Tag: abuse

Anger

“If you don’t like something someone is doing that’s your shadow”

“If you have a negative judgement about someone that’s a projection”

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“If you feel angry that’s actually your past trauma getting triggered”

“If you feel a strong NO to something that’s your ego being in resistance”

And-

“All of these are opportunities to look within. Work on yourself. As well as open and surrender your resistance”

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I used to believe these things.

They informed my life and my choices.

Yes, sometimes they are true.

They are not rules to be applied blindly to everything.

Like many “conscious women” they paved the way for my own ritualized self harm in the form of pathological self gaslighting.

They drained my life force and dissociated me from my self protective instincts and wisdom.

They entrapped me in narcissistic cult/abusive relationship dynamics.

They groomed me to be perfect prey.

I have watched so many people lost in this labyrinth of false spirituality, completely disconnected from themselves.

Completely dissociated from their own precious human existence. Their own sacred inner knowing.

Getting no where in their “healing” or “awakening”.

Spinning their wheels with no wisdom.

Trapped in the mind and held hostage by these beliefs.

Beliefs which I now believe are a kind of virus that originated from the minds of abusers wrapped in spiritual robes.

I have seen women’s healthy defenses completely dismantled by this paradigm.

I have watched women become sick and sucked dry because of these beliefs.

One woman I loved even died.

Anger is what broke this spell for me.

Anger is what clarified my ability to see.

Anger was the medicine that brought me back to life.

Anger is what grounded me back into my body and sanity.

Anger is exactly what this paradigm does not want you to feel and own.

Now I wonder who would be motivated to tell you that?

Trauma Bonds& Children

Did you know that we’re not the only ones who experience trauma-bonding in toxic relationships?

If you have a narcissist in your home with your children (as their parent or otherwise), they will become trauma-bonded, too.

This partly explains why many children, regardless of age, seem to “side” with the narcissistic parent. There are other reasons for this, but trauma bonding is one of the primary ones. They can’t help themselves.

I wrote an article about the damage narcissists does to children. You can read it here:

👉 https://bit.ly/NarcissistsDevastateChildren

Just as you have a hard time analyzing why you dislike the narcissist, but can’t seem to leave them, children are even less equipped to handle trauma-bonding and the other symptoms that arise from narcissistic abuse.

Many of the same dynamics that you experience in your relationship with the narcissist, your children are also experiencing, no matter how much you may try to shield them.

For example, if the narcissist is your partner and they constantly cheat on you, your children experience the backlash from this, as well. And not only from the narcissist, unfortunately. Think about it…if you’re constantly cheated on by the narcissist, how many hours do you spend playing detective, checking out social media for proof, researching narcissism, having meltdowns in your bedroom, and chatting in the forums?

What often happens is that children are not only ignored and neglected by the narcissist, but you can’t be present with them, either, when you are constantly devastated by repeated infidelities and other relationship dramas.

But aside from that, your children become trauma-bonded to the very person you’re trying to protect them from. There’s really no way to shield them from this if there is a narcissist in the home.

Just as you become euphoric over relationship crumbs, so do children.

Just as you become devastated by the lies, so do children.

We want to believe that children are emotionally resilient, but we are now seeing the devastating effects of this old belief. Just as with us, the trauma they experience becomes deeply embedded and affects them their whole lives…often leading them into their own toxic relationships as they mature and become adults.

When there is a narcissist in the home, children cannot learn what healthy love is and many of their own needs are overlooked or unnoticed. There isn’t a magical bubble that protects them from the dysfunctional dynamics of toxic relationships with dysfunctional people.

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Ready to put up an electric fence? Then (if you haven’t already), make sure you watch my free workshop on severing trauma bonds.

🖥️ https://bit.ly/7StepsBreaktheNarcissisticSpell

Always thinking of you. Xo

Kim

Trauma Response


The inability to receive support from others is a trauma response.
Your “I don’t need anyone, I’ll just do it all myself” conditioning is a survival tactic. And you needed it to shield your heart from abuse, neglect, betrayal, and disappointment from those who could not or would not be there for you.
From the parent who was absent and abandoned you by choice or the parent who was never home from working three jobs to feed and house you.
From the lovers who offered sexual intimacy but never offered a safe haven that honoured your heart.
From the friendships and family who ALWAYS took more than they ever gave.
From all the situations when someone told you “we’re in this together” or “I got you” then abandoned you, leaving you to pick up the pieces when shit got real, leaving you to handle your part and their part, too.
From all the lies and all the betrayals.
You learned along the way that you just couldn’t really trust people. Or that you could trust people, but only up to a certain point.
Extreme-independence IS. A. TRUST. ISSUE.
You learnt: if I don’t put myself in a situation where I rely on someone, I won’t have to be disappointed when they don’t show up for me, or when they drop the ball… because they will ALWAYS drop the ball EVENTUALLY right?
You may even have been intentionally taught this protection strategy by generations of hurt ancestors who came before you.
Extreme-independence is a preemptive strike against heartbreak.
So, you don’t trust anyone.
And you don’t trust yourself, either, to choose people.
To trust is to hope, to trust is to be vulnerable.
“Never again,” you vow.
But no matter how you dress it up and display it proudly to make it seem like this level of independence is what you always wanted to be, in truth it’s your wounded, scarred, broken heart behind a protective brick wall.
Impenetrable. Nothing gets in. No hurt gets in. But no love gets in either.
Fortresses and armor are for those in battle, or who believe the battle is coming.
It’s a trauma response.
The good news is trauma that is acknowledged is trauma that can be healed.
You are worthy of having support.
You are worthy of having true partnership.
You are worthy of love.
You are worthy of having your heart held.
You are worthy to be adored.
You are worthy to be cherished.
You are worthy to have someone say, “You rest. I got this.” And actually deliver on that promise.
You are worthy to receive.
You are worthy to receive.
You are worthy.
You don’t have to earn it.
You don’t have to prove it.
You don’t have to bargain for it.
You don’t have to beg for it.
You are worthy.
Worthy.
Simply because you exist.

  • Jamila White

No ByPass for Anger & Rage

“You don’t get to bypass your anger and your rage, and call yourself peaceful in your avoidance. Your ability to feel anger or rage is not an accident. On the contrary, it is a great gift.

Rage is an intelligent fire. It is infused with its own magic, and born of love. And we need this intelligent fire to unfreeze ourselves from the glaciers of time.

Rage is not innately ugly. That which summons it, usually is. The platitude Love is all there is does not also recognize that if this is so, then all things must be born of the One Love. So how do they become so distorted and painful on their ways down from eternity to the nitty-gritty human experience?

Rage is not hate. Hate emerges from rage not recognized, responsibility not taken, the projection of blame for one’s own suffering onto others who are not to blame.

Rage places responsibility where it belongs. Rage recognizes what our part is in our suffering. Rage also recognizes when we are carrying the responsibility that belongs with someone else. Rage refuses to carry the inappropriate burden of the choices made by others. Rage fights back for a change that creates balance and justice. Rage is not the great punisher, but the equalizer and the liberator.

If you do not walk through the fires of your rage, or you do not admit that rage lives within you, you cannot find the dancing prayer that opens the gates of The Wildness. You will have too many holes burned into your vessel. If you cannot hold it, you cannot experience it, and it will not free you, so you may not enter.

You will attempt to howl at the moon in all her glory, and your breath will escape from the hole in the back of your neck, or on the right side of your chest or out of your belly. You will wail and remember that your rage cannot be nearly as terrible as is life as a piece of swiss cheese.

Without your intelligent fire, parts of you will remain cold and isolated, separate from the hearth and home at the core of your being. They are there because you thought they were compromising your survival. But you can see now, can’t you, that without them survival is as good as it gets, and you want to thrive?

So find that rage, that intelligent fire, and call your children home. Release them from the bindings of blame and shame that is not theirs. Thank them. Welcome them. Feed them. Light up the night sky. Become whole, and let your rage be cleansed of guilt and shame, so it is given back its holy shine.

Rage can protect the innocent. Defrost the frozen, traumatized parts of your experience. Defend the sacred, the wild, and the natural. Rage can inform peace, but it won’t bring us all the way. No, for that you need everything you are. But without your rage, you won’t be able to retrieve yourself and become whole enough to find out.

Your journey is epic.

You are a miracle.

The Wildness is howling for your return.

Bring your rage with you.”

~ Alison Nappi

@alisonnappi

https://www.facebook.com/alisonnappi.author

Art: Julia Jeffrey,

Stonemaiden Art

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Implosion of Narcissistic Is Inevitable

This morning out side of my

room , I am blessed with no

one here at the moment ! The

basic deal yesterday and I

chose to do very little .

The birds are joy filled and

singing on high and there are

moments when there is no

traffic and the singing sounds

are pure ! Heaven on Earth

includes non disturbed nature

sight and sound ; and sound

will be at my discretion and

mostly my discernment 🙏🏡

As will be guest ie visitors

who notify me as to their

intention to see me .

I deserve the peace and I

have grasp the continued

attempts to alienate me

are they indeed war between

shadow and light that ends

the choke hold of behaviors

such as narcissistic for several

reasons to intend to expound

on .

So I was only present a few

times when my abuser , took

the low road , became the

victim who was entitled to

walk out on his family , and

his ” partner ” , quickly co

habitat with his new supply

and all the horrific abuses

targeting me in intensified

and I was not allowed to be

in her airspace . The times

I was she childishly had to

pointy place me far away

or behind her ( as with

3rd son’s high school

graduation)

I wasn’t allowed to attend his

college graduation , nor his

wedding , nor have I met his

2 sons .

I did not pay towards these life

events so I did not deserve to

attend .

So the wedding pictures have

the newer supply , who split

after almost same year span

and nearly dead .

She called as I visited , heard

my voice and I heard her

screaming !?!?!

So this is his life or was .,,

Not being a man of change

or communication with

honesty , I have noted the

signs of implosion .

I am not the example , I was

the warning ; it would not

serve me to make any

efforts towards helping him

as the last example I

experienced was the end of

any more test .

Legal business matters are

more urgent , for several

reasons and as usual he goes

silent and disconnected ;

not an ounce of cooperation

as our sons hold tight, the

past is present . I again can

do nor say anything .

I am resting a lot , mentally

holding peace and faith , but

my body has other

experiences.

A 1st partner , contractually

owned me through the laws

of a Common Wealth that up

holds the standard quo in

patriarchal abuses that’s

gained clarity as we

experience, the country of

men, not a country of law .

That paradigm is domestic

abuse and domestic terror

and has no place on New

Earth !

It’s way past time ; I

surrendered to the path both

the marital partnership and

the resent attempt to partner

while doing business as well

as my living space and

reducing my income income

as indicated this is his business

and his faith upholds these

acts !

Both feel chosen and enabled

to target me , attempting to

leave me very little . Age ,

health, and a conscious that

says this is wrong or illegal.

The repeated lessons of not

finding legal assistance , left

no doubts who did not have

an interest in my situation

and as such cost me the truth

towards getting charges ;

same repetitive lack of

concern and consciousness

that’s a red flag 🚩

Neither are interested in doing

the right thing . This is the

energy that sucked up our

sons , and we all know

we have free will… eventually.

Healing is supported , choices

are made , resolutions do

exist , and I’m quite sure I am

not responsible nor deserving

of being targeted by anyone

for any reason ; it does say

more about the other person

but for now I’m safe , seizing

the restorative aspects of

this fraudulent attempt at

divestment; while assured

I was invested and would

not know I was being taken

and that no one would care .

Excellent response by Deputies

magistrates and Agency on

Aging , as well as Austin

who has my back and for Spirit

who assures me , all is coming

together in true liberation

of any energies who do not

support me and I am grateful

to be closing out ancestral

trauma for both sides of my

family ; that our grandchildren

as well as we , never have to

have these abuses come up

for replay , repeating the

trauma .

Blood Lines are cleared and

new again for New Earth and

New Beginnings !

Blessings on this 4th

Let freedom / Liberation and

Unity rock & roll

Dona Luna

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Psychiatric

A quote from the transcript of the 3rd BBC panorama programme ‘Taken on Trust’ broadcast on 3 October 2004 by Dr Mike Shooter who was president of the Royal College of Psychiatrists from 2002-2005.( Power Politics and Pharmaceuticals)

Truth Tellers

As a child I was treated like a snitch for being honest . I recall telling Dad that Mom was smoking when she told him she was not .

I was young and may not have understood the dynamics but I did not lie or ignore what I saw . Not to say that I was validated rather I was not treated well for refusing the shadow of lies

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