Tag: relationships

I discovered Sade, in the years of darkness

even in my induced addiction and trauma

that was evoked too often, feeling suspended

looking at myself from inside out. That trauma

spewed in fear, not only for myself but for our

sons..Through their eyes , I grew , with the

imbalance of a highly traumatized , silent man.

What was in my heart for him changed , I had

to step out of his nightmares , and unfortunately

became a junkie via the standards and practices

of a system whose credo is do no harm.

Much harm done is being righted , and it’s way

past time..

Just as I stand up for my rights , I have always

been inclusive . I failed . Always a failure , a mere

projection , and it’s closure to have more truths

than required , and to be ignored . However it

is my mission to stand , for Beloveds, Father’s

Brothers, Sons, Uncles , Grandfathers , whose

life long challenges to be seen, and heard , to

be abled to come from their hearts , to know

their exquisite value , and respond in responsibility

but not be the whole of anything but the vita

elements for the dance of alchemy ..

It is our right, and many have the mission of

unification on the 1st leg of Christ Conscious

humankind ” work” . I have known this since

1st grade , when Beloved Teddy moved , and

I mourned him…Dad’s work took him away

and my defense against boys was verbal.

Reasoning did not work, and so the brother

I was in charge of, responsible for split .

Already ” split ” from our trauma, a bond

of trauma, increased his mistrust of his entire

world .

Reflecting on life, includes the bother of silence

fear and anger , and I do grasp his deep emotional

states , of what I know , and my intuition , he

has never known the Moon and the Sun.

Once touched , in the deepest soul , it’s found

a home, it matters not to pack your bags .

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