Christmas Trees

I have had a few , live and artificial . I even found a tree stand like my parents , but lost it in a force home move . Landlord was a hoarder , most have been loaded with confiscated items . One would come in and ask where I bought something and how much it cost .

Christmas 2021 a lovely soul gave me a small tree and ornaments , I found some in the years that I was in family and I celebrated on my own. It’s not a season I share myself with . It meant something to sons if I gave but did not receive . Clearly a power move to show me my place , but it was a sweet coffee cup and a small offering of sweets that I gave away 💚

Yes it’s the thought that counts and watching the grand gifts given ex , and his siblings and their children , with my token gift was not hard to grasp or reject . I got the message loud and clear

Preferring cash , ex testified he saved $4, 000 to spend on kids and grandkids

His gifts were not sensitive to my spirit and he always had to be told what I wanted

His Mom received ultra lavish gifts chosen by eldest daughter whose perfection was absolute

Christmas is sacred to me for many reasons and I’ve had to squish all the joy filled memories shared with our sons when they were younger and not yet culled into using holidays to define their distortion

They choose to ignore the trauma associated with X mad 98 ; he left the 27th

Christmas 99 he spent Christmas with his new supply and her kids and each of us were morose in our effort to enjoy out first Christmas with out Dad ❤️‍🩹

So Christmas with me was expendable as he made his point and newbie had the win she constantly strived for !

I stopped putting up a Christmas tree🎄 a couple of years ago. Something about wanting the perfect tree, the perfect decorations, the perfect gifts, the perfect holiday meal 🍽️ and the perfect “Holi-DAY”was just too much for my already overly hyper perfectionism tendencies.
So, I let it go. I let go of the need to make everything look perfect for the understanding that EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE is perfect. We are perfectly flawed and perfectly loved. Whether you sit at my invisible tree 🎄or someone else’s, it really doesn’t matter. I love you just the same. It’s not always about just who is sitting around your tree because many of us have been in the season of fake trees for far too long. I found The Secret to Life. Everyday is important not just the holidays. Everyone is important everyday not just on special occasions. For me, the true joy of life is more about who we hold in our heart ♥️ and who holds us in theirs♥️
Live everyday with love

Thanksgiving 2020 – Sam

I had just moved into a rental in a gated community being told repeatedly that I was safe . I was to find out later that I was not ..

I was invited for Thanksgiving and Sam Kephart played for us in what was the best Thanksgiving in many years .

Sam passed 10-10-21 and left a legacy of music for many generations; never to be forgotten 🙏❤️

Dec 25, Realities

On December 25th Venus, the planet of love is Conjunct Pluto, the planet of transformation.

For the past few days we may have been feeling nostalgic, sentimental, emotionally overwhelmed and even consumed by our thoughts and emotions at times. We might have noticed we are feeling passionately and magnetically attracted toward those we are romantically closest to. Also significant connections from the past could make an unexpected return, in particular those with whom we never received closure.

**This conjunction brings extremely intense energies that will directly impact how we perceive ourselves, along with how we view our personal and most intimate relationships. This can mean connections will either feel like a battlefield or nirvana right now and these energies will continue to be heightened over the next 48 hours.

One of the main ways we may have been affected by the Venus/Pluto energy over this past week is through feeling the need for affection, attention, validation and commitment far more than normal. We may have been craving communication or closeness with those we are closest to and might have noticed we have felt rejected or vulnerable when we haven’t gotten the the response we hoped for.

**We have possibly even started to notice where there are imbalances, for example, where there is unrequited love or where one person is making far more effort than the other. We may also suddenly realise that we are in a dynamic with someone who is extremely manipulative, controlling or dominating and it is also possible that we suddenly become aware of our own controlling, compulsive or domineering ways.

**During this time we may become aware that we, or others, have been playing mind games in order to gain a reaction or attention or even test the other’s person’s love or loyalty. This means there may have been noticaeble switching between being attentive and affectionate and then suddenly distant and disinterested, for no apparent reason.

**It is likely that any areas of our life where the energies are unhealthy, where there are suppressed resentments or where there are constant power struggles will have been brought to our attention over and over until we fully recognise that certain people are not healthy for us to be around.

**One of the main reasons we have been confronted with these power plays is so we realise that we have become far too reliant on how other people treat us or perceive us and that is having a direct impact on our self-worth and self-esteem. Too often we allow other people to project their insecurities onto us, thus leaving us feeling insecure and unworthy and causing immense internal suffering, rather than realising we are actually embodying other people’s perceptions of themselves.

***We are being alerted to relationships where the energies are unreciprocated so that we recognise where we are accepting far, far less from certain people than what we give, while also caught in a cycle of feeling abandoned and desperately seeking their approval.

Both Venus and Pluto together can bring out our shadow side when it comes to relationships, therefore it is possible we will be feeling irrational, insecure, jealous and possessive at times and be hoping that other people will heal these wounds. However, particularly this week, for some of us, it won’t matter how much anyone else tries to fill our cup, we will still feel an emptiness on the inside. This is why it is vital for us to understand the importance of learning that we don’t need anyone or anything else in order for us to validate and value ourselves.

Venus allows us to look at the ways our self-worth is affected by other people’s opinions of us, or through whether we are financially healthy or not, and various other superficial factors. **Generally, it helps us see how external sources have been dependent on whether we feel valued or undervalued, worthy or unworthy and how vital it is to find value and worth internally.

Pluto, the farthest planet in the solar system, can cause us to feel isolate and lonely, so it may make us feel like withdrawing for a period of time to process these intense energies.** Pluto also helps us cleanse and purge outdated and unhealthy behaviours, pattens and belief systems and to recognise where we have unhealthily high expectations, while Venus works to help us recognise where we are appreciated and also where we are allowing other people’s words and actions to value ourselves. In Venus’ energy we will also notice where our confidence is low and how we can rebuild self-worth and become fulfilled with self-love.

Venus Conjunct Pluto will take us through a dramatic transformation where we will gain a greater understanding of love and start to see with clarity how everyone has their own unique love language. We are going to gain insight into how we need to be loved and also how we show love to others.

Everyone gives and receives love in different ways, so what may look like love on the surface may not actually be love at all, and where we think we aren’t cared for or appreciated – we may be deeply loved. Most of all we are going to learn that we might not be feeling love from others purely because we haven’t been fully loving ourselves – particularly if we have been badly burned in the past.

This is the time to let go of all pre-conceived notions of love and to submerge ourselves in divine unconditional love of ourselves. Pluto is telling us to surrender the past and heal and Venus is telling us it is time to trust in love and accept we are worthy, valuable and deserving of it all.**

*Relationships of all kinds will be going through a transformation where they will either become far deeper, fulfilling and more meaningful or a light will be shown on where we are holding on to fantasy and illusions or where we have become involved in a destructive, unhealthy or unsatisfying dynamic.

*Over these next few days it will begin to become imminently clear who we value, who value and loves us unconditionally and who it is time to untangle from and finally let go.

Overall our perception of love is about to radically change and we will begin to see how trust issues and fear of loss and rejection has held us back from love for far too long, not only with others but ultimately from giving and receiving that love within ourselves.
Alex Myles

Honoring Female Figures of the Season

~ Honoring the Female Figures of this Season in Ancient Tradition and Folklore ~

✨Mōdraniht or Modranicht (“Night of the Mothers” or “Mothers’ Night”)✨

“This ancient Anglo Saxon and Scandinavian rite of recognition for the ancestral mothers or “disir” was held on the eve before the Winter Solstice. After these cultures accepted Christianity, the ritual took place on Christmas Eve.

“O Holy Mother, gracious and most divine creator of life. It is from your heart that nothingness can bear fruit, and it is from your womb the great spark of life is born.

You who have given of yourself time, and time again to both the devout, and the petulant. You who have shown us what it truly means to love without end, and without condition. You who are the ultimate mother.

To your daughters, shaped in your image, you entrust with the power of the immortal gate between worlds, that which is the cradle of life.

To those daughters you give the gift of strength that can over come all pain, as well as the drive to brave, and light the way through all darkness; it is the power of a mothers love.

On this night we pay tribute to you, and give thanks for your continual grace given unto us on our darkest night, and the grace you give unto us through those who are your life bearing daughters.
Blessed art thou divine mother of creation.

Daughters of the great mother, my blessed family matrons. Tonight in honor of your sacrifices, which were necessary to bring forth our family, I give unto thee praise. Dine with me tonight as we celebrate the wonders of life, and love.”

~Tiffany Pierce

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Holidays and the Narcissist

The lovely memories of Christmas past within

our family have been covertly destroyed in

my non allowance to participate or be acknowledged .

To do so would dishonor the ever present

hatred of Mother and Son , to whom all bow.

He brags in court about how much he spends

well aware of his power; Tis unfortunate that

this escapes the judge .

In my experience within this ” relationship”

year after year of watching as his gifts were presented

in unlimited expenditures, and a token singular gift

given our sons or myself. Gifts from him were

thoughtless , impersonal or later on tweaked by

someone else’s gift…What’s perceived as a loving gift

by a man who has it all, is contrived and cheap

lacking thought, it was just another show.

Our last 5 Christmas as a family , I did not participate

in holidays , for I lived day today , medicated into

a submission that he could advantage while he made

his plans to extract himself . As those 5 years wound

down , Mom heard of his victimhood and of course

rescued him without a pause ..Trauma Bound ?

Perhaps .

From birthdays to sacred holidays to observing Mothers

Day , the Grinch who stole holidays, sucks happiness

and joy , much less light out of his ladies.. Shameful

it’s allowed , shameful it still serves him and ” his”

family , to reduce the Mother of his sons that he is

Mother/Father/God .

I’m clearly knowing many truths are going to be highlighted

and much effort will be put in front of me to block if not

kill me .

I don’t feel I have a choice , in lieu of on going abuse.

I don’t celebrate Christmas as I used to ..I have tried

but it’s not the same in many regards .


Blessings & Peace

Doña Luna

2 Kinds of Lonely Feelings and How to Cope With Them | Dr. Jonice Webb

I’ll be posting more of these type post , my on my own

is to honor the spiritual aspects of holidays and how

masked far too many Christmases were .. I’m in awe

of the authentic joy , and sacred soul experience

that has resulted in transforming and healing .


Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna ,


Research shows that loneliness is rampant in today’s world. If you feel it too often, it may help to understand where it comes from. Then you can address it!
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