The Spiritual Within The Narcissist Experience Of Abuse

Anxiety denotes the awakening of spirit .

My anxiety born of abuse was medicated with Xanax .

Xanax allowed me to become an addict very quickly due

to my extreme sensitivity ..

5 per day for 2 weeks created a chemically induced

nervous breakdown.

On that day in April , and in my incarceration in a mental

ward( Hell on earth for 17 days ) , I was shown signs of spirit .

*The nurse who rushed a fellow patient who was going

to choke me , whispering in my ear ” honey you don’t belong

here”!

My eventual Christian room mate who had such peace

that helped me to calm down enough to know I had to

go home , to Mother our sons , for there was nothing to

heal me me there .. I knew the truth of who I was married

to and how vicious he’d be in a divorce , and so I surrendered

to trying to work things out .

I am not discounting my behaviors , The betrayal of many years

was suspected , behaviors were abusive and horrific , when

the mask was fully revealed 3 months in 24 legal years

of marriage to a stranger ..My concern and compassion

my fears and tears and love were not enough , and I understand

that fully now.

Narcissist are Dark Angels , Survivors Of Trauma ; unhealed .

I have been trying to step out of this shadow , and spiritually

have deepened my faith…in myself …in my efforts and so many

who strive to push through Domestic Abuse/ChildAbuse .

Some find my journey inspiring , Some back off as if it’s catching,

Some are triggered and catalyzed to heal their own families.

Some are fearful of actions they are not sorry for , only

sorry to be found out..exposed . Part of why I had the

negative experience , a partner who wasn’t …

Others are overwhelmed with my varied negative experiences

and my ability to continue to move forward …That does get

more difficult in repeated attempts to impede my progress

and guidance tells me , more positive energy awaits , and

I may have to endure abuse to get there .

Thy Will Is Done

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna 🎄🎁

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Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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