Holidays and the Narcissist

The lovely memories of Christmas past within

our family have been covertly destroyed in

my non allowance to participate or be acknowledged .

To do so would dishonor the ever present

hatred of Mother and Son , to whom all bow.

He brags in court about how much he spends

well aware of his power; Tis unfortunate that

this escapes the judge .

In my experience within this ” relationship”

year after year of watching as his gifts were presented

in unlimited expenditures, and a token singular gift

given our sons or myself. Gifts from him were

thoughtless , impersonal or later on tweaked by

someone else’s gift…What’s perceived as a loving gift

by a man who has it all, is contrived and cheap

lacking thought, it was just another show.

Our last 5 Christmas as a family , I did not participate

in holidays , for I lived day today , medicated into

a submission that he could advantage while he made

his plans to extract himself . As those 5 years wound

down , Mom heard of his victimhood and of course

rescued him without a pause ..Trauma Bound ?

Perhaps .

From birthdays to sacred holidays to observing Mothers

Day , the Grinch who stole holidays, sucks happiness

and joy , much less light out of his ladies.. Shameful

it’s allowed , shameful it still serves him and ” his”

family , to reduce the Mother of his sons that he is

Mother/Father/God .

I’m clearly knowing many truths are going to be highlighted

and much effort will be put in front of me to block if not

kill me .

I don’t feel I have a choice , in lieu of on going abuse.

I don’t celebrate Christmas as I used to ..I have tried

but it’s not the same in many regards .


Blessings & Peace

Doña Luna

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I’ll be posting more of these type post , my on my own

is to honor the spiritual aspects of holidays and how

masked far too many Christmases were .. I’m in awe

of the authentic joy , and sacred soul experience

that has resulted in transforming and healing .


Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna ,


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