Tag: Finances

The Medicalization of the American Mind – Mad In America

As I experienced the pathology of a diagnosis that was false; a cover up for Domestic, Spiritual,Emotional and financial abuse , I found myself loosing everything . Family destroyed, children ignored and after years of investment in the healing of children , I am surrendering to further investment in myself , with children who like their mother/father guide of 20 years plus , has a trauma bond , secrets, shame etc that’s predominate over healing . Ie : stuck, in denial, or desirous of my demise.

I have been toughened up enough to not show emotions , and not to invest my energies , where I’d prefer not to be any longer .

Watching on the sidelines, taking no interest in me whatsoever, living in distortions , and unforgiving . Knowing how their spirits and souls are affected , and not being heard , in any mode but shaming , blaming and disposal.

Our sons have been guided, by other mothers, wives and abusive relationships , that ” own ” them, and disallow that healing matters, due to the influence that healthy healing might have on their relationships.

Lashing out at me, years ago , requesting I commit suicide , not once but twice …setting me up to be illegally arrested …threatening me with exposure of sexual abuse , writing of these memories ,citing highly distorted experiences , 2 of 3 trying to buy my property , with no though to my future , deny the fact that healing is needed.

With knowledge and awareness of the destiny of actions and none actions , I have no choice but to release , forgive their actions/non actions , for a past , and present that is far from normal , far from love , that prefers secrets, disposal and non forgiveness , and I am assured and assuring that these shadow energies will not be my future.

My efforts to heal myself , will not be breached, of this I am sure , as everything I knew of love was attempted to be destroyed , but I held on .

My prayers for a life of spirit , of sharing experiences and wisdoms are at hand , after much effort , I know my worth , and pray for the deliverance of each child, and adult that lost their normal, natural path , due to a distorted, partner, addictive and abusive , debilitating drugging by psychiatry who have been instrumental in ” erasing families “.

Failure with my own children , who prefer status quo , has taught me well, as years of co council with young people their age , who favor me , and my wisdoms .

While that may not be my future , one on one for the drain on my energy , I will be writing , reading and moving forward unfettered by grievances, abuses etc …for that’s exactly what’s most desired ..that I give up and give in, which just isn’t realistic. Generational trauma and abuse has been resolved , I understand and respect free will, and release the painful , often horrific experiences of past , and disallow any repeats .

Dona Luna 🐸✌️😘❤️

One cause of fragility? Pathologizing our children with psychiatric diagnoses and focusing on a medical solution to life’s problems.
— Read on www.madinamerica.com/2023/05/medicalization-american-mind/

CNAs & my Blessing having had Destiny , and friends in Rehab

Destiny is on the right, and I could not have dreamed of a better caregiver , whom I plan to visit with, asap.

What a truly beautiful experience she provided , a bond created that’s normal and natural and blessed divinity .

This was posted on her wall, and I’m sure of the authenticity of these words … Earth Healing Angels ( with a few exceptions) are at risk, at work, overworked and underpaid…

Our healthcare system, must do better , be better …

Be a CNA they said. However, what they didn’t say was how fast we have to run after an exit seeking resident. Or how to deal with angry and upset residents who’s spitting in my face, scratching my arms to pieces, and hitting me in confusion. Or how to deal with a resident who’s deathly ill screaming for God to take them. Or how hard it is to deal with a resident during the holidays who never has any family come see them and they’re crying to you asking you why their family didn’t show up. Or how to juggle so many pages at one time. Or how to deal with the silent melt downs in the bathroom from the stress or losing your first resident. Or how to deal with the feeling of defeat after a long shift and wishing you could’ve done so much more but you didn’t have time to just juggle so much at once..

But I’ll tell you what. Nothing compares to joy you’ll feel when you give a resident an amazing shower and they tell you they love you just because you cleaned them. Or the bittersweet happiness you feel when residents grab you by the hand when they’re almost too weak to eat and just won’t let go of you because your presence is comforting them. Or when a resident who changes from hangry to absolutely happy from one meal just because you were there to help them eat. Or how trusted you feel the first time a resident remembers your name in a new facility when asking for certain favors. Or how important you feel when their family members ask YOU to do special favors for their loved one.

Being a cna is everything but easy. It’s exhausting, hard, emotional, aggravating, fast pace, heartbreaking and sometimes even ugly. But I can guarantee you there’s not another rewarding job such as this. I love my grouchy residents, my happy residents, my needy residents, my sad residents and even the residents who are completely dependent on the staff for their survival bc they can’t do anything for them self. Listening to these residents stories or their happiest moments, knowing they trust me with that much information is such a blessing and such a good feeling. No matter how hard my day was to deal with, how long it was, how busy it was, how it took my all that day just to get through my shift…

I absolutely love what I do. 💛