Tag: Narcissist

Walking on eggshells – where a person feels coerced into silence to avoid the conflict from an abusive person – NOBODY SHOULD EVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS TYPE OF TOXICITY AND ABUSE with anyone, no matter if it is a parent, relative, friend, co-worker, spouse, partner, or professional!

Tested repeatedly, I have come to the awareness

recently tested , I am positive I cannot and will not

tolerate being coerced , especially in foundational

heart matters .

Walking on eggshells – where a person feels coerced into silence to avoid the conflict from an abusive person – NOBODY SHOULD EVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS TYPE OF TOXICITY AND ABUSE with anyone, no matter if it is a parent, relative, friend, co-worker, spouse, partner, or professional!

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What leads certain people to seek vengeance? Sadism — ScienceDaily

Hard to ignore the intensification…

People who enjoy hurting others and seeing them in pain are more likely to seek revenge against those who have wronged them, according to a new study.
— Read on www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2017/11/171130133827.htm

8 Behaviors Someone With a Personality Disorder Displays to Reveal Themselves

Personality disorders are sets of behaviors, thoughts, and feelings that impair functioning. Here are 8 traits of someone with a personality disorder…
— Read on www.powerofpositivity.com/personality-disorder-behaviors/

The Narcissist Always Over Idealizes Each New Partner 🎅🏼

Indeed , or at least that’s the social projection .

Extremely chummy right from the get go , I

recall meeting his roommate/childhood friend

1st , so it could have been one up man’s ship.

Plus I had pots and pans , could keep house

and he had not done that yet.. my caregiving

my empathy , and having no true reason to

doubt , or to over react to behaviors I had noted

as extremely angry and abusive in brothers

which I did not heal nor comprehend in its

totality until Dad’s exit began in Aug 2011…

The healing has been happening over a long

time .. I had synced with Dad as my main

nurturer , and extra sensitive to his mood , sense

deep and profound pain and shadow that he had

no resources for , and much shame and guilt

for ..

I have never known the shame or guilt for his very

open relationships , out of towners , my own sister

and god knows who else.

As he joined in union , then exited our home , he

was delirious with joy, a younger , more attractive

more adversary, partner who would be by his side

as twins , enjoying the increased targeting and abuse

while binding our sons closer and tighter in a web

of lies that’s been unraveling .

Like crumbs he leaves a trail.. Regrettably Reclamation

requires the truth , n light and apparently he’s been

inoculated.

But he does have a new gal ❤️.

This clearing includes them as well, if he chooses to accept this .

Blessings & Peace ,🙏❤️🥰

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Doña Luna

www.youtube.com/watch

Narcissist have No Loyalty to Anyone Anything – Trevor J. Freeman

This was masked , and over time became apparent

though very loyal in all appearances and actions

the negative language of mom , and much later

his 3rd person stories of his cheating .. Calling

him out on every lie or weirdness would have

consumed me.. As we were rushed in to parenthood

my blessing , his nightmare , and the decent in acknowledging

his deep detachment .. I did see growth, then it was

shadow again.. sensing he held a lot of pain, but he

never shared deeply , only this behavior described

in the video. It was dank and haunting , as a possessive

man, I was well aware of my chances in a divorce .

Causal and Toxic till the end …

©️Doña Luna

Blessings & Peace 🎄🎁🥳

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The Reaction Of a Narcissist When Met with Truth

What a Christmas gift 🎁, to hear this young man .

Hear his message to avoid the dark place that I complied

with , let’s make each experience that abuses children count

doing what we can in family reunification and simplify children’s

lives, families lives …

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Blessings & Peace ❤️🎄

Doña Luna

www.youtube.com/watch

Weaponized Blocking via Narcissist

Lots of truths in my experience , teamed with mom, or

beloved or kids , I’ve been blocked over 20 years , targeted

to shut me up .

Using children weaponized Abuse for Power and 🤑

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna

www.youtube.com/watch

The Spiritual Within The Narcissist Experience Of Abuse

Anxiety denotes the awakening of spirit .

My anxiety born of abuse was medicated with Xanax .

Xanax allowed me to become an addict very quickly due

to my extreme sensitivity ..

5 per day for 2 weeks created a chemically induced

nervous breakdown.

On that day in April , and in my incarceration in a mental

ward( Hell on earth for 17 days ) , I was shown signs of spirit .

*The nurse who rushed a fellow patient who was going

to choke me , whispering in my ear ” honey you don’t belong

here”!

My eventual Christian room mate who had such peace

that helped me to calm down enough to know I had to

go home , to Mother our sons , for there was nothing to

heal me me there .. I knew the truth of who I was married

to and how vicious he’d be in a divorce , and so I surrendered

to trying to work things out .

I am not discounting my behaviors , The betrayal of many years

was suspected , behaviors were abusive and horrific , when

the mask was fully revealed 3 months in 24 legal years

of marriage to a stranger ..My concern and compassion

my fears and tears and love were not enough , and I understand

that fully now.

Narcissist are Dark Angels , Survivors Of Trauma ; unhealed .

I have been trying to step out of this shadow , and spiritually

have deepened my faith…in myself …in my efforts and so many

who strive to push through Domestic Abuse/ChildAbuse .

Some find my journey inspiring , Some back off as if it’s catching,

Some are triggered and catalyzed to heal their own families.

Some are fearful of actions they are not sorry for , only

sorry to be found out..exposed . Part of why I had the

negative experience , a partner who wasn’t …

Others are overwhelmed with my varied negative experiences

and my ability to continue to move forward …That does get

more difficult in repeated attempts to impede my progress

and guidance tells me , more positive energy awaits , and

I may have to endure abuse to get there .

Thy Will Is Done

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Blessings & Peace ,

Doña Luna 🎄🎁

www.youtube.com/watch

https://youtu.be/RT-MOY4wzeA

Holidays and the Narcissist

The lovely memories of Christmas past within

our family have been covertly destroyed in

my non allowance to participate or be acknowledged .

To do so would dishonor the ever present

hatred of Mother and Son , to whom all bow.

He brags in court about how much he spends

well aware of his power; Tis unfortunate that

this escapes the judge .

In my experience within this ” relationship”

year after year of watching as his gifts were presented

in unlimited expenditures, and a token singular gift

given our sons or myself. Gifts from him were

thoughtless , impersonal or later on tweaked by

someone else’s gift…What’s perceived as a loving gift

by a man who has it all, is contrived and cheap

lacking thought, it was just another show.

Our last 5 Christmas as a family , I did not participate

in holidays , for I lived day today , medicated into

a submission that he could advantage while he made

his plans to extract himself . As those 5 years wound

down , Mom heard of his victimhood and of course

rescued him without a pause ..Trauma Bound ?

Perhaps .

From birthdays to sacred holidays to observing Mothers

Day , the Grinch who stole holidays, sucks happiness

and joy , much less light out of his ladies.. Shameful

it’s allowed , shameful it still serves him and ” his”

family , to reduce the Mother of his sons that he is

Mother/Father/God .

I’m clearly knowing many truths are going to be highlighted

and much effort will be put in front of me to block if not

kill me .

I don’t feel I have a choice , in lieu of on going abuse.

I don’t celebrate Christmas as I used to ..I have tried

but it’s not the same in many regards .

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Blessings & Peace

Doña Luna

www.youtube.com/watch