Tag: survivors

One lesson after another , has encouraged

me that my path is correct. Of course there

are speed bumps , as I discovered when an

Earth Angel mirrored the past and present

position that was the blockage , lacking

flow .

Lacking very little childhood info of former

and rushed into a relationship , I denied

my intuition , I married my oppositional

teacher, a pattern of repressed anger , that

came out of no where , zapped me emotionally

and physically , which I was supposed to get over

without his taking responsibility .

Masking Pretending to care, to listen , to

hear , perhaps because it triggers , but holding

it , especially in an exchange that’s going well

is a freaking land mine , a red flag of imbalance.

Of repressed emotions, unhealed areas that are

exposed and offering varied solutions, can

overwhelm one whose determined and focused

on survival and self preservation , who

cannot hear , and fear/anger/rage are reactions

that thwart trust or intimacy , the very foundation

of any relationship.

My vulnerable side has brought me much joy

opening vistas of imagination and though

and progress in my soul growth . I do not consider

myself complete nor done , but readied to

embrace the unknown that change brings , as

I receive actualized proof in the gifts 🎁 that

I discover each day.

And that’s my Bliss, is a better sense of myself

and how folks respond , positiveness or adversity

I learn..

My intentions , dreams , prayers have been delayed

overlong in not stepping out , when anyone is

experiencing the fears inherit in transition ,

surrendering to their divinity means they

detox , and spew on me .

I’ve done the review , of myself over and over

in deep thinking with no one to hear me , because

it’s so freaking painful . From the top down

the unknowing and lack of support were suffocating .

That was the whole of my marriage , top down

was the judgement of a ” resting bitch face “

whose critique of everything me , was exposed

enough to make it clear , as the RBF came

out in words , critiques infected our marriage

as former transitioned into the doer, and

with addictions and co dependency , his anger

in everything was targeted at me .

Especially in regards to feminine , grief , action

children, any responsibility in his partnering

and parenting of which he had been separated

from since day one in resistance to his lack of

choice . Ignoring his responsibility , he began

rewriting the scrip that allowed him to consider

me unworthy with the context of perfection

and details , that did not convey .

However the codependent with each child ,

implies ownership , total exile of the parent

who was or developed addictions , behaviors

that do affect children . My core was so altered

by professional aide , so quickly the cement dried

as my body and mind were hacked, and his

inaction and demand I act normal reverberated

in a recent exchange …

Nope…

Test over , and it’s a finale , or it’s transformed

I surrender all to Divine ..

With grace I had a major breakthrough , and extremely

positive proof that off set the triggered spew

which helped me to even better understand

that standing down, is divine intervention.

Seeds planted , intentions for soul growth

requires stilling the mind , and surrender .

Pushed away, as the current ” source ”

allows for that space . In that the results

are entirely YOUR own.

As it is blueprinted …

So I let go..for change is upon us, each of us .

I am ready , beyond ready ..

My bags are packed , this is my train .

The free will choice of each soul is a Divinity .

🙏🏼❤️☮️🌈🎁🎶

Explained by a professional .😘

For me Thy Will Be Done ✅

Ready to Receive the harvest of my seed

planting ..shadow included .😘

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