2nd Month Tested and ” Holding “

A very harsh lesson , still on going as I enter a 2nd month of no income except social security.

Indeed the wheeling and dealing was deeply embedded in shadow with intentions of divesting me completely, financially and intentions geared to digress me mentally, physically, financially and spiritually .

With holidaze and weather, further delaying forward movement , I can assure you all thats possible is being done .

Posing as a professional, the facts deny anything professional and though this energy is dank , I have 4 decades of experience and 20 plus pulling in pieces of the puzzle that are my present reality..Different entity..Same MO..

Finally at rest , with half a tank of gas , $10 cash and Thankful for food , I wait patiently for resolution.

Partnership that wasn’t…says much about the other who dwells in distorted energy .

Maintaining my balance as much as possible, grateful I’m present instead of medicated into submission as I was in past partnership of marriage so that business arrangements could be made to benefit the other .

Sensing the varied reasons for this current situation, I will not demure but will continue with my every effort to accomplish my goal of a home . Noting how much effort has been made to thwart my progress , the facts are present and I’m not concerned about the outcome for the other . Abusing my safety, my trust , my health and finances assures justice as Thy Will Be Done .

Snow is yet another challenge with more predicted in a few days . I refuse to live in fear or anger . Noting the severity of my situation of which I cannot detail at this time for legal reasons, I am aware of the opprotunity offered and denied , that have boomerangs , and no I cannot worry about the other’s side effects , for knowing , for enjoying my every trial if not support them in hopes I expire and their abuse kept secret .

Betrayal in Distorted energy is still abuse 💔especially when confidences have been shared and vulnerability exploited for greed and power .

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

A narcissist will use your wounds against you. And that’s it! They use the insecure or unhealed inner parts of you like bullets in their gun to fire at you.

A narcissist knows this. They’ve been practising this from a very, very early age.

And they know how to hit that person with those things to trigger them and get them to hand their power over.

As soon as you’re triggered, you’re pulled out of your powerful, innate self, your centre, and you regress back into childhood or past life traumas. Meaning those parts of you have now been activated, and they’ve come to the fore and feel powerless to protect you.

When you’re triggered into survival programs, you suffer from adrenaline and cortisol that activate the fight, fight, flee or freeze response. And this is where you have brain fog. You can’t think, you can’t get to solutions. You don’t know what to say.

The reason for that is everything shuts down. You’re back in your amygdala, which is triggering you into survival programs. You don’t have access to the cognitive solution, power, wisdom, or the logic to detach and know what to do. You just don’t have access.

It’s so important to understand what’s literally physiologically chemically going on within you so that you can accept that this is what happens. And when you look back through the times when you get triggered by a narcissist, if you’re honest with yourself, you know that’s what happens.

And you know that in those times, it’s like watching yourself by remote, and you can’t stop yourself reacting in a way that you know is not helping you, but it’s like, you feel powerless. You’re hijacked by it. That’s what’s going on.

For more on this, please take a look at these blogs –

The Answer To Narcissistic Abuse That No-one Is Talking About – Peptide Addiction – https://bit.ly/2Q4pGQ8

How Narcissists Draw You In By Identifying Your Gaps – https://bit.ly/3eb0CiC

Join me in the next free Healing Webinar, where I will explain how to seal your gaps and take your power back. You get to experience two healings that will start the Quantum Way to heal from abuse – https://bit.ly/3dn4w8S. You will be sent a replay link after the event has finished.

Much love xo ❤️

Woman’s Spirit

See The Woman
She has a young face
An old face
She carries herself well
In all ages
She survives all man has done

In some tribes she is free
In some religions
She is under man
In some societies
She’s worth what she consumes

In some nations
She is delicate strength
In some states
She is told she is weak
In some classes
She is property owned

In all instances
She is sister to earth
In all conditions
She is life bringer
In all life she is our necessity

See the woman eyes
Flowers swaying
On scattered hills
Sundancing calling in the bees

See the woman heart
Lavender butterflies
Fronting blue sky
Misty rain falling
On soft wild roses

See the woman beauty
Lightning streaking
Dark summer nights
Forests of pines mating
With new winter snow

See the woman spirit
Daily serving courage
With laughter
Her breath a dream
And a prayer.”

~ John Trudell
https://indiancountrytoday.com/archive/remembering-the-life-and-legacy-of-john-trudell

Artist: Angela Betta Casale
https://www.facebook.com/AngelaBettaCasale

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Narcissist Try To Make You Invisible ; Dead While Alive

When you reevaluate the pattern of narcissists in your life, you may have noticed a distinct feeling of invisibility as you were shoved to the side as a background character in your own life time and time again. Think of it this way: attention-seeking narcissists or otherwise toxic people work very hard to maintain the spotlight. In order to do so, they have to cast what feels akin to an invisibility spell over those they know will be “too visible” seen and noticed by others. They know your traits and assets make you someone who is a “main character” – someone who authentically brings attention to them without even trying because of their empathy, natural charisma and intelligence. If you have this pattern in your life, it’s time to recognize the ways in which you have been “hidden” from others by the narcissists in your life so people couldn’t see you accurately. Whether it was through smear campaigns or simply hogging the stage, realize that you do deserve to be visible and to be the main character of your life story without others downplaying who you are. Not in a narcissistic way but in a healthy self-loving way. You too deserve attention, acknowledgment and care. 💖🤗 #narcissisticabuse #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #shahidaarabi #emotionalabuse #selfcare #healing

Shine Brightly

“She walks the earth freely, yet her feet never touch the ground. Many hands will reach for her, but she cannot be anchored. She belongs to no one, to nothing, to nowhere. When you meet her, you will recognize her for what she is–a free spirit, a wandering star. She will fit in your arms like she was made to be there. And she will show you what it means to hold something you can never hold on to.”

  • Lang Leav

A term I have loved since I first read those wonderful words of Yeats, of the “white breast of the dim sea, and of its disheveled, wandering stars”. While astrologically used to describe the motion of the planets, “wandering stars” arrived within me as something deeper, a metaphor for my own being. Just as the planets themselves are in motion encircling the sun; so are we, bright children of the stars, endlessly dancing yet fixed in our own celestial journeying.

Because no matter the darkness, we are wild light. It can be hard to remember that, sometimes we dim, or spend so much time looking around at the darkness that we forget our own light.

I want you to stop for this moment, and remember that light. If you need some reconnection. Close your eyes and focus on the great light of G-d just above your head. Envision that light pouring down through your crown chakra, infusing your body with its heavenly radiance. Let it flow through you filling every space, down through your feet and into the earth. Breathe into it, and with every inhale, allow your glow to become ever brighter.

(Remember.)

We are all the children of stars, infused with celestial and spiritual light, abiding in a magic that has no textual equivalent. This is why I art. To describe the souls progression, longing and intent as it exists beyond my ability to articulate it. To remind me of who and what I really am.

(And hopefully to remind you too.)

And so with this work, I will not attempt to overdefine it. It is a story of sisters intertwined, of ancient longing, of cosmic purpose that exists though few may understand it. Just as one woman carries a veil of stars, and the other the moon, their intent is only revealed to the careful study of the viewer’s eye. It longs to tell it’s story to those who have the eyes to hear it

To those that know, here on this earth, that they too are forever the wandering stars, dancing not despite the darkness, but because of it.

It is how we shine the brightest.

❤️

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Small Steps

My grandmother once gave me a tip:
In difficult times, move forward in small steps.
Do what you have to do, but little by little.
Don’t think about the future
or what may happen tomorrow.

Wash the dishes.
Remove the dust.
Write a letter.
Make a soup.

You see?

Advance step by step.
Take a step and stop.
Rest a little.
Praise yourself.
Take another step.
And then another.

You won’t notice, but your steps will grow more and more.
And the time will come when you can think about the future without crying.

Author: Elena Mikhalkova

Photo Artist: Whang-Od

She’s Coming into her power

She’s coming into her power…
She spent years not realizing who she was.She doubted her beauty, her intelligence and her power.She was one who always felt that she didn’t quite belong because when she came into this life, her ties to the world of spirit remained far too strong..She was confused and lost throughout her youth, unable to see herself much less accept and appreciate herself. 
As a result she was like a ship bobbing in the ocean without a rudder and without the sails of confidence to direct her towards her own promised land.She was one who bereft of her own acceptance, hungered for it and searched for it through relationships with others.She was a people pleaser as a result, she would not risk confrontation in order to support herself,she succumbed to being influenced by the opinions of others even though she had already received her instruction from within.
She allowed her truth to be sublimated, she allowed herself to be controlled…Her need to be accepted and loved was such that she wasn’t prepared to step on or over any toes.It took her years of being taken for granted,ruled and overlooked before she put two and two together,had enough and got the message.
Her suffering forced her to step out of the status quo that had always been too tight for her in the first place…she became an avid seeker, searching for answers…She needed to know who she was, she needed to know why she was here.She needed to find a way to free herself from fearShe travelled far and wide,She sat at the feet of a master,She became a Yogini of an ancient lineageand applied the teachings to her life, She grew strong,She awakened her heartShe awakened her shakti, Her third eye opened as a result…
Her potentials started to be unearthed rapidly because the veils had parted and she recognized who she was,She also recognized who everyone else was behind their socialized facadeand because she had seen through the myth of idealized perfection,she could appreciate the actual perfection of the imperfections in herself and in others that she had once resisted and rejected.
Today she walks with conscious awareness..she no longer labels people as good or bad,She interprets everything as fluctuating energy without a fixed assignment.She holds space for the confusion of others because she’s been there and she still visits that place herselfshe understands their hunger for love misappropriated as selfishness, jealousy and competition…She feels their vulnerability as she feels her own…She knows the fear reflected in their eyes through her own past terror…
But underneath all of it she can see the obscured light, the presence of God/dess despite all the protective armor…She’s aware of this same divine presence vibrating in her body and in her heart… She’s not so quick to cast judgment anymore because she knows that she is not above those that she is tempted to judge…she knows that she is not separateAnd because she gives herself permission to be herself as she is,she can accept others as they are with appreciation and compassion …
She’s not invested in changing anyone either, she respects everyone’s chosen path because she understands that every soul is doing exactly what they need to do in order to evolveSo it is not her place to save anyone from their own lessons…She reveals, heals, inspires and encourages instead,she reminds others of their forgotten divinity…She holds up a mirror so that they can see God/dess reflected back…
She has become a midwife for the re-emergence of the Divine Feminine soul.The shy, timid maiden has transformed into the courageous, outspoken mother of all…She says it as she sees it confidently without shrinking back,She’s fiercely protective of the helpless,She’s A torch for those lost in darkness,and she’s not afraid to take a stand for peace and love to flourish in this world…
if someone tries to persuade her against her own knowing she simply and graciously responds, “Thank you for sharing.”and she walks away…Because she trusts her “self”,She knows that she is Divine Mother embodied..
She is Artemis of the wild merged with…compassionate Tara and warrior Durga…She has traversed the journey of Inanna into the dark underworld and emerged in possession of her kingdomShe knows why she is here and she’s fulfilling her purpose..She’s not alone, she’s among manywho have chosen to return bearing love as their message,their path and their gift of healing. 
© Caroline de Lisser
🌀Nicole Sacred Wild Woman Medicine 
Artist~ Tarn Ellis

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Web page : Illegal Retaliatory Evictions

Unfortunately, as the ex wife of a landlord

who has distorted everything business , financial

as well as our personal life and certainly with

regard to our 3 sons and 6 grandchildren ( that I know

of) .

His residence to change , his slow and methodical

planning of years , aided by his family whose opinion

of me , was critical from the get go because I didn’t

accept , that I had to wear a fake mask , or hold a man

on high , when he lived in distortion far too much .

Was it my imagination , that I saw higher sides in him

and held faith for his more attached and balanced

mood in consistent growth ? I have realized our family

was a business , his pride at creating 3 sons to carry

his family name 📛📛📛📛📛📛📛📛📛 had nothing to

do with me ..Secrets and untruths have been held

rotting the core of what was , with our son’s and I

and aided by many who agreed to shut me up , has

ultimately failed .

As any professional , dare retaliate in these unique times

of COVID , their boomerangs will be swift …But just in

their very acts , those wormholes are being exposed

and there are no exemptions .

Any professional business who puts folks in jeopardy

in foundational ways to retaliate , repeadly , covering

themselves , taking no responsibility , discriminations ,

failure to comply with code , forced evacuations that

are delicious with over powering abusive energy ,

enjoying the trauma for the recipient to whom

all abuse is projected .

I lived through this, survived this and I KNOW what

this is .

And I know I am called on , and called to aide others

as much as I can . *** new leases have clasuses that

stipulate that they cannot be legally held ” responsible “,

the same language ex used in his divorce , making me

responsible for legal and health , and every freaking

thing negative , as 20 years with yet another who

met him energetically , and delighted in increased

abuse , as did others who joined in family ,

savoring my son’s disposal of me , adding the death

of our son’s mom , was a complete and done deal

and they wanted nothing to do with me .

Shadow of the matriarch , who has ruled with a

vengeance, that negates a peaceful landing upon

exit from this plane of existence .

The choice is his, to liberate himself or stay as is ..

I’ve been long gone, exhumed from the grave , and

the box of Distortion , and my voice is clear and

much needed , plus Spirit is in the house .

My house , and I am , I am home And that’s magnetic

as my tribe awakens and we converge in cosmic

love and joy 💖.

🌟🐺🦕♓☮️🧚

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

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Narcissist Self Image is Everything

The narcissist’s self-image is everything, and he or she will wager everything on it – doing things that are unlawful, dangerous and criminal to uphold it. This naturally put his or her business at risk – and the narcissist has no issue in twisting facts and setting someone else up to take the fall when the trouble happens.
The justifications that the narcissist is capable of making to pathologise his or her behaviour are incredible.
Narcissists are disordered; their brain wiring is maladapted to circuits that are not healthy, or humane. The narcissist can justify immoral, inhumane and criminal behaviour easily because their soul was sold to serve the one true master – The False Self – long ago.
It’s important to understand narcissists will believe, firmly, that the person they are setting up to take the blame is at fault. Their minds are highly adept at creating a self-delusional story that exonerates their “above reproach at all costs” ego. Once this story has been replayed through the narcissist disordered mind a few times – it is TRUE to the narcissist. That is the extent of the disorder – superiority and impunity are necessary for the narcissist’s emotional survival.
This can seem incredibly personal – until we understand that narcissists are operating out of horrendous childish survival fears. The narcissist’s unconscious drivers are entrenched in this defence: “If I am exposed as wrong I’ll be annihilated,” which triggers the narcissist’s biggest fear – the bottom line terror of the ego – the fear of NOT existing.
The narcissist believes he or she must be seen as “perfect.” However, the intense fear and defences conversely create the narcissist’s character as not just “imperfect” but also highly disordered and damaged.
This becomes blatantly obvious if the spotlight is on the narcissist for any accountability for his or her actions or non-actions. This is when the narcissist becomes the most unhinged, or the most dishonest and manipulative.
He or she will do anything to avoid personal fault and scrutiny, and if someone can be scapegoated, the narcissist will employ this tactic.
Read more on Narcissists in the Workplace and what to do in this article – https://bit.ly/38013uD.
Much love xo ❤️