Tag: survivors

Being alone ( on your own)

Midwives of the Soul

The capacity to be alone is the capacity to love. It may look paradoxical to you, but it is not. It is an existential truth: only those people who are capable of being alone are capable of love, of sharing, of going into the deepest core of the other person—without possessing the other, without becoming dependent on the other, without reducing the other to a thing, and without becoming addicted to the other. They allow the other absolute freedom, because they know that if the other leaves, they will be as happy as they are now. Their happiness cannot be taken by the other, because it is not given by the other.

~Osho, The Power of Love. [ https://amzn.to/44xHS5F ]

art | Selma Mera, Twitter.

Stayed at this off grid place for about 6 weeks after COVID eviction …

What a trip.. best thing was being there as the leaves changed

Both of my vehicles ended up with busted struts , and my Kia began to be subjected to rust underneath . The person that I intended to give it to, had a very bad driveway , and drove the Kia through high rough grass.

I was informed I would not be able to get an inspection on the Kia next year due to the extent of the rust . A total loss…

I would not stay in a place like this again, it felt like prison at night, and I’m glad to have that experience behind me .

I felt very vulnerable with the transient folks coming through, and being on my on .

Sharing an abduction attempt story, please share

****ATTENTION PLEASE READ****

Last night I was downtown stopped at a stoplight. Suddenly the vehicle in front of me began backing up. I blared my horn but before I could do anything else the vehicle tapped the front end of my car. I stayed where I was. The man quickly jumped out of his car and approached my window. I cracked it just enough to talk to him. I asked for his insurance which he quickly flashed to me and said, “no damage come look.” I firmly said, “No I need a copy of your insurance.” The man just kept saying, “come out and look there’s no damage.” I stayed put. I asked once more for his insurance assuring him that I would call the cops and then took a picture of his license plate. Next thing I knew the man darted off, got into his car and drove away.

All I could think was that I had just gotten into a hit and run and hoped there really wasn’t any damage— it didn’t occur to me that this was an attempt to do so much more.

I called my dad to tell him what happened and ask for advice. I explained the situation and that I hadn’t got out yet to look when he said, “Don’t get out and go somewhere well lit.” I didn’t understand but I listened. I got out and looked sure enough there was no damage. My dad explained that this was likely a scheme to try to get me out of the car to possibly take me. I was instantly horrified at the idea. He asked me if the guy was in a van—he was. I’m sharing this to help make others aware of this scheme. Had I gotten out of the car I might not be here writing this post. PLEASE, PLEASE be cautious as this could happen to anyone. In other scenarios there could be another car behind you for a more aggressive attempt to take you or even multiple men getting out at once to approach your car. If you are at all unsure of a situation CALL THE POLICE.

I STILL DO NOT KNOW WHY I DIDNT GET OUT OF THE CAR BUT I’M REALIZING NOW THAT NOT DOING SO MAY HAVE SAVED MY LIFE.

I have reported the license plate/description of the vehicle to the police.

This post was written to be shared/to help warn others about a real life situation that happened/could happen to anyone.

Not Interested\

To The Ascension LightWorker Collective :The Ascension Process : As we clear out the dense layers of millions of lifetimes, we will move into experiencing ourselves as multidimensional beings who co-exist with many other beings and forces on earth and beyond.

Ascension triggers very deep layers of past trauma, false conditioning and programming, energetic implants, dense energy, shadows, past life and present life karma and all negative energy is to be purged and cleared out . This purging process will result in varied physical and emotional symptoms as well as dormant spiritual abilities being activated. The ascension process shifts the cells into higher frequency patterns so we may embody more light.

Ascension goes beyond just spiritual, physical, or mental shifting. What the ascension process opens us to is our entire being going through a complete transformation and as a result a shift in how we perceive, interact, and relate to the external world because of the inner shifting. This process is about realigning with divine Love which will shift us into the frequency of New Earth, our actual original and organic state of being.

As we go through the ascension process we are shifting consciousness from one reality to another and it is much like a radio channel we tune into. Currently many are shifting from experiencing a third dimensional reality to a fifth dimensional reality and through this process all ascending souls must go through the fourth dimension also.

These different realities are dimensions and we are experiencing a complete dimensional shift into this different kind of reality that has a Completely different energy and frequency.

Dimensional realities are held in place vibrationally by a complex layer of encoded energy , this creates an illusion of time and space that consciousness perceives and also participates in as experience.

When these dimensional grids begin to shift in frequency, there is a change in the magnetic attribute. Absolutely everything within the broadband will also shift and transform. There are natural laws that govern time and space, and because this shifting is occurring, these will alter also . What this ultimately means is that there is very dramatic changes in the perception of our spatial awareness as well as the relationship we have with time and space.

Over time, the weariness and exhaustion of the Ascension journey may take its toll, Temporarily leading us to a point of being completely drained. We encounter numerous challenges like dark nights of the soul, intense ascension symptoms, and strange experiences that defy our human understanding.

These experiences can trigger lower consciousness ego patterns, such as resentment, martyrdom, anger, frustration , blaming and grief. We may even feel the urge to isolate ourselves and escape from it all for a time . In these moments, it is wise to acknowledge and address these lower consciousness patterns. In self It becomes necessary to temporarily disengage from the Ascension process at times and prioritise self-care, health , nurturing the inner child and seeking healing in solace.

This respite allows rejuvenation and renewal, granting us the opportunity to approach the purpose from a higher plane once again, with the knowledge that other Starseeds are holding the energies in our absence. Ascension is about Deep Transmutation on All Levels of Being As we go through the ascension process, we are flooded with higher frequencies and light coming from the cosmos and this may trigger many kinds of ascension symptoms.

This will affect one on all levels of being including physically, mentally, emotionally and the spiritual in energetic layers. This ascension process also activates the twelve strand DNA which means that we are able to reach our higher potential and become fully empowered as multidimensional beings.

Transmutation symptoms can be moderate to extreme also as literally feeling at times like one is dying as the old sweeps away in tower moments. This has a great deal to do with the inner Ego death and surrender . It will always put up great inner resistance as it makes its way out From the control over the mind it once had .

To truly confront the darkness in the external world, we must first confront the so called Monsters within ourselves, as they are the source of all external darkness. Only by Authentically doing the inner work can we hope to bring lasting change and light into this world .

A significant shift in earth energy is now imminent, with noticeable effects already being felt. Prepare for the blessings as unexpected forces of light usher in change to remove individuals and circumstances that do not align with the Ascending purpose and journey.

Starseeds , moving forward we are approaching a very new and transformative energetic phase. with the expanding light of your soul you are illuminating the darkness of this world

Channeled with Love for The Ascending Collective . By Ascension LightWorkers

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Soul Exhaustion-

I’m not experiencing all of these but enough to make this term applicable. As a Pisces this isn’t my 1st life on earth and I’ve been challenged in all I try to accomplish , but have had and continue to succeed as well, so resting as much as possible.

www.californiapsychics.com/blog/mind-body-spirit/18-ways-you-may-be-experiencing-soul-exhaustion.html

How broken the mental health system is .

I lost a son to suicide while he was attending Pepperdine university, and I am convinced by the writings that he left me, the medications prescribed are the main cause. His doctor – well….. he shouldn’t be practicing medicine. He is a glorified drug dealer.

Anyway, fast forward to my 22 year old, who has had nothing but negative outcomes from medication and cranial magnetic therapy, and remained suicidal. He was rescued from an attempt just a few weeks ago. We chose to skip inpatient after his last crisis, and instead, sent him to Michigan for a more holistic approach. I am happy to share that he is doing amazing. He gets into the hyperbaric chamber often. He receives peptide injections and he also went through infusions that were five infusions within 10 days. I am collecting information on this type of therapy and plan to take it to the legislators in NY. I will get the official verbiage and share it with you all. The large issue is, of course, insurance companies do not want to cover most of the cost.

I just want those who are in a struggle and nothing seems to help, but instead, makes them worsen, to know that there is hope and help out there. I know that the doctor who over prescribed and was not fit to treat my son, are a big part of the puzzle that took my son away to soon. I want to help fight what has been taking place for far to long. I am thankful for all who are wanting to do the same.

A Mom

Narcissist & Food Control

Whew this was so factual per my experience that I knew I had received a gift.

I was very thin when we met and married and pregnant 3 months later .

I gained weight and was always hungry . In this marriage I had a much better diet, access to food and I gained 60 lbs , loosing 30 within 3 days of childbirth .

It did begin a serious issue that wasn’t discussed , as he stated later on , that he would have sex more often IF I lost weight .

I had little respect , for his continued using sex , with me as a sleeping elixir , and his extremely loud snoring precluded my sleep. I wasn’t desirous of sex with him .

Back to the eating … he loved food and I think we both had childhood food issues.. . But he defiantly wasn’t interested in me with weight on , which psychiatrist RX authenticated , as my weight increased , a red flag , in many ways .

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How to prepare for a new job as a highly sensitive person

I tested close to 100% and it was Super Hyper Sensitive. I believe the numbers here are not high enough , as vaccines , stress, trauma etc create a sensitivity that’s being diagnosed, horrifically , and medicated as a DSM , ” something else”

APA doing much harm.

Learn practical tips and strategies for starting a new job as a highly sensitive person (HSP) and dealing with anxiety in a new environment. Manage stress, build confidence, and thrive in your new role. Discover expert tips here!
— Read on www.welcometothejungle.com/en/articles/tips-for-a-highly-sensitive-person-starting-a-new-job

Antidepressants, Antipsychotics, and Benzos All Increase Suicide

These drugs are lethal, altering physical health, relationships , all that is natural and normal, often missing the trauma, the abuse, the family dynamics , placing all blame on the individual who is the patient, consumer , target .

In a study of people with borderline personality disorder, only ADHD stimulants were associated with a decrease in suicide.
— Read on www.madinamerica.com/2023/07/antidepressants-antipsychotics-and-benzos-all-increase-suicide-attempts-in-new-study/

Kim Saeed – The grooming of Narcissistic children

I don’t know who needs to see this, but if you share young children with a narcissist, fighting to maintain the family unit can actually backfire on you. While you’re fighting to keep your family intact, or even staying because you think it’s best for your children, the narcissist is grooming, conditioning, and poisoning your children against you.

So then, by the time you actually leave, there’s a very high likelihood that your children (who may be grown at this point), will side with the narcissist, despite the protective measures you tried to put in place.

* I have known this for decades , unfortunately . Our adult children are bonded to their Dad , and have voiced his ugliest , darkest thoughts , and certainly do not treat or talk to be with anything but contempt . He’s had help along the way , in this evilness , but they have faded away .

Still in total denial of being anything but a saint, a survivor , the good guy ….a light is coming to highlight his behavior .