Ending Toxic Relationships : Anger /Self-Abandonment

Self-abandonment never leads to a positive outcome.

Not only does it teach people that they matter more than you do, it teaches your subconscious mind and wounded inner child that, as well.

Self-abandonment can look different for each individual, but here are some common examples:

  • Caving after that 11th hoover when you know how things will turn out
  • Modifying your own family dynamics to cater to someone you barely know
  • Believing someone when they say they’ll do better and be better when they’ve already proven to you that they’re a liar
  • Doing that uncomfortable thing in the bedroom and instead of securing the person you did it for, you learn it was all in vain
  • Canceling plans with friends and family for a flaky person who’s already bailed on you numerous times
  • Saying you like something when you don’t
  • Forgiving someone over and over after they’ve already shown you they don’t deserve forgiveness
  • You constantly give more than you receive
  • You repeatedly try to control a person or an outcome and give away all your energy and time in the process
  • You try to raise an adult when you already have minor children in the home
  • You constantly ignore your intuition or internal GPS

Healthy relationships don’t require you or ask you to abandon yourself. If you feel like this is something you need to do, it’s time to re-analyze your relationships and level of self-love.

Always thinking of you. Xo

Black Sheep

“The black sheep are the artists, visionaries and healers of our culture, because they are the ones willing to call into question those places which feel stale, obsolete, or without integrity. The black sheep stirs up the good kind of trouble. Her very life is a confrontation with all that has been assumed as tradition. Her being different serves to bring the family or group to consciousness where it has been living too long in the dark. As the idiom implies, she is the wayward one in the flock. Her life’s destiny is to stand apart. But paradoxically, it’s only when she honors that apartness that she finally fits in. The world needs your rebellion and the true song of your exile. In what has been banned from your life, you find a medicine to heal all that has been kept from our world. We must find the place within where things have been muted and give that a voice. Until those things are spoken, no truth can find its way forward. The world needs your unbelonging. It needs your disagreements, your exclusion, your ache to tear the false constructions down, to find the world behind this one.”⁣

~Toko-pa Turner ⁣

“The Prophetess” • 2017/2020

Virgo Full Moon

The Full Moon in Virgo will be emanating a strong lunar energy that will be pulling our emotions to the surface and also delivering awareness and clarity – bringing abrupt but highly positive change.

We will all feel this moon’s intensity, regardless of our zodiac sign, however, those who were born under Virgo will feel it a little more intensely than others.

Virgo is a grounded Earth sign, so it is likely we will find ourselves being ‘pulled back down to Earth’ if there are areas of our life that we have been unrealistically fantasising about or simply living under an illusion.

We are currently going through a period where our entire belief systems are being questioned and where our perspective will dramatically be altering. This might be somewhat of a challenge, as Virgo doesn’t appreciate sudden change, so although we may be receiving numerous insights and we will be going through a radical awakening, it may feel a little uncomfortable to fully accept that all may not be as it once seemed.

Full Moons are always a time for releasing, and with this current energy there could never be a more optimum time to let go of anything unhealthy and depleting, particularly as we are about to experience the Equinox energies and enter Aries season – the start of a new astrological year. It’s also a good time for spring cleaning, clearing clutter, tying up loose ends and receiving long-awaited resolution or closure.

The lessons that have been presented to us since the beginning of Aries season last year, on March 21 2021, will be learned during this Moon phase, as we come to a greater understanding of why certain people played significant parts in our lives, and we piece prominent events together. When we make sense of all that has occurred during the past twelve months and illusions dissipate, all associated karma will also be released.

Our priorities will be changing and we will recognise where our energy is being drained, so it won’t just be our physical world that receives a shake-up, we will also be going through major internal, emotional shifts.

This is an intense phase that will cleanse anything that feels toxic in our lives, which includes bad habits, unhealthy thought patterns, reactive behaviours, outdated beliefs, and irrational fear-based thoughts and feelings that drain our energy and leave us feeling anxious and burnt out.

Also, ties that energetically bind us to people or situations that are detrimental to us or that limit us in any way will easily be severed during this period, and we will feel the freedom to finally walk away with peace, love, compassion, and forgiveness in our hearts. In particular, we will feel the urge to remove ourselves from dynamics with anyone who consistently provokes arguments or those who are aggressive, controlling, manipulative, deceptive, judgmental, overly critical, and generally abusive.

We will likely be feeling nostalgic due to the accumulation of emotional cosmic energy, so we may find ourselves looking back at our past in an attempt to find answers. This might look like ruminating on why certain relationships ended or why we are struggling to let go of relationships that are shrouded in confusion and heartache. Fortunately, our intuition is at an all-time high during this Full Moon, so it’s the perfect time to go within and listen carefully to our inner voice.
We will be wanting to speak our truth, and as Virgo is also associated with healing, forgiveness and accountability, this could be the perfect time to dive inwards and attend to inner wounds that need attention.

We may also find we feel compelled to reach out to make amends with those we have unresolved conflict with, and that we are ready to communicate in a clearer and a more open and honest way. Fortunately, Virgo is highly sensitive, compassionate and empathetic, and has a need to understand others on the deepest level, so it is likely any tension will be effortlessly cleared and stronger bonds will be created.

Virgo is ruled by Mercury so we may find we are more in our headspace than heartspace over these coming days and we will likely be far more logical and rational – not allowing the heart to overrule the head. We might find this a little challenging, due to the moon being in close opposition to Neptune, the planet of dreams, ideation and delusion. Therefore, we could find we quickly switch between believing in the illusions we have created and recognising where we have been optimistically fooling ourselves.

There may be temporary blurred lines between our imagination and the truth, particularly concerning how we have viewed some of our closest relationships and we may not receive full clarity on everything we are feeling and seeing until after the Full Moon has passed. However, we will constantly be receiving signs that some of our long-held beliefs have been romanticised to create a comfort zone for when we needed an escape from reality.

It is highly likely our dreams, or possibly nightmares, may be more realistic and intense, so it’s worth being aware that it could be during sleep that we experience the greatest amount of turmoil. Whether we remember our dreams or not, what we dream about can significantly influence how we feel throughout the day and point towards what is weighing heavily in our thoughts or hearts.

Over the next 24 hours we may notice we are overthinking and over-analysing more than normal, and this can lead to feeling wired and a little on edge. It is vital to recognise when this is happening and take a step back to process all the new data running at full speed through our heads.

Virgo is practical and hard-working and helps us become more organised and productive, so we will likely find we awaken over these next few days with a burst of energy, wanting to rearrange and restructure major aspects of our life and home.

When we let go of items we are no longer aligned with we will instantly feel lighter, freer and less overwhelmed as certain objects can carry unhappy memories and low vibrations.
We will also have the desire for more stability and balance, so could find we reassess job opportunities, our home and relationship dynamics, or finances. We will likely also be feeling highly curious and eager to learn, and could find ourselves researching subjects in depth, and possibly wanting to make major changes on our career path.

Virgo is known for having a deep desire to be of service, so it is possible we will have a strong impulse to help with humanitarian causes, volunteering and offering assistance to those around us. We might even feel the urge to sign up for an educational course in care, mentoring or nursing sectors.

If there have been blockages preventing our creativity and aspirations we will notice we are easily able to overcome them, and will be feeling more energised and inspired than ever before. Virgo energy brings with it high expectations, and can bring up issues surrounding control, criticism and seeking perfection, so it is important not to be too harsh on ourselves, and rather than forcing anything, just surrendering to allow a natural flow.

Virgo can bring in the need for solitude and peace, and we may be tempted to spend the day, or part of it, free from interruption and focusing on much-needed self love and care so we can feel more grounded, harmonious and centered.

This Full Moon marks the end of a chapter or the completion of a significant phase in our lives and an exciting restart. It brings closure, transformation, rebirth, and the manifestation of things we have been working toward. It is a time where we can reflect on what no longer serves us so that, with gratitude, we can release old energy and create a clean, brand new space to begin again.

Alex Myles ❤

Creating Space for D.F .

CALL TO ACTION: Creating space for the Divine Feminine is more than just trendy words or room decor. It is a promise we make deep within our Spirit to develop a relationship, a communion with the Feminine aspect of God no matter what we believe or practice. How do we do this when there are scant few holy books to guide us, when there isn’t an established protocol of communion laid out for us? To simply mimic what has been done for the patriarchal aspect of God might be a beginning, but consider this: Do you have the same relationship with your Father as you do your Mother? What are the differences? The expectations? What is your heart’s deepest desire? These are noteworthy considerations that serve as today’s journal prompt. What do we mean by a relationship with the Divine Feminine? How do we even know where to begin? I have known for years that this was a calling within me. It began as a question (Why is there no Mother in the sacred trinity? Why aren’t we told about God the Mother? I imagined She had done something terribly wrong and was ostracized somewhere beyond the realm of reach. After all, this was largely the lesson I got from the Bible of what happens to most women: punishment, banishment, turned to salt, leprosy, stoning – it seemed it never ended well for any woman of the Bible, and that mostly they served as a warning on how not to be. That and that God didn’t like women. It breaks my heart to even write that, but it’s true. That isn’t entirely the Bible’s fault – more the hermeneutics which most Christian sects employ. The Bible is a vast, profound book of mystery and wonder, but it’s largely used as a tool with which to generate fear and judgment, and to gain and maintain power over others. Even those that regularly attend church rarely visit the depths of it, instead letting pastors and ministers decide which verses are important. But I digress. It took a lifetime of searching and querying, stumbling and gestalt to even begin to know where a

Symptoms of Awakening

Starseed Symptoms Due To
Awakening & DNA Activation

Know that although our evolutionary process is rapidly accelerating, along with the New higher energies, we are all experiencing these changes in our own way and in our own time, according to who we are. And generally speaking, our ascension process relates to how we each run our own individual energy, and what our beliefs and experiences are (in other words, how we vibrate).These things can be changed and will also change automatically as we clear and embody more light within ourselves.

May your evolutionary process be joyous, peaceful and filled with light and wonder!

Feeling as though you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy;feeling stress. Remember, you are adjusting to a higher vibration and you will eventually adjust. Old patterns, behaviors and beliefs are also being pushed to the surface. There is a lot going on inside of you!

A feeling of disorientation; not knowing where you are; a loss of a sense of place. You are not in 3D anymore, as you have moved or in the process of moving into the higher realms.

Unusual aches and pains throughout different parts of your body. You are purifying and releasing blocked energy vibrating at 3D while you are vibrating in a higher dimension.

Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state. You can’t be there for long lengths of time and need a break. Also, more highly evolved individuals spend more time on the Earth plane, and you are highly evolving.

Periods of deep sleeping. You are resting from all the acclimating and are integrating, as well as building up for the next phase.

Heightened sensitivities to your surroundings. Crowds, noise, foods, TV, other human voices and various other stimulations are barely tolerable. You also overwhelm very easily and become easily overstimulated. You are tuning up!

You don’t feel like doing anything. You are in a rest period. Your body knows what it needs.

An intolerance for lower vibrational things (of the 3D) reflected in conversations, attitudes, societal structures, healing modalities, etc.

They literally make you feel “sick” inside. You are in a higher vibration and your energies are no longer in alignment. You are being “pushed” to move forward.

A loss of desire for food. Your body is adjusting to a new, higher state of being. Also, part of you does not want to be here anymore.

A sudden disappearance of friends, activities, habits, jobs and residences. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better!

You absolutely cannot do certain things anymore. When you try to do your usual routine and activities, it feels downright awful. Same as above.

Days of extreme fatigue. Your body is losing density and going through intense restructuring.

A need to eat often along with what feels like attacks of low blood sugar. Weight gain. You are requiring an enormous amount of fuel for this ascension process.

Experiencing emotional ups and downs; weeping. Our emotions are our outlet for release, and we releasing a lot.

A wanting to go Home, as if everything is OVER and you don’t belong here anymore. We are returning to Source. Everything IS over. (But many of us are staying to experience and create the New World). Also, our old contracts have been completed.

Feeling you are going insane, or must be developing a mental illness of some sort. You are rapidly experiencing several dimensions and greatly opening. Much is available to you now. You are just not used to it. Your awareness has been heightened and your barriers are gone.

Anxiety and panic. Your ego is losing much of itself and is afraid. Your system is also on overload. Things are happening to you that you may not understand. You are also losing behavior patterns of a lower vibration that you developed for survival in 3D. This may make you feel vulnerable and powerless. These patterns and behaviors you are losing are not needed in the higher realms.

Depression. The outer world may not be in alignment with the New, higher vibrational you. It doesn’t feel so good out there. You are also releasing.

Vivid, wild and sometimes violent dreams. You are releasing many, many lifetimes of lower vibrational energy. Many are now reporting that they are experiencing beautiful dreams.

Your plans suddenly change in mid-stream and go in a completely different direction. Your soul is balancing out your energy. It usually feels GREAT in this new direction, as your soul knows more than you do! It is breaking your “rut” choices and vibration.

You have created a situation that seems like your worst nightmare, with many “worst nightmare” aspects to it. Your soul is guiding you into “stretching” into aspects of yourself where you were lacking, or into “toning down” aspects where you had an overabundance. Your energy is just balancing itself. Finding your way to peace through this situation is the test you have set up for yourself. This is YOUR journey, and your soul would not have set it up if you weren’t ready. You are the one who finds your wayout and you will. Looking back, you will have gratitude for the experienceand be a different person.

Dizziness – Occurs due to being ungrounded. This can happen when you have just cleared an emotional block and the body has not yet completely embraced its new frequency. Eating grounding foods like meat and potatoes will help.

Flu-like symptoms – Fevers that are temporary often accompanied by sweating, aching bones and joints.

Red rash – Small fears that erupt and can occur on any part of the body. This happens when there is an issue up to be released and you are squelching it because you don’t want to rock the boat or make a scene. The little blisters represent your inner child’s anger and not being allowed to express.

Ringing in the ears – This can drive you to distraction, but these sounds are just you picking up frequency changes.

Heart palpitations – As you clear old issues your heart opens. This opening is experienced as a racing heart. Only lasts a few seconds.

No, you are not having a heart attack. The heart must also rebalance itself after an emotional release.

Vibrating of the physical body – This is especially disconcerting.
Many of you may think that you are being abducted since this usually happens at night and is a part of the process of being moved back and forth to and from the ships. In this case, it is not. It is simply the body adjusting to DNA upgrades that occur after emotional clearing.

Muscle spasms – These spasms can be intense and many are felt in the upper back. They are caused by emotional imbalances that occur when you take on the emotional burden of others in order to be accepted and loved. These will decrease as you learn new behaviors that support allowing others to feel their pain without rescuing them.

Tingling in arms, hands, and feet – More DNA changes due to energy centers clearing and realigning.

Tiredness/Needing to sleep – DNA changes. Your body needs rest to integrate the changes occurring at the cellular level. I recommend that you adjust your schedule to accommodate an afternoon nap. Make it a priority. You will find that you are more productive afterwards.

Faster hair/nail growth – Since the activation of the Compassion hormone in November 1996, more protein is being used in the body. Protein is used by the high heart in the transmutation of lower chakra emotions into compassion. Compassion is the emotion that changes your DNA. A by-product of this is that your hair and nails grow faster.

Weight gain- This occurs because many fears that have been held in check are coming up to be integrated. When this happens the inner child moves to protect itself by putting on armor. This armor will be released when the fear is integrated. As a result, many experience weight fluctuation.

Frequent memory lapses – This can be a real irritation. Understand that it is partially due to the magnetic grid wobbling and also to the shifting occurring in the brain.

”This Fifth World that we are entering means that each person must use their gifts of birth to accomplish their missions in life, and this is the contribution that each one is obliged to offer. Everyone has a place on the Great Medicine Wheel of Truth.”

~ Mary Long ❤

published on consciousreminder.com

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Pisces & Pisces Rising

Love the romance. Love the infatuation. Love the way you look in their eyes.

When a Pisces loves you, they will never give up hope on you. When a Pisces loves you, they will never let you forget why they believe in you. When a Pisces loves you, they’ll swim circles around your heart and soothe any ache with their whimsical ways.

To love a Pisces is to love the intoxication of their presence. To love a Pisces is to let yourself be tended to. To love a Pisces is to let your vulnerability rise to the surface to meet their own. 

Pisces needs to be needed, but not controlled. Trying to hold on to a fish is foolish. Pisces needs to move, to flow, and to follow the currents of the day. Trying to limit this mystical creature to only one pond would be a shame of the highest order. To crush the dreams of a Pisces unleashes the howling cry of a forlorn mermaid. 

Harsh, bitter notes of betrayal can bellow from the depths of these seas. Better to let the free roam freely and to stand back in awe of all the places Pisces can travel. At once. With great grace. With great compassion. With great abandon. With great love for you and all other beings its heart belongs to.