Tag: C-PTSD

2nd Month Tested and ” Holding “

A very harsh lesson , still on going as I enter a 2nd month of no income except social security.

Indeed the wheeling and dealing was deeply embedded in shadow with intentions of divesting me completely, financially and intentions geared to digress me mentally, physically, financially and spiritually .

With holidaze and weather, further delaying forward movement , I can assure you all thats possible is being done .

Posing as a professional, the facts deny anything professional and though this energy is dank , I have 4 decades of experience and 20 plus pulling in pieces of the puzzle that are my present reality..Different entity..Same MO..

Finally at rest , with half a tank of gas , $10 cash and Thankful for food , I wait patiently for resolution.

Partnership that wasn’t…says much about the other who dwells in distorted energy .

Maintaining my balance as much as possible, grateful I’m present instead of medicated into submission as I was in past partnership of marriage so that business arrangements could be made to benefit the other .

Sensing the varied reasons for this current situation, I will not demure but will continue with my every effort to accomplish my goal of a home . Noting how much effort has been made to thwart my progress , the facts are present and I’m not concerned about the outcome for the other . Abusing my safety, my trust , my health and finances assures justice as Thy Will Be Done .

Snow is yet another challenge with more predicted in a few days . I refuse to live in fear or anger . Noting the severity of my situation of which I cannot detail at this time for legal reasons, I am aware of the opprotunity offered and denied , that have boomerangs , and no I cannot worry about the other’s side effects , for knowing , for enjoying my every trial if not support them in hopes I expire and their abuse kept secret .

Betrayal in Distorted energy is still abuse 💔especially when confidences have been shared and vulnerability exploited for greed and power .

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

A narcissist will use your wounds against you. And that’s it! They use the insecure or unhealed inner parts of you like bullets in their gun to fire at you.

A narcissist knows this. They’ve been practising this from a very, very early age.

And they know how to hit that person with those things to trigger them and get them to hand their power over.

As soon as you’re triggered, you’re pulled out of your powerful, innate self, your centre, and you regress back into childhood or past life traumas. Meaning those parts of you have now been activated, and they’ve come to the fore and feel powerless to protect you.

When you’re triggered into survival programs, you suffer from adrenaline and cortisol that activate the fight, fight, flee or freeze response. And this is where you have brain fog. You can’t think, you can’t get to solutions. You don’t know what to say.

The reason for that is everything shuts down. You’re back in your amygdala, which is triggering you into survival programs. You don’t have access to the cognitive solution, power, wisdom, or the logic to detach and know what to do. You just don’t have access.

It’s so important to understand what’s literally physiologically chemically going on within you so that you can accept that this is what happens. And when you look back through the times when you get triggered by a narcissist, if you’re honest with yourself, you know that’s what happens.

And you know that in those times, it’s like watching yourself by remote, and you can’t stop yourself reacting in a way that you know is not helping you, but it’s like, you feel powerless. You’re hijacked by it. That’s what’s going on.

For more on this, please take a look at these blogs –

The Answer To Narcissistic Abuse That No-one Is Talking About – Peptide Addiction – https://bit.ly/2Q4pGQ8

How Narcissists Draw You In By Identifying Your Gaps – https://bit.ly/3eb0CiC

Join me in the next free Healing Webinar, where I will explain how to seal your gaps and take your power back. You get to experience two healings that will start the Quantum Way to heal from abuse – https://bit.ly/3dn4w8S. You will be sent a replay link after the event has finished.

Much love xo ❤️

Web page : Illegal Retaliatory Evictions

Unfortunately, as the ex wife of a landlord

who has distorted everything business , financial

as well as our personal life and certainly with

regard to our 3 sons and 6 grandchildren ( that I know

of) .

His residence to change , his slow and methodical

planning of years , aided by his family whose opinion

of me , was critical from the get go because I didn’t

accept , that I had to wear a fake mask , or hold a man

on high , when he lived in distortion far too much .

Was it my imagination , that I saw higher sides in him

and held faith for his more attached and balanced

mood in consistent growth ? I have realized our family

was a business , his pride at creating 3 sons to carry

his family name 📛📛📛📛📛📛📛📛📛 had nothing to

do with me ..Secrets and untruths have been held

rotting the core of what was , with our son’s and I

and aided by many who agreed to shut me up , has

ultimately failed .

As any professional , dare retaliate in these unique times

of COVID , their boomerangs will be swift …But just in

their very acts , those wormholes are being exposed

and there are no exemptions .

Any professional business who puts folks in jeopardy

in foundational ways to retaliate , repeadly , covering

themselves , taking no responsibility , discriminations ,

failure to comply with code , forced evacuations that

are delicious with over powering abusive energy ,

enjoying the trauma for the recipient to whom

all abuse is projected .

I lived through this, survived this and I KNOW what

this is .

And I know I am called on , and called to aide others

as much as I can . *** new leases have clasuses that

stipulate that they cannot be legally held ” responsible “,

the same language ex used in his divorce , making me

responsible for legal and health , and every freaking

thing negative , as 20 years with yet another who

met him energetically , and delighted in increased

abuse , as did others who joined in family ,

savoring my son’s disposal of me , adding the death

of our son’s mom , was a complete and done deal

and they wanted nothing to do with me .

Shadow of the matriarch , who has ruled with a

vengeance, that negates a peaceful landing upon

exit from this plane of existence .

The choice is his, to liberate himself or stay as is ..

I’ve been long gone, exhumed from the grave , and

the box of Distortion , and my voice is clear and

much needed , plus Spirit is in the house .

My house , and I am , I am home And that’s magnetic

as my tribe awakens and we converge in cosmic

love and joy 💖.

🌟🐺🦕♓☮️🧚

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

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Test Results of July’s Thermagram

These are partical results of toxic inflammation that have resulted from previous environmental situations .

My breast concern me the most , however I am without resources and a safe place to do more that mild detox and I’m highly sensitive not only to the metals that influenced these inflammatory issues , but also the degree and intensity of detox.

I do require treatment and rest as I was warned in late Feb and my goal is that , to end this critically ill state of being . My reaction to metal toxicity beside the inflammation is ongoing with great hair loss and dental issues , including abcesses , which can lead to sepsis which can kill me. If I had no faith , I would bow to all these negatives , but I have had experiences before of toxic reactions to RX with metals that created the same results I am experiencing now.. Faith says there will be no more test of this nature.

I have no choice but to continue to do the best I can , with what I have , as I am without my own home .

My entire banking was shutdown in August and I surrendered to being aided by many earth angels and sprit guides , and that still reverbs as I pay back IOUs and establish new business.

New Bank

New Car insurance

New LLC for a neighbor care group locally , non profit

Ending cycles, is a redo for me , this conclusion has been long time coming and is a long time gone , and yet there is clearing or clean up to do .

I am safe . I am resting …I am supported by Divine and so many beloved that have aided greatly in my ability to transverse the projection of hell on earth ..

I am Thankful !

Blessings & Peace😘

Dona Luna

Narcissist Never Get Over You…

Seeing through the rage early on, seeing the 3 year old wounded child

that happened to be male , but imbalanced for whatever reason .

The trauma affected the softer , feminine child, molding him towards

an exterior that denied the softness.. Drama was not perceived in the dead

pan delivery in mask , usually attributed to someone else . I became his fix

his target , which he modeled for our 3 sons . He’s still in that mode ,

sadly , regrettably denying any responsibility , contracts that supersede

any written or dictated by human .

©️

Blessings & Peace

Doña Luna

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Stones In the Road

This song describes in part my experience and that of many boomers

who retain faith and hope , in a better world for all. In a society of suicide

we may have been induced into that society , duped that it was entirely

up to the individual ..Addictions became common , unexplainable, and

the individual who was already targeted by abuse with the home to such

a degree , that many stones lay in the road.

Who has not been held accountable ? Chemical /Pharmaceutical Corps co joined

with the AMA and APA and therapist who stay in the induction state due to

the enormous profit ..

Same reason a partner seizes the induction of illness of any kind to plot

an escape that only physically proves an abuse and ego that takes years

to get in alignment with their plan.

That does not detract from the totally casual partnership , that has no truth

being built on a foundation of friendship , that includes infidelity, withholding

information , emotionally, spiritually , financially, in order to have a body in house

to do whatever is wanted or needed .

Silence became the norm , 3 months after I do, when blessed with child became

a burden , I had to step out of .. I gained 30 lbs over my norm , our son was over

due , with the blatant disregard , disconnect as he discussed this problem

5 days a week at work.. He became the victim .. I became it , as he’s prone to

state , he had to marry me .

Wed 3/4/77 a year of great astronomy/astronomy, his wounds became

more clear and pronounced in the mask or his truth showed up in the

year of Chiron the wounded healer planet was discovered .

Our 1st son , bore his name , though he protested , I did not understand

his reasoning for not IV ing , as time bore out . 3/11/78, 2 weeks late

put his expected time of arrival was 2/28/78, my non Leap Year

celebration .

His 🎂 birth even 2 weeks late , still bore out , his false assertion that

he had to marry me .

Yes he had to…I cooked , I cleaned , I cared , I looked presentable when we

went out , quickly pushing through the judgement and critical words of

his life long partner .. Yes , I belonged to him, and a child he did not mentally

or emotionally prepare for , refusing to take precaution for , lacking that

responsibility , showed up where it mattered most ..💰💰💰

Joy was not something I attach him to in those days ..

Mask of the corporate , secrets, family business , locked into place

he was more aware with our 2nd son, whose birth was stressful

and he was drunk, or hung over ..Back labor, was harsh and

he was indisposed until birth , decrying he always wanted a brother.

Our 3rd Son, was the unspoken , Well you know what you’re in for

as a single parent , stay at home Mom …

Yes , I began to know my place in his world , had no growth , no real

attachment , no foundation .. I had 3 sons to nurture , and I was allowed

and I tried to make that enough ..

I was not enough, I lived with that those last 5 years , as he searched for love

outside himself, still … I gave up on him…A desire to hold me in the same

possessive shadow in regards to our sons , who have no intimate connection

to me ..

As it appears , winner takes all..he cannot take what does not , and never did

belong to him..

Stones in the Road , were boulders that have been removed , as the facts are the

truth , long ago released from abuse that has continued beyond , beyond .

I am not the sledge hammer , I am the Mom who knows the light heals

and I can longer accept being a target that has resulted in our sons being

abused as well, their children , a tradition that can cease and desist .

©️

Blessings and Peace ,

Doña Luna 🥰🎉❤️

Doña Luna

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