Tag: discrimination

Perfectionist- OCD

Labeled a ” mental disorder ”

or trauma response ?

Being subjected to a

perfectionist as a child can and

does create ” Patty Perfect ”

ends up in overwhelming

life situations, burdened with

responsibilities and many

negatives can result .

Alcoholism is just one response

but expecting all around you

to be perfect is a heavy burden

especially when one does not

strive for perfection perhaps

having laid that burden down !

Qualifying behaviors, as just

” my OCD” kicking in doesn’t

resonate when it’s a place for

blame , or projected blame

always pointing out the lack

in another . It’s a stressful

situation and personally I

don’t do well under such

pressure .

I had ” family ” members via

marriage that were always

exclusive in their bond , found

me less than desirable and a

partner who did not ever have

my back , but rather joined in

the ladies constant criticism

and judgment which was

highly toxic and really affected

me as a newly wed , mother

the 1st year and for several

decades . I did not want to be

in their company as it became

more intense and flagrantly

obvious!

I was not fully aware that our

sons had adapted to this , and

with those last 5 years in toxic

treatment for ” bipolar ” it

was a mantra of ex and his

family that I chose to be

Bipolar and gravely ill to get

out of my duties as Mom .

I’m sure ex felt the loss of my

inability to do my ” jobs”

and further neglected the

horrific situation and it’s effect

on our sons .

He was busy making plans to

exit with as much as possible

and covertly blame all

failures on me .

Of course it’s always been and

always will be his job to heal

that childhood desire or

pressure for perfection but I’m

keenly aware of what a toll

that takes on everyone in his

world as he always is in that

mode and never really

enjoying the moment and that

radiates to others negatively .

It’s the ” bar” expected of those

around him ; Great

Expectations that I could not

meet which made me less

than in his opinion!

I realize how it drained him

and noted how scheduled he

was concerning his personal

habits .

He had no idea , nor did he

care how anything affected

me .

iocdf.org/about-OCD/

Youth more vulnerable to personally changes due to COVID

Duh ?

Trauma abounds and it’s not worthy of mention?

Trolling for new consumers as psychiatric jargon took hold in the mid 60’s amongst much change and uncertainty.

Our trauma as we witnessed the murder of our beloved president , Martin Luther King and Robert Kennedy which have not healed due to conspiracy and denial .

I was on a shit load of RX for mood and emotions etc that dismissed the hell on earth of living with a masked , distorted , godless partner who would like to take revenge until his last breath , in order to discredit me !

#NoMoreBeingTargeted

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

www.naturalhealth365.com/covid-19-pandemic-triggers-surprising-changes-in-personality-new-study-suggests.html

Definitely pushing pills: Mad in America

A new study published in Issues of Mental Health Nursing finds that influential psychiatric nursing textbooks frame mental health nursing as a purely biomedical practice, failing to convey the significant debates in the field over psychological and social factors.

The study used Critical Discourse Analysis (CDA), a method used to analyze how language is used in texts to deploy and reinforce power relations and legitimacy, to demonstrate how these texts legitimate psychiatric discourse.

Through presenting the subjectivity of mental health professionals as objective scientific facts, conveying urgency and necessity for psychiatric intervention, and fusing with other scientific and medical disciplines to lend credibility to psychiatry, such discourse can lead to taking this medicalization of professional judgment for granted and devaluing the subjectivity of patients being assessed.

“Mental health discourse has been the site of a lively and contentious transdisciplinary debate, particularly concerning its conceptualization as a concept and subsequent understandings of lived experience in the context of mental health and illness,” the study authors, led by Simon Adam at York University, write.

“Correspondingly, this article examines the current state of mental health discourse in nursing education by focusing on the undergraduate pedagogy of the mental health nursing assessment in Canada.”

Nursing Textbooks Treat Medicalization of Mental Health as Objective Fact

www.madinamerica.com/2022/10/nursing-textbooks-treat-medicalization-mental-health-objective-fact/

Recovery language in substance abuse

New research published in Critical Social Work reveals that dominant understandings of recovery, such as maintaining abstinence, can be experienced by service users as oppressive.

The critical discourse analysis of qualitative interviews with individuals struggling with substance use issues in rural Ontario examined power dynamics inherent to discourse on substance addiction recovery. The author concludes by offering recommendations such as training and education to address stigma and implicit biases among clinicians and the inclusion of individuals experiencing substance abuse issues in research, policy development, clinical practice, and education.

Researcher Sandra R. McNeil of the University of Windsor writes:

“By shaping who should recover, how they should recover, and what recovery should look like, recovery discourse constitutes categories of inclusion and exclusion. Viewing substance use recovery through a critical lens exposes ideological values that perpetuate substance use stigma at micro and macro levels. Equally important are the numerous, intersecting forms of stigma related to race, class, gender, sexuality, ability, appearance, geography, and types of substance use that are capable of (de)constructing structural inequities.”

Recovery Language in Substance Use Treatment Experienced as Oppressive Without Input of Service Users

www.madinamerica.com/2022/10/recovery-language-substance-use-treatment-experienced-oppressive-without-input-service-users/

Her Nightmare experience with psychiatry is sadly common .

As was mine and far too many people

I am new here. 3 years ago I was committed to a psychiatric hospital against my will and forced to take Risperdal and abused by a psychiatrist.
I had a physical illness which I now know is mold toxicity and mast cell activation syndrome (MCAS). It’s not well known in the medical community but I was able to google my symptoms early in the illness and come up with MCAS. Not sure why they couldn’t do that.

I was diagnosed as delusional, extremely mentally ill, with psychosis due to psychotic delusions all because they were too lazy to research my symptoms. I was treated like garbage and called a liar.

I couldn’t eat because of pain and bad reactions to food and got down to 77 lbs and told the psychiatrist I needed to go to the medical hospital and get a feeding tube cuz I was starving to death and she demanded “You’re not going anywhere. You just need to get up, walk down the hall, get your food and eat it.” I was in pain with several debilitating symptoms, could barely walk, had double vision and had just laid in the bed there for 10 days. My friend had to call my doctor to get me out of there.

There’s more but it’s too long. It was a nightmare. And now it’s on my FBI background check that I was involuntarily admitted to a psych hospital. I’m doing everything I can to get justice but it’s not easy. Both hospitals and the medical board won’t do anything but I have several other places to report it to.

I am livid and believe I have PTSD because of what they did to me. They should be in jail!

Change

This property was depicted as my safe place after 4 very months of bouncing around after my COVID eviction.

Having given away most of my furniture, there were things there I could use and things that I helped facilitate giving away for owners.

It was never cleaned and sadly I found the tenet before me was the only child and with her son ( grandson ) had been evicted as well before me !!! Of course stories abound but I find it interesting and example this house which did rent to a man and repairs are being made as noted in this shot . New deck and new paint .

An offer was made to sell at $50 over what was paid and my research showed a reduction in value 10k what was paid by current owners/landlords . I did not find my self desperate enough to buy it at such a high price with such obvious and varied repairs , far greater that was we saw today .

Notices to move (30 days )were the result of my friendship with the only child to whom I was told not to talk to.

Many stories were created and embellished to create the belief that we the renters were to blame and deserved to be ” thrown out ”

Many times I asked ” Am I safe here , and was always reassured that I was .

The male tenet HAS a lease !

The views are magnificent but there is a negative vibe attached to this ” gated community ” where I began to feel I was watched and certainly was true of a repair guy who worked for them , and would just show up , parked in the yard , in the storage shed which he had lots of stuff as well as the owners who allowed that I would have space to store my things , rather than pay storage else where. I was not comfortable with the situation nor the ability of repairs . A washer was replaced with yard sale type 2nds due to a spring having gone bad which was missed by their examination and discovered by my 23 year old repair man !

A very harsh winter , time with no electric power after being told it NEVER happened ! And I was not checked in on by these folks in any way , shape or form .

It was discovered after I left end of July 2021 that dementia and pre existing mental illness ( life long secret ) gripped 1 of the 2 and I had to feel that I had dodged a bullet .

All in all … wasted time

wasted faith

wasted money

And the betrayal of home and heart that sadly has met its mark with an only child and their son .

It did however result in the acceptance of truths and healing for the child/grandchild

Photo credit

Laura B

Generational Trauma & Celebrations

Today is testament to the lasting damage incurred when Narcissist distort and abuse their children , bonded in trauma and secrets , vowing to uphold the pattern for further generations which is no longer possible in these times of mass awareness and healing .

Our only granddaughter has a birthday today #11

The past narratives still rule and are way complicated and very sensitive, however I have never been allowed to celebrate her birthday . I’m sure she has been privy to much character assignation against me and this continuing child psychological abuse demands release and hopefully I can write that later to day .

Son blew up at me yesterday bringing up past which I’m accused of but it allows him to justify his actions and baring me from granddaughter as he has stated ; because I don’t do as I’m told . I lack respect for him

Again he has few outlets to release his rage and feels comfortable dumping his misery on me . I have blocked receiving his or anyones energy that is so stuck and repressive in feeling they hold more power and are better than me

Read below about the damage done in child psychological abuse , son and daughter inheritance via Narcissist Abuse ongoing .

www.apa.org/news/press/releases/2014/10/psychological-abuse

Blessings & Peace

Please pray for granddaughter 🙏❤️

Dona Luna