Discovery of this adaptation with the father of my child , was
further enhanced by an attitude of ownership . If I were graded t
it would have been incomplete in every way . His nurture was
seldom and utilized to remedy a situation , he was not able
to navigate emotionally. In our 1st year , I was subjected to
devastating abuses that I had to review in triggered C- PTSD
which was not known to me at the time…it was a hell
come to earth.
In denial of anything but surface , friendship that often insulted
even that , and the unexpected rages never afforded me security.
That became personified in his partner , and the committee of
3 enjoyed the insults that occurred when I was allowed to
participate in son’s life experiences .. I was not allowed knowledge
of much including a near death crisis as our youngest attended
college out of state .. Of course he feels I failed as a Mom
an addict via psychiatry by choice to get out of being his mom.
Lacking emotion , adhering to the male model of affluence,
belonging to the right clubs , knowing the right person to call
a ” brother” who will aide and never tell. His nickname in
his home ” brother” , cannot connect emotionally , a feminine
reaction abused out of him? Or modeled by a society that has
allowed his life lessons to be ” evaporated ” if disagreeable to
uphold his perception of importance in his world.
I represent his failures , his secrets , his failings , and his imbalance
of masculine and feminine energy . Disrespect , and Abuse is
from inside out , and very repressive and depressive .. he
withheld to the point of reducing himself to a void , and my
surrogacy as he embraced breakneck change and success in
his career , our home became ever more a place to drop in,
participate as much as he could , much in the social aspect
giving the look of normal family …Doors were never shut against
him , he busted them through ..he had ever increasing
meetings or out of towns , speaking his truths , ie confessing
by 3rd person stories , always another guy , which began 3
months into our marriage . His employees also were his cover
for sexual pursuits that I painfully discovered never conveyed
love, intimacy or attachment .
As a very sick, physically ill , misdiagnosed mental patient
his detachment was utterly soul snatching , as I painfully
watched the erosion of our ” family” knowing his search
for love would never end .. Draining those who failed him
he has chosen to continue his efforts to hold me responsible
for my abuse and the loss of all the connectedness with our
sons, his brother/friends , ever ” his ” …
Trump talks about his views on fatherhood in a series of past interviews
— Read on fortune.com/2016/04/24/trump-act-like-wife/
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