Tag: trauma
The Spiritual Within The Narcissist Experience Of Abuse
Anxiety denotes the awakening of spirit .
My anxiety born of abuse was medicated with Xanax .
Xanax allowed me to become an addict very quickly due
to my extreme sensitivity ..
5 per day for 2 weeks created a chemically induced
nervous breakdown.
On that day in April , and in my incarceration in a mental
ward( Hell on earth for 17 days ) , I was shown signs of spirit .
*The nurse who rushed a fellow patient who was going
to choke me , whispering in my ear ” honey you don’t belong
here”!
My eventual Christian room mate who had such peace
that helped me to calm down enough to know I had to
go home , to Mother our sons , for there was nothing to
heal me me there .. I knew the truth of who I was married
to and how vicious he’d be in a divorce , and so I surrendered
to trying to work things out .
I am not discounting my behaviors , The betrayal of many years
was suspected , behaviors were abusive and horrific , when
the mask was fully revealed 3 months in 24 legal years
of marriage to a stranger ..My concern and compassion
my fears and tears and love were not enough , and I understand
that fully now.
Narcissist are Dark Angels , Survivors Of Trauma ; unhealed .
I have been trying to step out of this shadow , and spiritually
have deepened my faith…in myself …in my efforts and so many
who strive to push through Domestic Abuse/ChildAbuse .
Some find my journey inspiring , Some back off as if it’s catching,
Some are triggered and catalyzed to heal their own families.
Some are fearful of actions they are not sorry for , only
sorry to be found out..exposed . Part of why I had the
negative experience , a partner who wasn’t …
Others are overwhelmed with my varied negative experiences
and my ability to continue to move forward …That does get
more difficult in repeated attempts to impede my progress
and guidance tells me , more positive energy awaits , and
I may have to endure abuse to get there .
Thy Will Is Done
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna 🎄🎁
Holidays and the Narcissist
The lovely memories of Christmas past within
our family have been covertly destroyed in
my non allowance to participate or be acknowledged .
To do so would dishonor the ever present
hatred of Mother and Son , to whom all bow.
He brags in court about how much he spends
well aware of his power; Tis unfortunate that
this escapes the judge .
In my experience within this ” relationship”
year after year of watching as his gifts were presented
in unlimited expenditures, and a token singular gift
given our sons or myself. Gifts from him were
thoughtless , impersonal or later on tweaked by
someone else’s gift…What’s perceived as a loving gift
by a man who has it all, is contrived and cheap
lacking thought, it was just another show.
Our last 5 Christmas as a family , I did not participate
in holidays , for I lived day today , medicated into
a submission that he could advantage while he made
his plans to extract himself . As those 5 years wound
down , Mom heard of his victimhood and of course
rescued him without a pause ..Trauma Bound ?
Perhaps .
From birthdays to sacred holidays to observing Mothers
Day , the Grinch who stole holidays, sucks happiness
and joy , much less light out of his ladies.. Shameful
it’s allowed , shameful it still serves him and ” his”
family , to reduce the Mother of his sons that he is
Mother/Father/God .
I’m clearly knowing many truths are going to be highlighted
and much effort will be put in front of me to block if not
kill me .
I don’t feel I have a choice , in lieu of on going abuse.
I don’t celebrate Christmas as I used to ..I have tried
but it’s not the same in many regards .
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Blessings & Peace
Doña Luna
Coping with CoDependent Afterburn
Narcissist Are Sexual Energy Demons
The imbalance is augmented by acceptance of the male
sexuality, ignoring the core or soul of masculine in
lieu of scoring , controlling , dominating , competing
that adapted in masking unknowing , or effects of
trauma .
Diagnostic Checklist for Pathogenic Parenting – Dr. Craig Childress: Attachment Based “Parental Alienation” (AB-PA)
I have just posted to my website a Diagnostic Checklist for the three Primary Diagnostic Indicators and Secondary Clinical Features for the pathogenic parenting associated with an attachment-based model of “parental alienation.” This diagnostic checklist is available at the link below: Diagnostic Checklist for Pathogenic Parenting, and directly through my website I am not sure…
— Read on drcraigchildressblog.com/2014/09/11/diagnostic-checklist-for-pathogenic-parenting/
New law allows restraining orders to be filed on behalf of children
This is huge , a very good thing 🥳
A mother’s fight to protect her child has led to a new state law allowing parents and guardians to file restraining orders on behalf of children.
— Read on www.wmur.com/article/new-law-allows-restraining-orders-to-be-filed-on-behalf-of-children/30297974
Narcissistic Personality plus, described Spiritually Intuitively
A truth I was aware of , far too early , was the various mask required
in his day to day.. Detached in ways that tore at my soul , inciting me
to try harder …there was nothing that pleased , nothing on a soul level
that touched him.. With the realization of the detachment extending to
our children , one scant year into our marriage , I prayed , I mentored,
and I had faith .
Having 20 years of intense abuse , following 23 years of masked on/off
my awareness increased these past 15 years of the trauma , the
splitting , the separation from higher power , all of these traits mirrored
in my behavior , more so as an induced mental patient …It was those
last 5 years that revealed true intent , and a consciousness lacking
empathy , compassion or humanity …
Stepping out of this , has only disadvantaged me until June and as
I began my 1 on 1 council , having great success for each lady as
they grew in connection with God/Goddess, Source , Love and
all this just laying dormant , it is their success, and my honor to
be a part of it …😍
The aspects that are critical to respond to and resolve are financial ,
the power trip of the matrix and 3 D , as I lean in to Winter’s Solstice,
there is peace in completion of these various lessons that have polished
my heart 💜, as my eyes see the golden , as I cast away/transform shadow
a New Earth in so many aspects of life known so far .
Gratitude 🙏 on this SunDay/SonsDay…
Sending Love n Light to masculine 🥰✊
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Blessings & Peace ,
Doña Luna
Looking deeper into NPD
Spiritual Health Side Effects of Drinking Alcohol
Separation from self and higher powers . Sugar addiction ?
Genetic ?
Trauma?
I have no interest in alcohol, nor did either of my parents
as well as siblings to my knowledge , to the point of addiction .
Dad called a cab for an uncle who was intoxicated. Uncle
was a vet, had PTDS severely which cost him a very lovely
wife and life … Dad had not tolerance , which I suspect
came from seeing his Dad out of control , enhanced by
drink..
Addictions as well as control and abuse were not apparent
at I DOs, which became more pronounced ..
Currently targeted , I am the addiction ..the depository for
all his trials and tribulations .. Fear prevents surrender
to looking within, to rising past experiences, healing
with Divine forgiveness and Divine Love ❤️, which
is your wounded healer mothering you, as you require
according to your codes , your needs now …which can
release pain towards parents , when Father Sun Mother
Moon are our parents ..human experiences , shame
religion , education , Gov , money have tried to
addict us to and take us away from Nature (Father )
and Nurture (Mother) , of safe foundations ..
I choose to be addicted to love , reciprocal,
honoring , sacred love 💕.
©️🥰
Doña Luna
Any amount of alcohol has a spiritually detrimental side effects on us, and consuming it even increases our risk of being possessed by negative entities.
— Read on www.spiritualresearchfoundation.org/spiritual-living/health-effects-of-food-and-drinks/spiritual-side-effects-of-alcohol-drinking/
Teri’s Survival Story. A Mother’s Survival Story
Teri thought the abuse was over after she left her husband. Then, he did the unthinkable. Teri and security expert Gavin de Becker on the lessons you can learn from her story.
— Read on www.oprah.com/oprahshow/Teris-Survival-Story
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