Tag: legacy

Shining

I crave a gentle life.

I know what hell looks like already.

More harsh lessons aren’t necessary.

Give me soft evenings, sweet as chocolate.

Nights worn like wool.

Let’s laugh till we’re in tears,

alongside those who make loving us look easy.

I want to breathe in the air of everywhere I once dreamt of making memories.

Though my hardships have shaped me,

in beautiful and painful ways that I will forever be grateful for,

I want my days to be full and affectionate.

I want to be formless,

someone who flows and moves without worry.

Some days I’m water.

Others, I’m lava.

Both are real.

Both are me.

All versions of me are honest and necessary.

Who I am is safe when respected.

I’d rather be a great friend to a few

than an acquaintance to many.

I’d rather be widely accepting

than widely accepted.

I want to be the one that others know it’s safe to turn to.

I want to be the person who I needed all those years ago.

There’s a softness within me that wasn’t always there.

It grew from heinous places.

Cold, callous, remorseful places.

My softness is my greatest strength.

To not be hardened by the very things meant to break you,

that’s what I’m most proud of.

Now, everyone near me gets my light.

This way we all shine.

– J. Raymond

The False Self From Childhood- Eric Jones

The False Self From Childhood

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I ran across a developmental psychology theory not long ago that I’ve had bouncing around in the back of my head ever since. It comes from the pediatrician and psychoanalyst Donald Winnicott, who coined the term “good-enough mother” to describe the everyday kind of parent who does their best to meet their child’s needs and only fails at doing so in ordinary and understandable, even inevitable ways. His theory is about the origins and development of two distinct selves in each of us, a “true self” and a “false self.”

As babies and very young children, Winnicott says, each of us instinctively expresses our true selves: we cry when we’re hungry or tired or in distress; as toddlers, we act with creativity and spontaneity without much (if any) thought about what’s correct or proper, and we can have the most dramatic emotional outbursts when we don’t get what we want. We can’t help but express our true selves when we’re very young, because we can’t do otherwise; we need what we need and we want what we want, and we do our best to get it.

And here’s the crux of the whole thing: If our caregivers are attuned and capable, if they’re able to read our true expressions of need and want and (mostly) gratify them most of the time, it strengthens a belief in us that our most honest needs are okay, and that we ourselves are relatable and worthy. If we receive this “true self” recognition and reassurance as children, then we’re much more likely to move into adulthood connected to our true self, willing to live openly, alive and present to our most deeply felt longings.

But some of us don’t get that much-needed reassurance. As very young children we express our truest needs and our caregivers can’t respond adequately or consistently, due to things like depression or addiction, and we come to learn that our most basic needs aren’t acceptable or relatable. Winnicott says that in cases like this a child becomes “compliant,” meaning they don’t just stop expressing their truest needs to caregivers unable or unwilling to meet them, they lose touch with those deepest needs by convincing themselves they weren’t the very things they needed in the first place. This adaptive story is, according to Winnicott, the birth of the “false self,” which is also the compliant self.

More simply put, I think the theory is that when we’re very young, we need to have adults around us who are strong enough and capable enough and loving enough that we can express our wants and desires with as much anti-social self-centeredness as humanly possible, and they will consistently love us unconditionally, accept us, and give us what we need most of the time. By doing so, they teach us that we can truly be our most authentic selves and the world will still hold us, accept us, even love us. And when we don’t get that, we learn the opposite: that the world might not accept us and almost certainly won’t love us if we express our true needs or callings. And even more, we’ll do such a good job convincing ourselves we don’t want what we in fact need, that we’ll live lives divorced from our creativity and passions because we can’t find our way back to them after those first and formative lies. We’ll be lost in our false selves, accommodating others, not trusting the world to be strong or capable enough to hold us dearly.

Solitude

The sanctity of solitude is often overshadowed by societal norms that place undue emphasis on partnerships, as if they are the ultimate achievement or a necessary component of a fulfilling life. This perception couldn’t be more misguided. In truth, solitude is a profound and sacred opportunity bestowed upon us by the Universe. It is an invitation to embark on an intimate journey of self-discovery, spiritual connection, and personal growth.

When you embrace solitude, you create a sacred space to deeply connect with your inner self. This is a time to listen to your own voice, free from the noise and expectations of the external world. It’s a chance to uncover your true essence, to explore your passions, dreams, and desires without any external influence. In these moments, you can begin to understand and appreciate who you are at your core, discovering the unique qualities that make you who you are.

Solitude is also a time to connect with the Divine, however you define it. Whether through meditation, prayer, or simply spending time in nature, being alone allows you to tap into the deeper currents of existence. It offers a space to reflect on life’s mysteries, to seek answers to profound questions, and to feel the presence of a higher power guiding you. This connection can provide immense comfort, clarity, and a sense of purpose.

Moreover, solitude presents a unique opportunity to reconnect with Nature. In our busy lives, we often overlook the beauty and wisdom of the natural world. Time spent alone in nature can be incredibly healing and grounding. It reminds us of our inherent connection to the Earth and the cycles of life. Nature’s rhythms can teach us about patience, growth, and the importance of simply being.

During this sacred time of solitude, you have the chance to fall in love with yourself. It’s a journey of self-acceptance and self-celebration. You can appreciate your strengths, acknowledge your weaknesses, and nurture your growth. It’s a time to honor your journey, recognizing the beauty in your struggles and triumphs. This self-love is not selfish; it is essential. When you love and honor yourself, you set a standard for how you wish to be treated by others.

On the other side of this period of deep self-connection, you will emerge with a newfound sense of self-awareness and self-worth. You will know yourself at a level that is both profound and empowering. From this place of inner strength and clarity, you will naturally attract relationships that resonate with your soul. These connections will not be forced or contrived; they will flow effortlessly, feeling like home to your spirit. You will magnetize people who see and appreciate you for who you truly are, fostering relationships built on mutual respect, love, and understanding.

In essence, solitude is not something to be feared or avoided; it is a gift to be embraced. It is a divine invitation to delve deeper into your being, to connect with the Universe, and to celebrate the magnificence of who you are. Trust in the process, cherish this sacred time, and know that when you emerge, you will do so with a heart full of love and a spirit ready to attract the relationships that align with your highest good.

Truth Within – Mary Long

The Truth has always been within us,

it may not have shown itself until

we were mentally and spiritually ready.

In these moments of strong escalating energies everything that was unseen is beginning to be seen in our outer world.

As our outer World continues to crumble through these chaotic times we are experiencing. We are opening up more to the celestial energies that are recalibrating our body and minds.

Expanding our awareness to be more connected to Spirit as we flow through these vibrant waves of change.

All of our desires as a collective consciousness are coming into fruition as we continue to purge all that has not been of love in our Hearts, this will continue until all of Humanity comes to a choice, we all must make.

These choices are not always going to be easy, nor simple because we are leaving the comfort of what we have been familiar with for many lifetimes.

Disclosure is happening at many levels of consciousness, but those who wish to keep humanity unconscious will use every means they can to continue keeping humanity in Fear. These are all distractions, the less we react to it, the more peaceful this realm becomes and the powers that were have no control over the minds of humanity.

Fear is the mind Killer, it will distort our thought process, try to push us off balance, it will push many back into their shells. Just know that this is what they want because they feed off those low dense energies. We must stop sustaining them.

There is nothing more that can be hidden from the Masses of Humanity, as we continue to Rise in the Light of Love all that has been dark on this Planet will be known by those who are ready to see.

Once we all come to a place of peace within and find that sacred love that has always been within our heart space the chaos that you feel within you will become more calm, more peaceful and we will all live in Balance on this Planet once again.

We will come to know our brothers and sisters of the Stars who have always been here but not seen.

Everything around us will become brighter, more vibrant colors, even the sounds of Nature become much more clear.

The best thing we can do for ourselves in these moments is to stop trying to prove who is right and who is wrong, because deep within all is always well, and is always perfect.

If we continue to engage in the deceptions and tyranny, we continue to create that energy that sustains the deep darkness of this World.

All must be forgiven with Love, even the deepest darkest parts of ourselves.

We must let go of it all and walk this Earth as if we are in a constant state of meditation, to be a peaceful presence in a world of discontent and chaos.

Then the blame game and all this tyranny will come to an end as humanity continues to unite and create a world of harmony and love.

Let all that disturbs your presence flow through you without attaching to it, be like a Filter of Love where everything that passes through us will be healed.

I love you Dear Ones, I know some days it may feel more intense than other days, but we signed up for this because we came here to heal all that isn’t love and bring balance back into this world of tyranny.

Keep Lighting up this World,

so the Darkness can be merged

Into the Light of Love. ❤

~ Mary Long

6-10-2024

Letting Go of Old Wounds

LETTING GO OF WOUNDS, TO BECOME MORE:

Some gentle, and loving rhetorical questions that I pray supports even just one person:

Are you still holding on to WOUNDS that caused you pain and suffering. Last week, last year, 30 years ago, or from your early childhood? Are you still consciously choosing to HOLD ON to those painful inner wounds. Are you ignoring that they are still there in the foreground or background of what you are creating in expression to self or any others? Where sub consciously pain lingers on, within you. And arises again and again in your creations, in any moment, in any experience, with any one.

For it is only in the choosing at each one’s perfect timing, that we LET GO of ‘past’ experiences that happened in that moment. And can seemingly create an experience of holding on to pain, that leads to inner sustained sufferings.

Old wounds, if not seen and let go of, create for the individual, new woundings that can occur again and again, ONLY as a self creational result of the old wounds still being held onto. Consciously or subconsciously, they run in the background or foreground.

It is an individual choice, to not ‘forgive’ self. Or not ‘forgive’ any other. Yet a lack of forgiveness is the choosing of simply, HOLDING ON to your own inner pain. When we ‘forgive’ our self, or any other outside of us, we are choosing to LET GO of our OWN human personality pain that is the cause of more suffering. In the highest DIVINE truth, there is never anything to forgive. It is a human misunderstood idea. The greater truth is in REPENTANCE. For if we have had thoughts, words or actions we are truly sorry for, we will WANT to change our own self and be a higher version the next time. If we have no inner repentance, we are effectively showing our CONSCIOUSNESS that we are not wishing to CHANGE. And so we are left be, as per one’s choice, to not expand into more consciousness, and will continue to play in a paradigm of lower energy frequencies. If we are choosing to not forgive another outside of us, we are choosing to hold on to lower frequency energies that harbour within us. So again our next created ‘reality’ will mirror that choice to us for us to see. There is always a choice, to let something go, from within you. So that you can create WITHOUT carrying inner energetic emotional or mental burdens (baggage) where inner programmes keep cycling and lower frequencies are still being operated. Generally speaking the lower three chakras that are lower energetic frequencies of fear, control and self serving desire that humanity HAS been immersed in for ions of ‘time’, that one by one, is lifting out of.

In this collective rising of humanities consciousness….Can you let go of wounds still carried. And if not now in such huge gifts of heightening frequencies and momentum, then when? And if not now then why? There is NO right or wrong choice for ANY being. There is just always choice. These are all quiet, inner, self reflective questions simply to thyself. They affect the human self and thus your creations. And thus this onward lifetime, after life and onward sojourn.

It is by making conscious choice to LET GO of your inner woundings (that hold onto lower energetic frequencies of HERTZ within you), you become lighter, of the higher frequencies, and weightless of inner burdens carried. Of less energetic density. The mind becomes less weighted down, for LOVE is weightlessness. When you let go of old traumas and old beliefs that have a HOLD over you and thus keep you CONTAINED, you set yourself free. More and more and more, until you are OUT of the old game and are sustaining a higher frequency state that can (if you wish) keep on rising.

Ever lasting eternal joy, and eternal peace arises from within you for no outer reasons. And your ever lasting eternalness is known consciously to you as your first state. These are not a result of outer life circumstances or outer acquisitions that feed the ego desires of being immersed and sustained IN a world of holographic temporary experiences. These states of being joy, love, eternal peace, bliss and harmony ARE your TRUE and very natural STATE of being. They are experienced within you, for no outer reason. It is this you return to being. And also MORE than this (more than 5D), if you choose…

Woundings, sufferings, burdens carried are let go of step by step, through your embodiment (awakening) journey. You take nothing within you, with you, except the Love within you. It is not a selfish love for self or for a few or all individuals. It is that LOVE becomes YOUR STATE of being. And so, in the knowing this is your TRUE state, may any being, allow themselves the gentle, inner, natural nurturing that pure love IS. Not the ego’s idea and delusion of love that is an idea of what love is, of the mind. For the mind does not FEEL Love. All Love, is God’s alone. And so to allow the Presence of love within you, to emerge AS YOU, as you let go, of any remaining woundings, emotional and mental pain that causes you and others, continued suffering.

And when you do SURRENDER anything just quietly, sincerely and genuinely, from WITHIN YOU, you are instantly filled. You FEEL the RELEASE. Because you are allowing your true essence to become you more. It is only a matter of each one’s timing. To let go of any inner pain still being carried. Holding on to pain, grasping it tightly of an experience, is holding on to the ‘old’ version of human you. The new version is NOT more ego and more defense. The new versions are simply…Purest Love as a state of being. Not only does the holding on to old wounds affect you, your life, your inner patterns that become repeated cycles, and are held within behaviours and reactions towards any other, it also affects your onward creations that will arise ONLY to lovingly SHOW YOU your own woundings are STILL present and running you, to be let go of.

And the deeper beauty of coming out of all wounding, all suffering, all misperceptions, the older beliefs and versions of you, is that you HOLD deep and continuous multiple layers of seeing. And a compassion for ALL others, anywhere. For you have known what it was like to live and feel pain, carry it, not understand it in the HIGHEST DIVINE TRUTH, and you understand what it feels like to THEN be set free. And so deeper kindness, gentleness, understanding of humaness, and love’s patience, allows you to hold space for all others. And often times, you will hold silent, quiet space, knowing to say nothing. For that can sometimes be the highest answer as your loving soul. A state where you see the perfection of everything, of every path, the perfection is beyond human, for it is as consciousness seeing multiple layers all at once. Everything just is. There is then nothing to TRY to mend outside of you. And everything to BE FROM. Give from. Where you allow your divine nature to become you more and more in conscious acts. As your energy, and your energy awareness. You are aware EVERYTHING and EVERY BEING is connected. And by that awareness, there is but ONE.

May you feel deeply, this is lovingly shared to support even just one person, and if not you, just let it go.

With Love Always

Amanda Lorence ❤️

9 June 2024

White Ravens

” Mom, in the animal kingdom the Mom releases the child to the wild…yes I replied , in some species , for whatever reason the Mom eats her young..”

* He was in college, independent and bearing shame , and I was awakening and thoughts like this response , came from a place of surprise that I had any prior knowledge, healthy useful knowledge left after 13 years of intense toxic prescriptive medications, and trauma upon trauma ..

A great mind

I have had strong sense of smell , and note hair cuts etc that I understand

as sensing /seeing 50 impressions in the space that most experience 7.

It is part of SuperHyperSensitivity and I am aware of one child having

this as related to trauma.

I have learned a lot in order to survive in a world who in large part

associate with the misinformation, uneducated, doctrine that’s been

our education , unless one goes rouge ….and learns how to seek the

truths that can be land mines ..seek and ye shall find ..

Thankful for this legitimate , scientific evidence 💯❤️🙌