It was a Sunday.
I was prescribed 3600 mg of Neurontin which in high dosages or
patient sensitivity , induces suicide .
https://drugabuse.com/neurontin/…tons of facts within .
I had a new RX , to use for Bipolar Mania , though I was not told I
was manic .
” Former had exited our home 12/27/98
On my birthday , I was home alone , which wasn’t unusual.
I don’t recall any phone calls, any gifts . Mom was 6 weeks
from death . Oldest son had moved out 2 weeks after ” former”.
I was extremely sad , toxic from the RX and abuse that had
been ignored , as a ” mental patient ” becoming more
invisible .. But 3 sons , as well as myself were catalyst to try
to hang in there .
These drugs induced a very horrific near death, which our
youngest discovered as he come home on a Sunday night.
A school night , and he says he called ” former” .
* This discussion only came up in past few years.
” Former says to me , that it was he , who found me.
He did not live there , and seldom dropped in . Any
celebration that was not his held little interest .
Middle son, when asked about that night , stated
he was returning home and discovered the ambulance
loading me .
I was discovered on the floor . My night gown was
cut away to access me. Any effort to aspirate me
was met with my effort to stop em, finally I pulled
it out ..
It was a natural reflex to a force in my mouth
uninvited , fighting against the action as frightening
in my state , as was my oral rape at age 5 .
An IV was near impossible , which is normal .
I was foaming from the mouth , and I was taken
to a local ER.
I have the records .
The time line would make both of our youngest
sons returning home at a very late hour .
” Former” was not excited to return to our home
for any reason . From my examination of these
official Er records there was a huge amount of
time that professionally would point to a delay
by ” former ” who called for ambulance .
I strongly suggest , he allowed our son to be there
alone with me, delaying the EMTs in hopes I
would die .. ending a lot of issues for him.
I woke in an open ward , full of patients , in
all forms of distress . I had on a hospital gown
and lovely nurses attending to me . I recall
speaking up about the angels taking care of us
in defense as I heard complaints coming to.
I was taken to the psyche center across the street
for 4 days , and no contact from ” former”
or our sons .
“Former” refused to sign the paperwork that would
allow me to return home. Rage hit me as I knew
his ” Sweetie ” was predominating his natural
instinct to step out of responding , and Dad arrived
to sign me out . Both of us sat before 4 Drs , and Dad
was very defensive . A son had agreed in council
to family therapy …it never ever happened .
It was my problem..
That experience was so not me , and I was shocked
beyond belief to read the chart info , 2005.
To realize neither a partner , nor a doctor cared
one twit for me, and continued to ignore the trauma
of 3 young men.
I was very Blessed to survive the induced suicide .
In the facility , I discovered an elder past childhood
neighbor and 2 of her children.
And I saw a former soul mate , who had lost
himself to addiction, as a response to his abuse
as a child. Our eyes met from across the room,
with acknowledgment , neither of us ” present”
it was just another ” insanity ” of those addicted
and abused years.
Thing is , no one ever , discussed this horrible event
with our sons.
I don’t hear from them on my birthday.
I don’t get calls.
I don’t get gifts .
A newbie DIL took me for a very lovely BD lunch
gifts etc .Very sweet, however when I stated that
dining with son included would be wonderful , a
very successful businessman, I was informed
I must adhere to a $10 limit .. I payed the difference .
So family celebrations , ended over 20 years ago.
I hear repeatedly how I’m not family ..
I’m allowed to participate in info gathering
Always , disposed of when it’s a family
It’s a family tradition to target me , in honor
of an individual who had no issue with my
induced , premature death serving him .
I wanted to picture the proof , but must consider
legal before doing so.
Yet another 20 year cycle of negative energy
ends , as I give Thanks to have survived
an axis of evil , who still chooses to exemplify
a covert Narcissistic Personality , who has
no interested in the best outcome for his children
and grandchildren .
Have to ask why this doesn’t matter to authorities ?
Happy Birthday ! 🎈