Being Blunt with the Distortions of a Narcissistic

Years of experience, wasted efforts ,and core needs abused.

6 years in , it was undeniable

With 3 sons 6 and under and

no income or money or place

to go to , I had the awareness

that I would receive little from

him .

To a degree , I did not feel I

would ever trust or love again

and I did not want another

man ” fathering 3 sons ” who

were possessions of our Boss.

Just as he considered me ,

examples had accumulated

beyond denial .

*Coming home from work

and announcing a trip to

Germany with his childhood

friend who had no morals

and I was aware of his willing

participation in whoring

with his Bud . Later he would

share his experience through

his friends name to me .

I knew but had to ignore it

for the sake of our sons .

When I did discuss it with

the wives of his friends it was

” normalized ” ; these ladies

were professionals , mothers,

living well , designer cloths

and always had a cocktail in

front of them .

I did not fit in his world and it

was all he knew and there was

stagnation ,no growth and no

intimacy. Slow and painful

death . The abuses increased

after building our home upon

his acknowledgment that he

had over extended himself

and his obligations were not

allowing his personal needs

wants and desires .

And then there was that ever

present , never ending toxic

bond with his Mom .

Is WAR cost our family dearly

and has largely been ignored

legally ; and I grasp his

winning trumps the needs of

our sons and grandchildren

for I am dead to him , he has

never ” been interested ” .

Sadly all that perceived on

highness , mask a dark ,cold

calculating shadow at War

with light , growth ,forgiveness

letting go , equality balance

accountability, responsibility .

I came into his life in peace

trust , love and divinity , only

to be cut off and disposed of

upon finding his next

companion who relished

the strategic targeting , spell

work , lies etc

Nearly dead , ran for her

life ,forgetting her salvation

and redemption ,still joyful

to denounce me .

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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