Tag: spiritual wellness

Trauma Response


The inability to receive support from others is a trauma response.
Your “I don’t need anyone, I’ll just do it all myself” conditioning is a survival tactic. And you needed it to shield your heart from abuse, neglect, betrayal, and disappointment from those who could not or would not be there for you.
From the parent who was absent and abandoned you by choice or the parent who was never home from working three jobs to feed and house you.
From the lovers who offered sexual intimacy but never offered a safe haven that honoured your heart.
From the friendships and family who ALWAYS took more than they ever gave.
From all the situations when someone told you “we’re in this together” or “I got you” then abandoned you, leaving you to pick up the pieces when shit got real, leaving you to handle your part and their part, too.
From all the lies and all the betrayals.
You learned along the way that you just couldn’t really trust people. Or that you could trust people, but only up to a certain point.
Extreme-independence IS. A. TRUST. ISSUE.
You learnt: if I don’t put myself in a situation where I rely on someone, I won’t have to be disappointed when they don’t show up for me, or when they drop the ball… because they will ALWAYS drop the ball EVENTUALLY right?
You may even have been intentionally taught this protection strategy by generations of hurt ancestors who came before you.
Extreme-independence is a preemptive strike against heartbreak.
So, you don’t trust anyone.
And you don’t trust yourself, either, to choose people.
To trust is to hope, to trust is to be vulnerable.
“Never again,” you vow.
But no matter how you dress it up and display it proudly to make it seem like this level of independence is what you always wanted to be, in truth it’s your wounded, scarred, broken heart behind a protective brick wall.
Impenetrable. Nothing gets in. No hurt gets in. But no love gets in either.
Fortresses and armor are for those in battle, or who believe the battle is coming.
It’s a trauma response.
The good news is trauma that is acknowledged is trauma that can be healed.
You are worthy of having support.
You are worthy of having true partnership.
You are worthy of love.
You are worthy of having your heart held.
You are worthy to be adored.
You are worthy to be cherished.
You are worthy to have someone say, “You rest. I got this.” And actually deliver on that promise.
You are worthy to receive.
You are worthy to receive.
You are worthy.
You don’t have to earn it.
You don’t have to prove it.
You don’t have to bargain for it.
You don’t have to beg for it.
You are worthy.
Worthy.
Simply because you exist.

  • Jamila White

CERN Georgia’s Reaction via Stone

The 10 principals of man

kind for New Earth were

on those tablets of granite

even touching on reducing

our population.

Population control via the

New World Order .

Fingernails on the chalkboard

shadow ; you’ve exposed

yourself .

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Tune in

“Heal yourself with the light of the sun and the rays of the moon. With the sound of the river and the waterfall. With the swaying of the sea and the fluttering of birds. Heal yourself with mint, neem, and eucalyptus. Sweeten with lavender, rosemary, and chamomile. Hug yourself with the cocoa bean and a hint of cinnamon. Put love in tea instead of sugar and drink it looking at the stars. Heal yourself with the kisses that the wind gives you and the hugs of the rain. Stand strong with your bare feet on the ground and with everything that comes from it. Be smarter every day by listening to your intuition, looking at the world with your forehead. Jump, dance, sing, so that you live happier. Heal yourself, with beautiful love, and always remember…you are the medicine.”

María Sabina a Mexican healer and poet.

Ed Binkley ~ Artist

Sirius Gateway ends 7/7

SIRIUS GATEWAY ~Here we go ,We are in for some high frequency energy downloads and upgrades in the next days/week. The energy is already pretty high because of the powerful solar energy coming in.

Additionally we will receive high frequency energy from the star system Sirius in the first week of July. We call it the Sirius gateway and it will end on the day of the 77 portal (July 7th). We are in for some treats from the Universe as Sirius is our parent star and the spiritual Sun. Are you ready? New energy, new light codes, new upgrades, levelling up and moving foward.

The connection between the Earth, the Sun and the star Sirius is bringing spiritual progress and this means we are also in for some triggering, tiredness, but also bliss. Some might experience a death and rebirth process. Don’t try to block it, as your ego will suggest. Open up to every emotion that will show up within. Feel it, experience it as the observer and learn from it. It will show you where you are blocking yourself and being afraid of your own power and light.

Open up to the darkness and you will find more light. Embrace and welcome change, don’t try to fight it. Sirius energy will help us access our true self in a deeper way and heighten our intuition. Open up, listen and receive

The Lemurian Unicorns

http://www.raisingvibrations.com.au

No ByPass for Anger & Rage

“You don’t get to bypass your anger and your rage, and call yourself peaceful in your avoidance. Your ability to feel anger or rage is not an accident. On the contrary, it is a great gift.

Rage is an intelligent fire. It is infused with its own magic, and born of love. And we need this intelligent fire to unfreeze ourselves from the glaciers of time.

Rage is not innately ugly. That which summons it, usually is. The platitude Love is all there is does not also recognize that if this is so, then all things must be born of the One Love. So how do they become so distorted and painful on their ways down from eternity to the nitty-gritty human experience?

Rage is not hate. Hate emerges from rage not recognized, responsibility not taken, the projection of blame for one’s own suffering onto others who are not to blame.

Rage places responsibility where it belongs. Rage recognizes what our part is in our suffering. Rage also recognizes when we are carrying the responsibility that belongs with someone else. Rage refuses to carry the inappropriate burden of the choices made by others. Rage fights back for a change that creates balance and justice. Rage is not the great punisher, but the equalizer and the liberator.

If you do not walk through the fires of your rage, or you do not admit that rage lives within you, you cannot find the dancing prayer that opens the gates of The Wildness. You will have too many holes burned into your vessel. If you cannot hold it, you cannot experience it, and it will not free you, so you may not enter.

You will attempt to howl at the moon in all her glory, and your breath will escape from the hole in the back of your neck, or on the right side of your chest or out of your belly. You will wail and remember that your rage cannot be nearly as terrible as is life as a piece of swiss cheese.

Without your intelligent fire, parts of you will remain cold and isolated, separate from the hearth and home at the core of your being. They are there because you thought they were compromising your survival. But you can see now, can’t you, that without them survival is as good as it gets, and you want to thrive?

So find that rage, that intelligent fire, and call your children home. Release them from the bindings of blame and shame that is not theirs. Thank them. Welcome them. Feed them. Light up the night sky. Become whole, and let your rage be cleansed of guilt and shame, so it is given back its holy shine.

Rage can protect the innocent. Defrost the frozen, traumatized parts of your experience. Defend the sacred, the wild, and the natural. Rage can inform peace, but it won’t bring us all the way. No, for that you need everything you are. But without your rage, you won’t be able to retrieve yourself and become whole enough to find out.

Your journey is epic.

You are a miracle.

The Wildness is howling for your return.

Bring your rage with you.”

~ Alison Nappi

@alisonnappi

https://www.facebook.com/alisonnappi.author

Art: Julia Jeffrey,

Stonemaiden Art

@stonemaidenart

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Excavation by David Seay

We are a culture that glorifies the explosion.

Consumption is our icon next to destruction and erosion,

And while the waters are still flowing,

addiction dips it’s toes in;

And adds to the pollution,

Which is why some of us are glowing.

Tuned to confusion through over stimulation of useless information,

As we are speaking about nothing while in communication,

We cling to opinions that hinder revelation.

Time for an excavation,

Not of the land,

But the inner world of man;

For all of our relations.

The rocket ships we take;

A symbol of exploration,

Or escape?

I must ask.

Why can’t we take care of what we have before we expand our destructive path?

Our new symbol is the mask,

Our old one was the flag;

Trading freedom for security,

And doing it quite fast.

This is a ground breaking,

Earth quaking,

Life shaking,

Quickening of our reality.

The warriors are awakening.

Focus on vitality.

Foundation for our families.

Everyday a celebration.

Fireworks of appreciation explode vocally through me without even littering or frightening anyone locally.

Implode on an inner world to cultivate a love so innate that there is no need to escape.

This is what we celebrate.

Discern, observe, manage, regulate.

Write a book,

Become an author.

Chop wood,

Carry water.

With a skip in the step,

And a song in the heart.

Dance to the stars.

Work harder and harder on something you love;

Then do something you don’t like for someone going through something tough.

Spread the laughter and sweep the heavy,

Not under the rug but off of the levee.

Fire works,

To burn up all that heavy burden that we carry,

So don’t freak out when things get scary.

There is a way to face the music,

And dance right through it;

Even the mess humans are cocreating,

Can be cleaned and made pristine if we worked together as a team instead of constantly debating.

I am praying,

But not just bargaining or asking God,

Nor constantly complaining;

They are yearnings of the heart and soul,

Told of what this life is needing~

My deepest prayers are not the words I say;

It is the act of my heart beating.

To keep us alive,

Our hearts are bleeding.

Pumping the love.

Delivering the message.

Passing on the truth of trust.

Carrying out the way for us all.

That’s a living prayer;

Listen for the call.

Let’s build another way,

Not another mall.

Boundary Violation

Dr. Annie Kaszina has this to say about forgiveness of your abuser:

Notice, this is all about self-forgiveness. Those people who tell you that you need to forgive the people who hurt and abused you, might well not be considering your feelings in all of this.

Your feelings are what matter.

Toxic people who hurt you quite deliberately don’t need your forgiveness. They won’t do anything good with it. If and when you actually want to forgive them, feel free. But do think what that forgiveness means to you.

It can just mean cutting the cords of resentment – but still holding people accountable for their behavior. In your own mind, at least.

It doesn’t mean exposing yourself to further abuse.

The person who needs your forgiveness is you. Clearly, your life suffered as a result of choices you did or didn’t- could or couldn’t – make.

Even if the choices were wrong, your intention was likely honorable. So, forgive yourself for your mistakes and allow yourself to start to rebuild.

Silence/ Blocking

Once I give you silence

I’ve nothing left to say

I’ve retreated to my darkness

I’ve moved out of your way

Silence is my blessing

Silence is my curse

And once I pass it on to you

I’m finished with the words

There’s nothing left to be said

And nothing left to do

When I retreat in silence

Just know I’m really through

I’m sure you feel the distance

It’s tangible, it’s real

Because I’ve got nothing left for you

There’s nothing left I feel

Just the ghost of aching sadness

A memory, a dream

Like something I’ve forgotten

As I’ve forgotten how to scream

Once I give you silence

I’ve blessed you with my curse

I’ve moved on to better things

And I’m putting myself first.

~Mandy Kocsis©2022~

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