Tag: erasing families

The Inconvenience of your Illness to Narcissistic

It was soul snatching to become aware just how little support I had in matters of my heath . It began with pregnancy and only grew worse .

A fall and sprained elbow had to await his need to continue an evening out of dinner and drink.

Hours after my fall ,I screamed as I tried to move my arm ,I had thrown up in pain ; did he take me to the ER

A former Vietnam ” Mash ” Dr examined me and gave me a shot of pain medicine.

Certainly had complaints when he helped wash my hair , commenting on my long hair , stating I should cut it off ! as it’s too long and I wasn’t worth his time nor effort

Lots of that ; much shadow involved that did much harm to our family .

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Trauma & Psychological Abuse

Some of the ways alienators will abuse and manipulate their children is by making them believe lies that will become foundational to their control.

Here are a few:

Your other parent is dangerous.

Your other parent doesn’t care for you.

Your other parent is unavailable for you.

Your other parent is a bad influence.

Which then leads to the abuser being the “better” choice:

I am the only parent who truly loves you.

I am the only parent who keeps you safe.

I am the only parent who is here for you.

I am the parent who sacrifices everything for you.

And results in the child having feelings of:

Betrayal (towards the alienator) for still desiring their “bad” parent.

Feeling guilty when they talk to or communicate with their “bad” parent.

Only being able to love and interact with their abuser.

Cravings by KD Lang

We are a nation of addicts by

grand design , lulled to sleep

under educated and fed untruths

And lies

I’m a truther and that’s cost me

the peace in life that has taught

me well.

Discoveries of ancestral shadow, and light .

Points to the horrible facts

that my paternal grandfather

had many addictions and was

highly abusive to my grandmother and their kids

He grew corn , fields of corn

He had boxes of cash in high

currencies.

He pushed Granny Zola , causing her to fall and loose their son David .

He won in a divorce , accusing her of cheating

She was seen in a public place having coffee with a man

Her parents gave them 120 acres . She got nothing .

She left with the cloths on her back , Running for her life .

She was divorced in 1953. He prevailed .

The children of tender years were placed with relatives.

Her Mom died in 1953 .

She struggled for the rest of her life , various rentals etc

She was given Valium to aide her her loss , shame and awareness of the injustice .

She had 5 sons and 2 daughters

She came from at least 5 daughters and 2 sons .

She was the most loving human being on this planet !

I know I have cleared the blood lines , experiencing much of Minnie Zola’s trauma and am honored to have been in the presence of GreatGrandmother , Grandmother , in the spring of 1952 . Great Grandmother was in her heavy coat with a scarf on her head . As her 1st grandchild , by Dad I sense it was determined that day that I could and would end the shadow abuses and expose the forced addictions after living a nightmare , having that abuse supported by family , friends and church .

Dad had a very low tolerance for alcoholism and drank very little . I know he threw out Moms brother who showed up at out home after I was 12 or so.

An incident when I was younger of their being out dancing and a passionate disagreement occurred and Mom threw her rings into a patch of grass or a field . She took us back to the scene and I found it for her . I don’t recall their dancing and Honkey Tonkin after that .

Both parents smoked and that was addiction but I inherited Dad’s intolerance for alcohol but failed to be aware of mask and secret manipulation as I was triangles which was an early childhood awareness ; Mom was guarded and competitive with out cause . She did not understand the bond between Dad and I and it felt like a hole in my heart . I spoke the truth early on and got her in hot water with Dad whom she told she had quit smoking .

Emotional Partners ; not a healthy role for a child . As a medicated trauma and abuse victim I did the same injustice to our eldest child as did his Dad . Our son caught a lot of abuse due to his love for me .

I am proud to have gotten off the ” junk” RX and whole matrix of addiction legally that destroys lives or ends them .

However there was and is a lot of fallout and damage done and healing for our sons .

I have not been in the mindset to repeat any of the past and pushed through forced addictions and of feeling bound to someone who doesn’t stand beside me with an arm on my back , instead of a sword .

I’m addicted to the peace that my heart has always been a longing and my place in this world .

Recent challenges did not reverse my direction , my life long intent .

For this last major test I am grateful that so much was exposed and Krystal has helped release even more trauma which I was much better at , than times past .

Assured that I am not addicted in mind , body or spirit .

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna🙏❤️😘🎉

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Bullied Children

Bullied children grow up robbed of the benefits of what I like to call their “natural inheritance” — all the positive traits and qualities they possess, are born with and/or work hard to obtain and build. Abusers and bullies (whether they be narcissistic parents or even childhood peers with burgeoning narcissistic and/or antisocial traits) often subject these innocent children to their malignant and envious bullying. They teach their victims to see themselves through the distorted lens and projections of their abusers — they are fed lies about themselves that more accurately reflect the traits of the bullies who know these victims surpass them. Until the victim gets accurate feedback outside of the abusive environment, they often do not realize how intelligent, talented, beautiful, and valuable they are. They are still seeing themselves and treating themselves the way their abusers trained them to do so. They don’t get direct access to benefiting from these traits until they see themselves accurately (i.e. an intelligent child continually called “stupid” by their bullies will usually hide their abilities to avoid being mocked, and due to low self-confidence created by the bullying). That’s why deprogramming these messages are so vital in adulthood — and figuratively/mentally handing back malignant projections to their bullies where they belong. These bullies were describing themselves all along and got to put themselves on a pedestal by targeting a scapegoat that represented everything they did not possess. You deserve the rights to your natural inheritance and to see yourself accurately. 💝

#narcissisticabuse #childhoodbullying #complextrauma #ptsd #cptsd

Narcissist excel at projection & lack of responsibility

The narcissist Sociopath and psychopath are extremely tactical at what they do. their patient and their goal is to convince everyone else that they are the good guy the nice guy or a girl while you are the unstable one insane crazy dramatic over-the-top even abusive they have ways of doing this they practice it when it’s just you and them they will be calm well collected but say some thing that they know will trigger you because they know all your triggers at first you don’t react over the top but they’re gonna watch your emotion build and then they will continue to say more and more triggers until you finally react with reactive abuse. Then they will say something like I am not going to speak with you if you were going to treat me this way I’m not gonna tolerate it. I’m not going to engage with you when you are irrational you’re acting crazy. Then they will ignore you or Stonewall you which will only increase your rage or your emotional rage. I should say you will feel like you were going crazy remember this is all part of their plan after a while they will start doing this in front of people it
especially if you have children they will really do this in front of them making mom look insane While the narcissist looks like the good guy or calm and composed trying to calm down the victim. keep in mind that this individual this abuser has already been talking to everyone else behind your back trying to convince everybody that you’re the crazy one that they are the victim of abuse. In actuality you are the victim of severe abuse but no one is going to believe you because they appear so nice so calm so rational it’s psychological warfare and when you are going up against people that have no morals feel no empathy or sympathy no remorse no guilt and live only to serve their own needs and wants it is damn near impossible to beat them at their own game. These individuals are highly dangerous whether they are the physical or not doesn’t matter the emotional toll emotional damage can take years and years to unravel and rewire the best way to handle these people when they are trying to trigger you it’s a gray rock them which can be very difficult when your emotions are running so high. Just remember to look for the signs to notice what they’re doing and when they’re doing it and leave the room do not let them trigger you you’re far more powerful than you think these individuals do not go after weak people They go after people with high supply, people with empathy sympathy intelligence love happiness all the things that they themselves lack they are like a dark void trying to suck all your light out don’t give it to Them and they’ll get bored with you and eventually leave. But don’t think it’ll stop there they have a tendency to try to keep you on the hook continue the abuse even after you’re gone especially if you have children but you can guard yourself against them.

“Jamie Larsen”

Dads Matter

To all you psychotic alienating moms out there who make YOUR kids

“Your World”

And who use YOUR

“Mini Me’s”

as a wallet, cause your

“Just a single mom doing her best”

You are psychologically enmeshed with YOUR children. YOUR kids will never understand how to create healthy boundaries and will suffer in every aspect of their lives because of the psychopathy YOU taught them.

WE ARE COMING FOR YOU.

To all you Dads. DON’T GIVE UP.

I was an alienated child. There are millions of us. We don’t appreciate being robbed of the other half of who we are. We need you. Don’t leave us behind. I didn’t have the words to tell my dad. I didn’t know that going with moms flow for my own sanity, was harming me more.

I didn’t know.

I was just a kid.

I didn’t know how much of me was him.

I didn’t know, when I told him I didn’t want to go, that I was ripping his heart from his chest and sealing his fate.

I didn’t know.

But, now I’m grown and I know better.

It’s just too bad it’s too late.

We’ve lost in court too many times to count. We’re broke and heartbroken.

He is defeated.

I am not.

I got my dad on my shoulder and a lifetime of memories without him to motivate me. All I have right now are these flyer’s.

I plastered the kids street, so

THEY KNOW

HCBM’s family is next, cause they are coconspirators and enable more generational trauma. When school and little league start, the flyers will be there too. I will create awareness where I can, because if it’s not happening to you, you just

don’t know.