Silence/ Blocking

Once I give you silence

I’ve nothing left to say

I’ve retreated to my darkness

I’ve moved out of your way

Silence is my blessing

Silence is my curse

And once I pass it on to you

I’m finished with the words

There’s nothing left to be said

And nothing left to do

When I retreat in silence

Just know I’m really through

I’m sure you feel the distance

It’s tangible, it’s real

Because I’ve got nothing left for you

There’s nothing left I feel

Just the ghost of aching sadness

A memory, a dream

Like something I’ve forgotten

As I’ve forgotten how to scream

Once I give you silence

I’ve blessed you with my curse

I’ve moved on to better things

And I’m putting myself first.

~Mandy Kocsis©2022~

Truth Tellers

As a child I was treated like a snitch for being honest . I recall telling Dad that Mom was smoking when she told him she was not .

I was young and may not have understood the dynamics but I did not lie or ignore what I saw . Not to say that I was validated rather I was not treated well for refusing the shadow of lies

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Splitting ; Child Psychology Abuse

The child who starts creating additional ‘bad’ stories about the target parent has truly been alienated. They have ‘split’ off the fear, guilt, sadness, and confusion so they can behave in a way that hurts the other parent and pleases the favoured parent, who might not love them otherwise. They act out of fear, and much coercive control and manipulation. It is, of course, child psychological abuse. When we get contact with these poor children, we have to be extremely careful not to talk about manipulation, lies, parental alienation, and as a target parent, you have to be so immensely strong, emotionally and mentally because there is so much injustice being carried out. Please take time to make sure you are in the best mental and emotional health you can be. Stay strong.

This comes up , threats to expose me as a sexual predator for innocent childhood exchanges now weaponized to shut me up

Lots of folks want to twist the knife in once you’re targeted by an animal individual who will do anything, use anybody , pay any amount of money to WIN

#NotMyWar

Narcissist and it’s Discontents

This Ted Talk with a specialist

rocked my world about 4 days

ago.

After being exampled yet again

at very high cost to me,

listening to her ,I am sure to

be more discerning about

my energy and luxuriant

in every minute of drama

and trauma free peace.

That’s most disturbing of all

to this narcissistic epidemic;

They know not Peace !

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Leaving A Narcissist

Unfortunately psychiatric “care” by an alumni of his reduced me physically and mentally , spiritually depleted with absolutely no one who had an awareness and supported me .

It was a wasteland ; and in that space he went for the juggler as his ” non interest ” was exhibited with his new supply were giddy with new love .

Showing me that I had no place at the table as it were , he walked out and I knew I’d be in peril due to ALL being his .

Being so medicated as to render me indefensible and secretive information that received years later bear out his strategy of complete alienation of anything healthy , joyful or equatable .

Winner take all ,and yes he tried

The one message I have for you today is this…⁣⁣⁣⁠

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If the person who’s causing you pain had any plans to stop hurting you, they would have done it by now.⁣⁣⁣⁠

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If you are dealing with a narcissist, never, ever give credence to their words. Always pay attention to their actions.⁣⁣⁣⁠

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And they don’t get credit for “being good” for a few days if they go back to being abusive. Even Hitler had his moments of seeming kindness.⁣⁣⁣⁠

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Some people are excellent actors, reading you the script you want to hear that feeds into the fantasy that things will get better…soon, one day, if only you hang in there.⁣⁣⁣⁠

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On the flip side, a person might not be generous with kind words, but you know from their actions that they care about you …because they SHOW it.⁣⁣⁣⁠

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Lip service does not lead to happiness. Take a long hard look at the patterns and draw your conclusions from there.⁣⁣⁣⁠

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And if you need support, check out the resources in my link.

There’s something in there for everyone.⁣⁣⁣:

👉 https://liinks.co/kim.saeed

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#newlife #nocontact #spiritual #healing #lifebeginsafternocontact #narcissisticabuserecovery⁣

Isolation Abuse of Narcissism

Her words blew me away as the experiences I have had are part of the entirety of the dark shadow that never sees the light .

I seemed to have known for decades after event after event , stagnant growth that deteriorated in a lack of consciousness and connection with God and he must have known .

Loosing respect , trust and love as you fear for your children while in a ” chemical straightjacket ” and under his control , unable to find legal representation for this ongoing high conflict , malignant war he remains in .

In a time of rising consciousness , those who continue to abuse , use and target another are exposing themselves in the equation .

Across the board , the highest on high in our world to the lowest of the low , we choose our destiny after hardships that defy anything close to normal , or safe .

On my own is absolutely the right place for me 🙏

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