers and sisters who feel I am unworthy , from

their shadow perspective of self preservation above all

Nope , I was induced into energies that have denied

my place at the table , doing much harm ; I have long

since delved into my shadow , heard extensive versions

of why I didn’t deserve to live ..

Fear , anger ..being bound , silent …death of spirit ..

I have noted that , recycling until finally other

experiences brought me to review …

I did, now weary … Freed to be me ..

Respect for that energy was chipped away, as my consciousness

and fear , inherent in loosing my life , did happen .

Making sure that happened , augmented by a brother MD

I was induced into submission , witnessed by 3 young men

who deserve , as I do , to be liberated from the falsehoods

and brotherhoods that wish to have us bound forever in

trauma .. repeating this in matters of finances , veiling

some pretty deep offenses , will not carry into 2020.

Of course , there is no response but silence , negational

approaches lost , the force that demands clarity will not

be denied …©️

Thy Will Be Done ♐️👁🌏✊

Blessings & Peace 🌈🎁

Doña Luna 🥰

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