Tag: survivors

Discovery of this adaptation with the father of my child , was

further enhanced by an attitude of ownership . If I were graded t

it would have been incomplete in every way . His nurture was

seldom and utilized to remedy a situation , he was not able

to navigate emotionally. In our 1st year , I was subjected to

devastating abuses that I had to review in triggered C- PTSD

which was not known to me at the time…it was a hell

come to earth.

In denial of anything but surface , friendship that often insulted

even that , and the unexpected rages never afforded me security.

That became personified in his partner , and the committee of

3 enjoyed the insults that occurred when I was allowed to

participate in son’s life experiences .. I was not allowed knowledge

of much including a near death crisis as our youngest attended

college out of state .. Of course he feels I failed as a Mom

an addict via psychiatry by choice to get out of being his mom.

Lacking emotion , adhering to the male model of affluence,

belonging to the right clubs , knowing the right person to call

a ” brother” who will aide and never tell. His nickname in

his home ” brother” , cannot connect emotionally , a feminine

reaction abused out of him? Or modeled by a society that has

allowed his life lessons to be ” evaporated ” if disagreeable to

uphold his perception of importance in his world.

I represent his failures , his secrets , his failings , and his imbalance

of masculine and feminine energy . Disrespect , and Abuse is

from inside out , and very repressive and depressive .. he

withheld to the point of reducing himself to a void , and my

surrogacy as he embraced breakneck change and success in

his career , our home became ever more a place to drop in,

participate as much as he could , much in the social aspect

giving the look of normal family …Doors were never shut against

him , he busted them through ..he had ever increasing

meetings or out of towns , speaking his truths , ie confessing

by 3rd person stories , always another guy , which began 3

months into our marriage . His employees also were his cover

for sexual pursuits that I painfully discovered never conveyed

love, intimacy or attachment .

As a very sick, physically ill , misdiagnosed mental patient

his detachment was utterly soul snatching , as I painfully

watched the erosion of our ” family” knowing his search

for love would never end .. Draining those who failed him

he has chosen to continue his efforts to hold me responsible

for my abuse and the loss of all the connectedness with our

sons, his brother/friends , ever ” his ” …

Trump talks about his views on fatherhood in a series of past interviews
— Read on fortune.com/2016/04/24/trump-act-like-wife/