Holidays and the Narcissist

The lovely memories of Christmas past within

our family have been covertly destroyed in

my non allowance to participate or be acknowledged .

To do so would dishonor the ever present

hatred of Mother and Son , to whom all bow.

He brags in court about how much he spends

well aware of his power; Tis unfortunate that

this escapes the judge .

In my experience within this ” relationship”

year after year of watching as his gifts were presented

in unlimited expenditures, and a token singular gift

given our sons or myself. Gifts from him were

thoughtless , impersonal or later on tweaked by

someone else’s gift…What’s perceived as a loving gift

by a man who has it all, is contrived and cheap

lacking thought, it was just another show.

Our last 5 Christmas as a family , I did not participate

in holidays , for I lived day today , medicated into

a submission that he could advantage while he made

his plans to extract himself . As those 5 years wound

down , Mom heard of his victimhood and of course

rescued him without a pause ..Trauma Bound ?

Perhaps .

From birthdays to sacred holidays to observing Mothers

Day , the Grinch who stole holidays, sucks happiness

and joy , much less light out of his ladies.. Shameful

it’s allowed , shameful it still serves him and ” his”

family , to reduce the Mother of his sons that he is

Mother/Father/God .

I’m clearly knowing many truths are going to be highlighted

and much effort will be put in front of me to block if not

kill me .

I don’t feel I have a choice , in lieu of on going abuse.

I don’t celebrate Christmas as I used to ..I have tried

but it’s not the same in many regards .


Blessings & Peace

Doña Luna

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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