The lovely memories of Christmas past within
our family have been covertly destroyed in
my non allowance to participate or be acknowledged .
To do so would dishonor the ever present
hatred of Mother and Son , to whom all bow.
He brags in court about how much he spends
well aware of his power; Tis unfortunate that
this escapes the judge .
In my experience within this ” relationship”
year after year of watching as his gifts were presented
in unlimited expenditures, and a token singular gift
given our sons or myself. Gifts from him were
thoughtless , impersonal or later on tweaked by
someone else’s gift…What’s perceived as a loving gift
by a man who has it all, is contrived and cheap
lacking thought, it was just another show.
Our last 5 Christmas as a family , I did not participate
in holidays , for I lived day today , medicated into
a submission that he could advantage while he made
his plans to extract himself . As those 5 years wound
down , Mom heard of his victimhood and of course
rescued him without a pause ..Trauma Bound ?
From birthdays to sacred holidays to observing Mothers
Day , the Grinch who stole holidays, sucks happiness
and joy , much less light out of his ladies.. Shameful
it’s allowed , shameful it still serves him and ” his”
family , to reduce the Mother of his sons that he is
I’m clearly knowing many truths are going to be highlighted
and much effort will be put in front of me to block if not
kill me .
I don’t feel I have a choice , in lieu of on going abuse.
I don’t celebrate Christmas as I used to ..I have tried
but it’s not the same in many regards .
Blessings & Peace