Being Blunt with the Distortions of a Narcissistic

Years of experience, wasted efforts ,and core needs abused.

6 years in , it was undeniable

With 3 sons 6 and under and

no income or money or place

to go to , I had the awareness

that I would receive little from

him .

To a degree , I did not feel I

would ever trust or love again

and I did not want another

man ” fathering 3 sons ” who

were possessions of our Boss.

Just as he considered me ,

examples had accumulated

beyond denial .

*Coming home from work

and announcing a trip to

Germany with his childhood

friend who had no morals

and I was aware of his willing

participation in whoring

with his Bud . Later he would

share his experience through

his friends name to me .

I knew but had to ignore it

for the sake of our sons .

When I did discuss it with

the wives of his friends it was

” normalized ” ; these ladies

were professionals , mothers,

living well , designer cloths

and always had a cocktail in

front of them .

I did not fit in his world and it

was all he knew and there was

stagnation ,no growth and no

intimacy. Slow and painful

death . The abuses increased

after building our home upon

his acknowledgment that he

had over extended himself

and his obligations were not

allowing his personal needs

wants and desires .

And then there was that ever

present , never ending toxic

bond with his Mom .

Is WAR cost our family dearly

and has largely been ignored

legally ; and I grasp his

winning trumps the needs of

our sons and grandchildren

for I am dead to him , he has

never ” been interested ” .

Sadly all that perceived on

highness , mask a dark ,cold

calculating shadow at War

with light , growth ,forgiveness

letting go , equality balance

accountability, responsibility .

I came into his life in peace

trust , love and divinity , only

to be cut off and disposed of

upon finding his next

companion who relished

the strategic targeting , spell

work , lies etc

Nearly dead , ran for her

life ,forgetting her salvation

and redemption ,still joyful

to denounce me .

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End of the Line

This song has been playing in my head all day on Summer Solstice.

In repose , rest and my deep thinking baited, peace remains .

I do not have the impression that any masculine has woke to my grace and place and as a result , accepting the end of the line .

It is with great faith that my miss is my mercy . It indeed is extreme in reference to our sons , but their resistance has been consistent for decades . I do not know them as adults and cannot accept their preference to continue the WAR of their Dad and reject me.

The end of the line lends towards new beginnings which I’m resting up for as Christ Consciousness via photonic white light rains down ; those who are supposed to , receive and surrender in self love and self forgiveness to better love another in peace and harmony !

Hydration and rest , rejuvenate and accept the healing and abundance as cycles officially close ,never to be repeated .

Job well done !!!

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

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Leaky Gut

I believe after decades of gut issues , I can trace the beginnings to the Twilight Sleep given Mom for my birth .

Twilight Sleep was a combination of drugs which totally wiped out pain , babies were pulled out with forceps and Mom had no memory of giving birth . The normal , natural bonding experience was not enjoyed by either of us .

I rejected her milk , latching was a problem . I had to have my under tongue clipped .

My parents took me home and I dehydrated so much I was returned to the hospital near death . 5 days after birth !

I was given a formula based on banana and revived I rallied .

My gut has always given me trouble and 2 years ago after an experience of many toxins including arsenic I was diagnosed with leaky gut .

Currently I am challenged in stability in my living situations and find much difficulty in treating my gut . And finances are stretched ; otherwise I’d be getting Ozone treatments !

If this aides one person , in education , I am gratified !

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

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Luna’s Gone

The name change from Donna Lynn to Doña Luna was a sweet transition

for I did not feel connected to Donna , hearing I should not be using the

married name by a messenger of former …

My last Psychiatric Dr has an accent that created the Doner sound , and Beloved

was of her country , much better at speech , but I’m not sure of his comprehension

grasp of the nuances , of our English ….Donna Luna Moon was his name for me

and I expressed the repetitive double moon could be only 1 and I would loose an n

and pronounce it Doña ..( the computer adds the European inflection , which is part

of my ancestry as I know it ; Eastern Europeans Spanish on Dad’s side 🤔)

I’m so comfortable with it, children love the sound of Doña Luna , so I’m legally

going to change it …I deserve it.

Recalling the many years , induced mental illness deterred me from both the Sun

and the Moon …I pledged never again and to share my experience that it may

enlighten the uninformed of the tragic results .

Almost there , within days of beginning the final phase of clearing and pushing it

but knowing , I can, knowing I will be heard , knowing this cycle has ended but for

clarity and clearing … I’m am thus beyond grateful , to fully live life and the love

within and out lighting my way along side of Sun and Moon , who I never take

for granted as my master parents ..

Doña Luna is past ready to leap into life …yes 😎👍🏼😍🥳

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna 😘

Luna’s Gone , Mary Chapin Carpenter

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Just When You Think You’re Enlightened – Lion’s Roar

“Tower moments ” refer to the authentic issues , challenges and steps back

rising, spiritually can be , and sure did not and will never stop or end

my faith in Divine n Me …we are One and that’s Fact …

Still rocking it 😍🥰😘

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

Temporary spiritual experiences can be helpful signs of progress, says Andrew Holecek, but they can also be traps.
— Read on www.lionsroar.com/just-when-you-think-youre-enlightened/

Hugs

The average length of a hug between two people is 3 seconds. But the researchers have discovered something fantastic. When a hug lasts 20 seconds, there is a therapeutic effect on the body and mind. The reason is that a sincere embrace produces a hormone called “oxytocin”, also known as the love hormone. This substance has many benefits in our physical and mental health, helps us, among other things, to relax, to feel safe and calm our fears and anxiety. This wonderful tranquilizer is offered free of charge every time we have a person in our arms, who cradled a child, who cherish a dog or a cat, that we are dancing with our partner, the closer we get to someone or simply hold the Shoulders of a friend.

A famous quote by psychotherapist Virginia Satir goes, “We need 4 hugs a day for survival. We need 8 hugs a day for maintenance. We need 12 hugs a day for growth.” Whether those exact numbers have been scientifically proven remains to be seen, but there is a great deal of scientific evidence related to the importance of hugs and physical contact. Here are some reasons why we should hug::

1. STIMULATES OXYTOCIN

Oxytocin is a neurotransmitter that acts on the limbic system, the brain’s emotional centre, promoting feelings of contentment, reducing anxiety and stress, and even making mammals monogamous. It is the hormone responsible for us all being here today. You see this little gem is released during childbirth, making our mothers forget about all of the excruciating pain they endured expelling us from their bodies and making them want to still love and spend time with us. New research from the University of California suggests that it has a similarly civilising effect on human males, making them more affectionate and better at forming relationships and social bonding. And it dramatically increased the libido and sexual performance of test subjects. When we hug someone, oxytocin is released into our bodies by our pituitary gland, lowering both our heart rates and our cortisol levels. Cortisol is the hormone responsible for stress, high blood pressure, and heart disease.

2. CULTIVATES PATIENCE

Connections are fostered when people take the time to appreciate and acknowledge one another. A hug is one of the easiest ways to show appreciation and acknowledgement of another person. The world is a busy, hustle-bustle place and we’re constantly rushing to the next task. By slowing down and taking a moment to offer sincere hugs throughout the day, we’re benefiting ourselves, others, and cultivating better patience within ourselves.

3. PREVENTS DISEASE

Affection also has a direct response on the reduction of stress which prevents many diseases. The Touch Research Institute at the University of Miami School of Medicine says it has carried out more than 100 studies into touch and found evidence of significant effects, including faster growth in premature babies, reduced pain, decreased autoimmune disease symptoms, lowered glucose levels in children with diabetes, and improved immune systems in people with cancer.

4. STIMULATES THYMUS GLAND

Hugs strengthen the immune system. The gentle pressure on the sternum and the emotional charge this creates activates the Solar Plexus Chakra. This stimulates the thymus gland, which regulates and balances the body’s production of white blood cells, which keep you healthy and disease free.

5. COMMUNICATION WITHOUT SAYING A WORD

Almost 70 percent of communication is nonverbal. The interpretation of body language can be based on a single gesture and hugging is an excellent method of expressing yourself nonverbally to another human being or animal. Not only can they feel the love and care in your embrace, but they can actually be receptive enough to pay it forward to others based on your initiative alone.

6. SELF-ESTEEM

Hugging boosts self-esteem, especially in children. The tactile sense is all-important in infants. A baby recognizes its parents initially by touch. From the time we’re born our family’s touch shows us that we’re loved and special. The associations of self-worth and tactile sensations from our early years are still imbedded in our nervous system as adults. The cuddles we received from our Mom and Dad while growing up remain imprinted at a cellular level, and hugs remind us at a somatic level of that. Hugs, therefore, connect us to our ability to self love.

7. STIMULATES DOPAMINE

Everything everyone does involves protecting and triggering dopamine flow. Low dopamine levels play a role in the neurodegenerative disease Parkinson’s as well as mood disorders such as depression. Dopamine is responsible for giving us that feel-good feeling, and it’s also responsible for motivation! Hugs stimulate brains to release dopamine, the pleasure hormone. Dopamine sensors are the areas that many stimulating drugs such as cocaine and methamphetamine target. The presence of a certain kinds of dopamine receptors are also associated with sensation-seeking.

8. STIMULATES SEROTONIN

Reaching out and hugging releases endorphins and serotonin into the blood vessels and the released endorphins and serotonin cause pleasure and negate pain and sadness and decrease the chances of getting heart problems, helps fight excess weight and prolongs life. Even the cuddling of pets has a soothing effect that reduces the stress levels. Hugging for an extended time lifts one’s serotonin levels, elevating mood and creating happiness.

9. PARASYMPATHETIC BALANCE

Hugs balance out the nervous system. The skin contains a network of tiny, egg-shaped pressure centres called Pacinian corpuscles that can sense touch and which are in contact with the brain through the vagus nerve. The galvanic skin response of someone receiving and giving a hug shows a change in skin conductance. The effect in moisture and electricity in the skin suggests a more balanced state in the nervous system – parasympathetic.

Embrace, embrace with your heart.~~

art: Dorina Costras

Losing Oneself After Being Married to a Narcissist – Invisible Illness – Medium

Much of her experience rings true , similar traits do show up..

Rejection of myself , our 1st pregnancy , projection of Blame and Shame

only 3 months in a marriage . Horrific birthing support and rape

and trauma and fear , compliance in my awareness that though he was

not happy, nor pleased , what was his was his….and indeed it became worse

and very natural for his exit to salvage himself in all ways 1st . Greed

and power are covenants that prohibit equality , normalcy , partnership

and a healthy foundation for children/grandchildren … Taking anything of

mine, any joy , monies , reputation , foundation etc gives him great joy .

Illness even more so, being his target for over 40 years , a way to get empathy,

sympathy and support from source supply/partner , who made him the man

he is today …peter pan .

#GrowthisOptional

,For as long as I can remember I have never been in control. The significant people in my life have controlled me. I have to take some accountability for this, and I do. But I think I never learned…
— Read on medium.com/invisible-illness/lessons-on-losing-oneself-after-being-married-to-a-narcissist-f8111486dfe0