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It was a Sunday.

I was prescribed 3600 mg of Neurontin which in high dosages or

patient sensitivity , induces suicide .

https://www.rxlist.com/neurontin-side-effects-drug-center.htm

https://www.rxlist.com/neurontin-drug.htm#descriptio

*note 1800 mg limit advised

https://www.techtimes.com/articles/226988/20180505/how-a-25-year-old-drug-for-nerve-pain-called-gabapentin-showed-up-in-opioid-overdoses.htm

https://drugabuse.com/neurontin/…tons of facts within .

I had a new RX , to use for Bipolar Mania , though I was not told I

was manic .

https://www.psycom.net/seroquel-quetiapine/

” Former had exited our home 12/27/98

On my birthday , I was home alone , which wasn’t unusual.

I don’t recall any phone calls, any gifts . Mom was 6 weeks

from death . Oldest son had moved out 2 weeks after ” former”.

I was extremely sad , toxic from the RX and abuse that had

been ignored , as a ” mental patient ” becoming more

invisible .. But 3 sons , as well as myself were catalyst to try

to hang in there .

These drugs induced a very horrific near death, which our

youngest discovered as he come home on a Sunday night.

A school night , and he says he called ” former” .

* This discussion only came up in past few years.

” Former says to me , that it was he , who found me.

He did not live there , and seldom dropped in . Any

celebration that was not his held little interest .

Middle son, when asked about that night , stated

he was returning home and discovered the ambulance

loading me .

I was discovered on the floor . My night gown was

cut away to access me. Any effort to aspirate me

was met with my effort to stop em, finally I pulled

it out ..

It was a natural reflex to a force in my mouth

uninvited , fighting against the action as frightening

in my state , as was my oral rape at age 5 .

An IV was near impossible , which is normal .

I was foaming from the mouth , and I was taken

to a local ER.

I have the records .

The time line would make both of our youngest

sons returning home at a very late hour .

” Former” was not excited to return to our home

for any reason . From my examination of these

official Er records there was a huge amount of

time that professionally would point to a delay

by ” former ” who called for ambulance .

I strongly suggest , he allowed our son to be there

alone with me, delaying the EMTs in hopes I

would die .. ending a lot of issues for him.

I woke in an open ward , full of patients , in

all forms of distress . I had on a hospital gown

and lovely nurses attending to me . I recall

speaking up about the angels taking care of us

in defense as I heard complaints coming to.

I was taken to the psyche center across the street

for 4 days , and no contact from ” former”

or our sons .

“Former” refused to sign the paperwork that would

allow me to return home. Rage hit me as I knew

his ” Sweetie ” was predominating his natural

instinct to step out of responding , and Dad arrived

to sign me out . Both of us sat before 4 Drs , and Dad

was very defensive . A son had agreed in council

to family therapy …it never ever happened .

It was my problem..

That experience was so not me , and I was shocked

beyond belief to read the chart info , 2005.

To realize neither a partner , nor a doctor cared

one twit for me, and continued to ignore the trauma

of 3 young men.

I was very Blessed to survive the induced suicide .

In the facility , I discovered an elder past childhood

neighbor and 2 of her children.

And I saw a former soul mate , who had lost

himself to addiction, as a response to his abuse

as a child. Our eyes met from across the room,

with acknowledgment , neither of us ” present”

it was just another ” insanity ” of those addicted

and abused years.

Thing is , no one ever , discussed this horrible event

with our sons.

I don’t hear from them on my birthday.

I don’t get calls.

I don’t get gifts .

A newbie DIL took me for a very lovely BD lunch

gifts etc .Very sweet, however when I stated that

dining with son included would be wonderful , a

very successful businessman, I was informed

I must adhere to a $10 limit .. I payed the difference .

So family celebrations , ended over 20 years ago.

I hear repeatedly how I’m not family ..

I’m allowed to participate in info gathering

Always , disposed of when it’s a family

celebration .

It’s a family tradition to target me , in honor

of an individual who had no issue with my

induced , premature death serving him .

I wanted to picture the proof , but must consider

legal before doing so.

Yet another 20 year cycle of negative energy

ends , as I give Thanks to have survived

an axis of evil , who still chooses to exemplify

a covert Narcissistic Personality , who has

no interested in the best outcome for his children

and grandchildren .

Have to ask why this doesn’t matter to authorities ?

Happy Birthday ! 🎈